Thread 23068518

i just turned 37 and realized in the last couple years i really want a family. my last gf of 10 months promised me these things only to end up being an explosive BPD who cant control her own emotions. i only attract mentally ill women. the only other women who really wanted to get married and have kids were brown and i want White kids.

i dont get it. i think its because i look 10 years younger and dress alternative, but even trying to look more normal i cant pull it off and everyone assumes im leftist. most consider me to be above average in appearance but im naturally scrawny so ill never be some muscle bound trad guy and the girls that like the niche im filling are just mentally ill. all my girlfriends have been bipolar or bpd and 10+ years younger and i just cant attract a normal girl. especially since being single the last few months, its been all fat leftists.

before anyone says "find God" or whatever I have embraced christianity over the last couple years especially after my dad died and while it helps me look out for the bad women it doesnt bring me good women either, im not into normie church girls but more so theyre not into me, i would absolutely marry one if i could.

wtf do i do? if i dont breed by 40 i have zero reason to continue doing anything my life is completely substanceless now, no point in doing anything. i see the most vile people with kids and it just blows my mind what am i doing wrong?

>>23068518 (OP)
You live in pedo country. Your kids will be raped by Jews. First get rid of pedos.

I'm in exactly the same boat as you buddy, same age as well.

I proposed to last woman I dated, told her I want a family, that I will buy her a beautiful house.

She simply told me no, no explanation just "no".

After that I kind of gave up.

>>23068518 (OP)
I’m 39 and also want kids. But I’ve made my peace with the fact that it will never happen. Probably gonna rope during the next few years or months. I have nothing to live for. Even my copes (vidya, anime, porn) don’t work anymore. I’m too big of an autistic weirdo for this planet.

>>23068518 (OP)
Bump 35 years old slavic mutt look white enongh too pass as white only 22% khazarian i embraced jesus and our old father perun as my guides in this hell hole found a slavic mutt girl like me ( bpd turbo slut) body count 30, she is 23, 2 years off non stop spergy hell (used to it, i have schizophrenic mother).
From all the data i collected she cant be fixed into a semi normal mother specially not in israel we are ruled by whores here.
Only muslims,druze, and somewhat christian arabs can keep there women (somewhat in check)
Recetly i see arab women starting to behave like slavic whores and dress like typical moscow bimbos.
I have my moments of faggotry 22% demon inside of me but self aware can combat him daily.
115 iq
Smart anons 130+ pls help.
Christos is king.

>>23068522
There's so much to unpack here I don't even know where to start.

>>23068518 (OP)
You can still breed in your 40s but you need cash.

>>23068522
based ashkenazi schizo
now you listen and you listen good, men can pull easily well into their early 50s if you have your shit together and look good
dump the crazy and hit the weights and get visibly jacked then find yourself a nice 18yo that doesn't have any kids and has to work for a living, I'm talking real work like at a supermarket not a nail salon

>>23068522
>Christos is king.
>115 iq

>>23068518 (OP)
visit ukraine
I hear theres plenty of white girls looking for a boyfriend/husband

>>23068518 (OP)
Firstly men have kids well into old age. You might have autistic down syndrome kids, but you'll still have them. Secondly if having kids is the be all and end all of your life you might as well anhero, because it might never happen. What if you shoot blanks? What if you never find a woman that is a suitable mother or partner. Maybe try being a homosexual and having a test tube kid

I had my first kid when my wife and I were 40. No health problems, he's perfect! Very grateful to God, genuinely. We had two miscarriages but kept at it.

>>23068526
Whats the problem hans ?

>>23068518 (OP)
>1 post by this ID
>dear diary bullshit nothing to do with politics

jannies clean this garbage up and throw this asshole in the cooler

and his shitty blog in the trash can

>>23068525
Thx im on the manlet side of things 5'9 but yes i look decent face ok, build ok.
Money wise not pwrfect but tge last 2 years ive became a tradie and it works out pulling decemt numbers ( compared to the market here)

I'm a fair bit younger than that but more or less have the same problem. Ever since the coof, I haven't met any decent single white women that want anything to do with kids (besides the ones they already have). A lot of people have little interest in anything but entertaining themselves for the day, most my age don't do any public socializing or going out in public whatsoever most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder if the lord is suggesting I not get too attached to this world and its future. That would be a mercy as well, but it's unfortunate, because despite the often posted "durr chan poster not good", there's not much wrong with me, and I would have rather contributed genes and knowledge and stability to the next generation instead of watching it all burn while I hoard fiat and make works that will be lost to time immediately upon my death.
Do I dare try trading it all for surrogacy with no mother figure, or would it be better to not try cheating nature and stop trying to fight the tide drawing this world into a place I'd almost rather not send a child who could think as I do anyway?
This may be a shitty blog thread but I'd rather post about a widespread problem I'm experiencing than watch another 10 directionbrain zogwar threads go by.

>>23068533
You will never breed

>>23068518 (OP)
Evolution didnt favor you. Just accept that your genes were not "the fittest". Being white isnt enough. Your kids would have lived terrible lives. Once you let it go you'll be able to find new things to enjoy.

Well do you want kids or not
So pay the price

>>23068518 (OP)
find a 6'5" gangly woman, get her drunk and impregnate her
you'll probably have to pay child support, but at least your genes will survive another 19 years

None of this happened

Bump

>>23068534
I have the money and will to try, at least to a certain extent. I'm already in with a fertility clinic so I don't need to worry about most of those what-ifs you posted. I'm aware most people would take that action as a bad sign of my future success to begin with, rather than the long term planning befitting of a white man, but perhaps instead in can inform you just how difficult it is for someone out of college to find a decent women despite otherwise having success and drive to get what they want.
At what point should one give it up though? I'm not rich, it would only take a bit of bad luck to set me very far back, especially where surrogacy is concerned.
Imagining my own life without my mother sounds hellish. Is it right to go that far, to embrace the hell this world is descending into?
Do the forces both above and below want me to bow out? Am I ready to become a new kind of animal that is adapted to the environment to come?

>>23068729
Until death.
I came from cossacks i cant fandom losing witgout a fight.
Wgmi bruv.

>>23068518 (OP)
ah nice a scary post

Bro if it’s not meant to be it’s not meant to be. All you need to do is tell God you want kids and to show you the right path for it.
>I want white kids
Again if you’re not meant to have white kids then it’s not meant to be. Ask God, and keep your eyes and mind open.

>>23068518 (OP)
Not reading all that.
Just become a passport bro and get an Asian woman pregnant.

>>23070189
Because this is all anonymous it’s hard to tell if OP is actually just ugly or has a shitty personality. I know when I had bad acne I was pulling NO chicks even getting fat bitches was tough. My skin clears up all of sudden chicks are giving me a chance or don’t mind hanging out

>>23070261
Did you read a single thing I typed?
That’s incredible dawg, I’m impressed as heck. That was also my life from age 23 on until I stopped associating myself with leftist demons

why is all the larp post the exact same thing

Nigger