Thread 23157750

It's almost like bandage, which is why it also probably has something to do with Egypt as well.

I was thinking, this isn't necessarily hell for me, like, maybe things that seem slightly satanic aren't entirely for sure, and instead, maybe it's the opposite way around a bit.

Instead of judgemental always going down, it should go up for once instead.

>>23157750 (OP)
Oops I mean *it's like bondage

Fucking spellchecker

Up (up, up up) and down(down down down)

Just be clear, it's not necessarily a sign that I'm not good enough or something to have thoughts like that, because it was actually really hard for me to get to that point, I didn't naturally understand stuff like that or think like that at an early age necessarily

I think it might just be the case where, it seems like some of the progress we made wasn't as authentic or as earnest, and it can make it hard to see if we've made very much progress or not at all, but I think what it could be is that we haven't made nearly enough progress still.

What is it with dinosaurs? It's dinosaurs and cavemen a bit probably.

It's obvious to see what it would have been with the ice age.

We are supposed to be like animals in a way, but then, that's what seperates us from animals completely I guess

But it is almost like animals I think, it's like the ultimate individualism

ah super shredder

I just feel like I am the ultimate individualist almost.

For one, I don't think it's bad to feel things like in the first post I made here, "dark" feelings and emotions, I think that's the adult world almost and it's not bad per-say it's just the problem is, a lot of people think it's either too bad for the collective or something, it might jeopardize what they define as "group" harmony or something, but I thunk were all individuals in a way...and I think harmony is understand and accepting our individual differences, that's always what it was to me.

It's always collectivism that sort of gets in the way, I don't quite understand what it is with what they call group harmony, I don't fully trust that.

Like with many times in history, a lot of people think the 1950s were good for an example, but they were pretty homogenized and roughly collectivist or they tried to be collectivist

I just don’t quite understand what that type of harmony is supposed to be, people take serious offence to when I’ve gone into it before, but I think the MBTI might explain it, like I think it could be extroverted feeling a bit, and I think literally they almost need or expect you to extrovert feeling (depending on the person) quite a lot, either that or they’re really sensitive to external emotional stimulation, I mean I guess everyone is to an extent but it’s like it’s harder for them to separate themselves from the external world. Like their internal world is a product of the external almost, but they almost just lack as much awareness they almost have an external locus of control or something.

Fi is usually thought of as selfish but I think in a different maybe future world the tables would be turned and Fe would be considered the selfish one, since so much of it is based on them almost wanting to force you to feel a certain way, or externalizing principles for how you should act.


This might seem really negative towards Fe, but a lot of negativity is shown towards Fi in exchange for some reason, I’m not sure how true harmony would be reached exactly it’s something that I think should be redefined but for some reason we almost can’t seem to reach these kind of discussions

It’s always almost Egypt I think and the sun (it seems like at least) because on either side, people are always trying to force this type of collectivism on you

I don’t think the MBTI is completely real for sure though because I think like jobs people are mostly conditioned to like fulfil certain positions that become their personality almost

Fookin 70s

God damn 70s

Okay I would be lying if I didn’t say that I do like harmony a bit, I think I have been with a small group of people before and I did almost feel it, it sort of feels good but it’s not insatiable for me I still find it sort of weird

>>23161065
I felt harmony with the people I was with like I was on the same wave lengths as everybody else that’s almost what those collectivists think the key is to force everyone to feel and think the same way so they’ll be able to experience and be a part of the ‘collective’ experience, but that’s weird to me, it almost doesn’t exist for me for sure

Like there’s some type of feeling I want to feel with other people I think, but it’s hard to understand or explain, it’s not my brain though
I think, I’ve experienced that a lot where people I
Think
Have tried to make
Me feel
Like or get me to understand that it’s my brain it’s almost like they were pleading with me, but it made me feel uneasy and it didn’t quite feel right to me.

But for example this one girl at an art store that was from Germany, came up really close to me one time, and she kind of smiled at me and we looked at each other a bit and I felt some kind of warmth almost a bit and some kind of connection almost, but that’s a woman at the same time. So basically I don’t know what it is for sure

I guess if I were to be adequate, it doesnt always feel this way, but for the most part it probably does feel like light to me and not completely aware of that, but it feels like light for some reason I don’t know how else to describe it

I think it could be my heart too I guess but that’s hard to understand too

Sometimes having to always feel light inside feels overwhelming and I guess that’s what it was in the past it is almost my brain my thinking analytical brain that I connect with (but that’s totally against me because everyone thinks but somehow I’m the one who thinks too
Much and that’s why I don’t accept the forced ‘harmony’)

But I’m not sure what else it would be exactly in instances like that people think I’m not good enough or that I’m evil or something because it’s not my brain

It still feels like light I guess well
I guess it’s not like I don’t just meet people and it’s like oh it’s our brains and we just connect or some shit

It’s more complicated for me then that sometimes I like to spend quality time with people and that almost gives me
energy or puts me in a good mood

But I’m not sure how that specific stimuli effects me

ugh yawn wokeup

The ice age killed the dinosaurs but it also changed drastically many animals somehow, it’s hard to imagine what the earth was like before. It was hellish probably to an extent. But the dinosaurs are believed to have turned into birds some of them, I don’t fully believe this for sure. But it’s interesting the good dinosaurs excepted it and turned into flying animals because they were good enough supposedly and they finally felt it.

