Thread 23128683

Everything is stupid, im schizo, the voices play jedi mind tricks on me all the time and I don't even like star wars, this is the worst.

>>23128683 (OP)
I never watched starwars i only know from the memes

>>23128683 (OP)
What are the voices telling you now?

>>23128683 (OP)
gaslight them back

It only becomes an issue when you start acting on the voices irl. Thoughts are just thoughts and if you can avoid acting because of them then you'll be alright but if you are acting on them, meds is the way!

>>23128702
Something something they're gonna horrifically torture me in the future
>>23128713
I act on what the voices make me do 24/7. Technically I'm always under their control and they've simply chosen not to throw me off the balcony.

>>23128683 (OP)
do you take your meds?
maby talk to your mental health specialist if you need other medications

>>23128723
oh so instincts like i do
not having to think and acting, and somehow it turns out to be exactly what needed to be done for greater later payoff.

>>23128723
Why would they do something like that to you?

>>23128740
Not at the moment, the meds I was taking gave me nothing but side effects. ChatGPT recommends clozapine for my case but says it'll make my anhedonia worse so idk if I wanna take the nightmare pills.
>>23128742
The voices did force me to ruin my own career and then turn around and get me a sugar mommy gf to take care of me so maybe that's not entirely inaccurate
>>23128745
My schizophrenic "delusion" is i'm in a club called "Torture Town" where aliens come to watch us suffer. I've been sent to hospital multiple times.

>>23128767
and it literally wouldntthave happened any other way
almost like you were following the invisible strings of fate to your best base.

>>23128767
oh thats not le good you should never get off your meds without the help of your mental health specialist trust me i have been there before too and it can make things worse
after several stays in the mental hospital and a psychosomatic rehabilitation program i think the docs finally found the "best" solution for me but schizophrenia is a shit illness they all say that
you need to find the combination of meds that work best for you, i still have some side effects too but they are bearable for the most part

>>23128773
You have no idea. I have literally zero free will and am under the control of the voices 24/7. Technically you're not even talking to me you're talking to the voices posing as me. Your positive outlook falls flat when you realize the voices have caused me a fair amount of pain and when they're not they're usually bullying me. They've gotten in the habit of "accidentally" smashing all my wine glasses recently. Why? Because wine glasses are fucking stupid and you can just drink wine out of a regular glass, they say.
>>23128796
Yeah I'm working on it. You realize the meds only work cause the voices let them work right?

>>23128807
they're not wrong
and mine do the same
yet i became a bakery manager
one who does things without shitty checklists
but by feel of do this and boost that and we can hit that tomorrow
who runs the most profitable bakery in the chain at over 50% proffit

>>23128767
So pharmacists and doctors have a habit of overdosing patients with meds just to be on the safe side. If you can as for a lower dosage to see if it helps with the voices, go for that. State you are currently not taking meds and would like to try [medication of your choice] at a low dosage. You can ask ChatGTP for what a low dosage would look like. Take the low dosage for a few days and see what happens and if there are side effects, stop them again. With schizophrenia it's all about being on a medication journey to find what dosages and combinations work for you as the person who has to take the medication, not what the doctors say who only ever experience meds from a textbook.

>>23128807
this sounds like possession
or kinda like that rare disorder where your hands fight with each other, after that brain surgery for epileptic patients

don't ask an llm for your dosage wtf is wrong with you

>>23128807
you need to fight that delusion

>>23128807
>Yeah I'm working on it. You realize the meds only work cause the voices let them work right?
that sounds like what the voices would say to convince you it's pointless
"i was only PRETENDING to be retarded >:)"

>>23128825
Yeah well im a sugar baby now so thats nice.
>>23128830
yea I'd rather not lose some or all of my pleasure in life but I'd also like to be able to take actions again without the explicit permission of the voices and according to chatGPT it might be a choice between those two options so.
>>23128833
Yeah it would have been considered demonic possession in the olden days.

>>23128855
when the corporates give lists of improvement checklists to the other managers then tell me, a clueless retard who is shitposting on company time, that i know what i'm doing.

>>23128926
eheheh

>>23128849
>>23128854
They've verified this to me directly. I used to smoke meth and the voices could choose whether or not the meth even did anything. A logical deduction would imply they can do the same with antipsychotics. That being said I'm pretty sure they do let them work for whatever reason. So I'll try the meds. 50/50 chance they'll work according to chatGPT

>>23128978
>I used to smoke meth and the voices could choose whether or not the meth even did anything. A logical deduction would imply they can do the same with antipsychotics.
interesting, back in university, I lived is a sharehouse full of mates, we were always drinking and experimenting(not always on ourselves, and often on each other, with or without consent) drugs. there was one guy living with us, a full blown, formerly institutionalised, barely medicated genuine schizo. my mate josh and I thought it would be a funny prank to spike all of his food with micro doeses for high-powered blotter acid for a month and a half. strangely enough our schizo friend started acting normal, stopped talking to himself, got a job, somehow found a gf and stopped going of crossdressing bush walks at midnight to build shrine to imagined gods.

>>23128767
how did you get a sugar momma? I've been trying for years. Any tips?

