Thread 23099104

Shoul have died at 16 or smthng

>>23099104 (OP)
i feel you

it seems like your genes do their best to force you to stay alive, even if your spirit kinda fades or changes
sometimes the body/genes fail or succeed, and sometimes the spirit fails or succeeds, but the two are really separate processes

>>23099104 (OP)
It's an autonomous mix of luck and chance.

>>23099112
I agree in a sense, I have this very deep feeling that I died somewhere around 15-17 and I've been spiritually dead ever since. Sometimes I'm lucky and I manage, other times I am aware of that and I just wait for my body to shut down

>>23099156
i once mentioned it to my mom in the car, and she said something like "yeah, i had died 7 times by the time i was your age" as if it was somehow impressive or cool
it's fucked

but yeah please don't give up anon
i've met people who said they met someone who saved their life, and they seemed happy & full of life/vigor when i talked to them
anything can happen

>>23099104 (OP)
Real. I regret not dying around 19-23 at latest. Now I have to rot in my 30s in a couple years.

>>23099104 (OP)
Same, but about 22
19-22 were some of my best years, all downhill from there

If you were supposed to be dead you would be. When you disregard your current life and act as though you're not gonna do anything else in the future is a great way to ensure the rest of your life will be miserable. At three purple hearts I should be dead like actually dead but I'm not. Appreciate your life and the time you get. Make the most of it.