>father accused me of being possessed by a demon again
So what if your family being destroyed is actually an added bonus of killing yourself

>>22954816 (OP)
i like your style, kid
but don't kil your family and then yourself dumbass
just run away instead
you'll be alright

there's a whole life waiting for you

>>22954821
I didn’t mean kill them I meant they wouldn’t just fall apart if I died

I would leave if I could but I don’t have any money or anything

>>22954823
Where?

>>22954824
it's better than suicide
the world is cold, but it isn't out to get you the way your family might be
i know people who hopped a bus at age 16 and went to other cities with no support network, now they're doing well for themselves
you could get an apprenticeship & get a job that way, or figure something else out
there's always the military and oilrig work, but you don't have to do that

>>22954828
that's up to you

the US is a pretty good place to start from nothing, atleast compared to alot of countries
there's always another town/city, and you can get very far away from your family without them finding you
the economy is rough but it's still one of the best places to get a job

i'm sorry you have to go through this, but it'll get easier, whatever you end up doing

>>22954849
Thanks I hope so

>>22954855
checked

for now, just try to take walks or something
get some breathing room from your family, maybe find a place where you can scream freely
find some outlet for frustration if you can
ANYTHING besides sitting still and going insane

>>22954867
I go for walks often at first it’s nice but than I realize I hate my town lol

>>22954876
fair
that happened to me pretty quickly as well lol
there still might be nice spots, though
i found a business park near a water treatment plant with some woods
it's a nice peaceful place to run
the treatment plant stinks & makes noise, but still

but yeah, i can't help but envy these mathematicians who casually talk about travelling to switzerland & shit for their work

i think it's time to leave our towns

try to take small steps, but if you can't manage it because of family bullshit, just keep your cool & remember there's plenty of drastic options (military, bus-hopping, etc) you can resort to

>>22954816 (OP)
>>22954824
You need to fix your writing. Capitalization, and PERIODS to seperate your schizo thoughts from blending together, so people know what the fuck you're saying.