failed sobermaxxing again i want to die
everyone and everything is a fuck and the whole world should die horribly

me first please

>>23054560
the ghosts won't leave
i can't be free i only want to be left alone

>>23054539 (OP)
>>23054575
sorry

>>23054592
i do not like this picture it makes me uneasy and looks like one of my weird nightly fever dreams

>>23054628
that is kinda what it is
it's from "a scanner darkly"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaLLy-U8MkI

if you take melatonin every night, that might be makign the fever dreams worse

sorry idk what to say really

>>23054539 (OP)
>>23054628
alot of people don't manage to sobermaxx
i don't know how it feels, but try not to beat yourself up too much atleast

>>23054849
i do not take melatonin every night i do not take anything lately bc sobermaxxing
the whole point behind my boozing and pilling was that ptsd and other trauma combined with autism will not allow me to sleep or otherwise function normally

>>23054849
>>23054870
that said: the point behind sobermaxxing is that these things are slowly killing me and i do not want that

>>23054539 (OP)
just a reason to try again

>>23054870
>>23054877
i see

scary world
i guess it's not supposed to be scary

>>23054905
i don't know but it keeps me awake at night

>>23054929
yeah

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=THM4fUdz8Mc

>>23054539 (OP)
that initial craving cant have enough feeling is the worst, I cant imagine being a long term alcoholic and killing that

>>23055032
my dad managed to quit vodkamaxxing
he has perpetual heartburn now though

>>23055038
>no gag rexlex
>burned it off with captain morgan

Another blog poster