>>23129030
The idol of my gods is this poster on my wall. I don't worship or revere it though, I hallucinate a lot when I look at it and the schizophrenia often forces me to do so. I often hallucinate it licking its lips or spitting on me as im falling asleep.
>>23129066
Can't help you with that, my relationship is a demonically arranged marriage. We're both schizo and we were forced together by supernatural forces.

>>23129125
that's slightly more healthy that they guy at the bus stop that jerks off to powerline, because he thinks saddam hussein and adolf hitler are hiding inside them having lustful thought about each other and his penis is a magic wand to lure them out.

>>23129165
The voices tell me they're going to torture me more and more in escalating fashion, and eventually they'll make be believe I was hitler in my past life and that's why I'm being tortured so badly. But it gets worse, after that they'll make me believe I'm Cthulhu, an entity that is literally responsible for every bad thing that ever happened in the universe, and THAT'S why I'm getting tortured so badly. It would be funny if it weren't so fucking terrifying cause they've already fucked me up so badly they sent me to hospital multiple times and I know they can make be believe whatever twisted bullshit they want.

>>23129227
now i know you're just fucking with me
delulu fantasies only abs, dt and gado had right before they got grippy socks
do NOT talk to any normalniggers except your "mommy" about this and ask her for help and understanding.

>>23129227
you were stored with a good person for a good reason, but it's also a base to build on.
i'm a sealer of carbs and everything says they should expand my balery's capabilities, i just have to be persuasive or insistent.
what did you always want to do?
if it's cooking you could become a chef maker ng sure your hard working wife at least had a salad when they came in hangry.

>>23129245
Words on a screen moment, if you know you know and if you don't I'm not allowed to explain it to you

>>23129266
"cause the sex is always better when you're mad at me"?
brat

what is going on here...

>>23129273
Why yes. That is my genuine personality.

>>23129245
i dont have grippy socks i wish i had some

>>23129277
Schizoposting

>>23129282
well you're in proper storage while the apocalypse happens.
good luck repopulating once the dust has settled (probably too many people have a spot in a bunker down under.)

>>23129288
just go back and ask if you can buy them, or ask politely online.

>>23129320
i dont want anons to buy stuff for me...

>>23129288
"your socks are the best socks, can i buy hem at a slight markup?"

>>23129324
no, you as a person asking.

>>23129282
have yhou played va11halla?
i've listened to the soundtrack but haven't played it

>>23129325
you can have them for free or maby the uhhh delivery process

>>23129326
what do you mean?

>>23129329
is that a laptop motherboard or something??
i like this picture

>>23129436
its caseless nuc

>>23129329
brother
you might have discovered the infinite christmas socks glitch.
but you have to ask them about it, saying they make you more comfortable or something.
they might just send them to you for free.

>>23129573
i dunno dude who would care about me desu desu

>>23129454
ah makes sense

>>23129314
>good luck repopulating
No thank you I'm not spreading this fucking hereditary curse unless the voices physically force me to
>probably too many people have a spot in a bunker down under
I'd rather just die desu
>>23129328
yea you should play it.

>>23129656
maybe i just will
>1536541417759.jpg
<3

>>23129639
a random internet inquiry or just saying at the place you need the socks because they help you sleep ((it's free isn't it?) europe medical))((lie or not)make it up as you go)
you know what you need.

>>23129663
i dont need anything they should keep their money to themselfs or giive it away to some fren in need
i have everything i need desu

>>23129656
if you're th femboy taking the "a boy and his dog" existence until you're milked dry by a puritan society backed my robots that will just be your lot in life.
don't say i didn't warn you.

>>23129669
but you could potentially get free socks

>>23129676
i dunno why would they send them ???

>>23129673
Looking forward to Tetris the borzoi next September

>>23129679
free healthcare

>>23129696
lucky ass nigga

>>23129714
but they smell

>>23129775
do they?

It's better than having an animal whose imagination is like a stuffed white animal that moves on its own.
And by the way, I can hear its voice.

>>23129775
fresh rubber?

these types of blog threads just make my eyes glaze over whenever I attempt to read them.

>>23130104
you're already a glaze eyed retard with no reasing comprehension
so

>>23130197
me too

>>23130207
get well soon

>>23128683 (OP)
Sex with Maki
>>23129696
Sex with Sakurako

Sex with all the ones in the middle

>>23128767
>listening to chat GPT over doctors
This is next level stupidity. Just because robojeet goes along with everything you say and feeds into ur confirmation bias does not mean its right retard

>>23130414
Wow! Nice strawman argument! I can see you really comprehended what I meant by your clever rebuttal! Good job!

>>23130431
You deserve the voices doing this to you if you are too insecure and defensive to listen to advice

>>23130439
get fucked

>>23130439
Why yes as you can clearly see based on the words on the screen my position is I trust chatGPT over the experience and wisdom of a trained professional. I said that! Word for word! and I stand by my statement.

>>23130222
checked
thanks..

>>23130470
You havd gone off ur meds and are asking chatGPT for advice on what to take instead... I wouldn't say my interpretation was far fetched.
If you insist thats not whats going I guess I can either belive you or spend ages arguing with a literal schizo so ill just go along with it.
I know iv been a dick but you need to pull it together and go to the doctor anon

>>23130509
tohru approved

>>23128855
At low dosages, the anhedonia is managable, sure you do less cool stuff but you'll also not have voices in your head.