They controlled evolution as it were, whoever they were. The annunaki

ugh it’s just, Anakin finds himself in the equivalent of hell almost, it’s probably the reason he’s a slave, many of the aliens he’s around could almost be from hell (maybe, that’s another question) and he must realize at some point he’s there, because he also could almost be from hell himself, it’s like the same for him as the other aliens.

And truth be told, I was looking at some
Things, particularly I remember with Kingdom Hearts and Big Hero 6, there was just this one scene and I don’t even know if it’s the intention and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with them, but it just felt like they were aliens to me almost these special Disney characters, and I just thought they seemed too ‘light’ to me like that seemed to be the intended message of their designs and animations they were supposed to seem really light and it’s sort of foreign to me to say more appropriately.

I don’t know for sure but I just feel like I could be potentially really dark or something.

The thing is, I almost like those ‘dark’ emotions and feelings, I don’t like feeling too airy or light, at least just not all the time. I like to feel sort of heavy and grounded almost.

I don’t know what this means for me. I am just torn

It’s just extinction basically I guess almost .

But that’s why I’ve seriously wondered if it’s essentially supposed to be what it is with Christianity. It’s like an ancient tradition, the thing with the light and the cold even all that stuff whatever it’s called. Was that really what Christianity was supposed to be too? I have had thoughts that it was separate and different. But then I don’t know what it was entirely with Christianity and at least if they believed in it too what was the story behind that?

But anyways, it makes me think of Genesis, I have theorized that quite possibly Adam wasn’t entirely the first of his kind, I imagined maybe there was another race or civilization that existed before hand. Except maybe it was the Neanderthals or something, or who knows exactly? There’s some evidence of other humanoids existing with evidence they had jewelry and other items which seems like they had a basic civilization.

I kind of think Adam and Eve were like the only survivors of some type of lost civilization due to some type of war/famine and ethnic cleanse of some kind.

So I imagine like that I almost have to be okay with watching the rest of my kind, not really my kind completely but similar almost go extinct or something

I don’t know who is the most closer to me
I don’t know how to describe my feelings how I like to feel or the feelings that go along with experiencing reality

I don’t know if “heavy” or “grounded” is really enough exactly or really described it. It’s really hard to describe or to capture the essence of the experience.

I remember being in a Jewish community though, and I guess that's what it is with the jews, the jews seemed to believe in it or something that ancient tradition whatever it is

But I remember of course it was a few older jewish rabbis or men or something who seemed to get mad at me and tried to walk into me/intimidate me of course they were old it was just weird

Meanwhile two jewish women did the garden of eden to me while I was picking out an apple at the outside market they did the left and the right wing to me I think, one stood on the left and one stood on the right of me ans they both walked away really fast

That must be a thing with women like that, pretending their two fast for me, always making it about speed or something, they were wearing all black of course, they always fucking do that to me.

>>23163778
But what it was with all of them it was like i was this evil dark stomping nazi to them or something

I don't know what the hell those jewish woman meant though, I really wonder about that it could have meant a multitude of things.

The city was weird as fuck though, because randomly I public I was acting out Egyptian hieroglyphics and basically I was pissed or something so I was trying to mock people or something I can't remember exactly what I did but I acted out something to do with hieroglyphics and the left and the right wing

And two people actually got it and stood at the left and right side of me like some type of guards but they were laughing it was weird as fuck

I just feel really beaten down by the contamination/all the chemicals there

I mean is vancouver trying to literally control everything I do like a robot? Because I'd write something negative about them in Edmonton like I'd say I'm not a robot or something and they'd freak out,

It felt just like the angry baby in the Matrix

They'd prove to me how I basically was a robot and they'd somehow take control of my house and pelt all these chemicals and gasses at me and then they'd do oxygen they try to suffocate me

But there was usually movements I had to do I had to do something guess what what I had to do ro avoid it somehow like there was usually sometimes a clear path of oxygen or something

It just seemed murderous and like there was no way out there was nothing I could do to escape it I was basically being death marched to my death

They used chemicals over the entire city

I yelled something in tim Hortons one time and then that made the black angry and they all started marching t their cars to use their vehicles to pollute everything

The reverse opposite nazis


It's funny because Canada was almost obviously designed to be like reverse opposite nazi country I think, they were almost supposed to be Britain's version of Germany/what the Germans think of Germany almost I think.

They're really weird.

Holy
Shit it’s gotten so bad in my town

Holy shit the restaurants wi fi just stopped working for some reason.

Anyway, it was almost like a pitt or something I was thrown down in and I was expected to escape from or something. That gives me a story idea, escaping a pitt

It's basically how extreme anti fascism is I guess if it's really just "fascism" they're opposed to

My town is completely ruined, I don't know what to do

There's this horrible chemical they spray into the air, I'm sure it's how they want everyone to feel it makes you feel like everything is really hard and concrete and it almost makes you feel overly alert but not like caffeine it smells like cement mixer or something they really like that chemical for some reason

It's just they made me finally desensitized to some of the chemicals when they captured me and stuck me in an institution so I can't reply feel it for sure anymore though I think I can particularly feel it when it's really bad

Like I'm sure it's everywhere because I feel so weighted down and my muscles almost hurt and also i can't walk at full speed because the air is so bad everywhere even when the air doesn't seem bad it probably is because I still can't walk at full speed but I can walk at full speed in America

Uml I don't know what it's doing to my muscles that why it almost feels pointless to exercise too much

>>23161042
you leafs need to tpb-post more often and I'd like you more

When I was in America though, they sprayed one of the chemicals but it wasn't nearly as strong as in Canada, but there wasn't any noticeable chemicals like that before so it's become like a really bad future reality it's almost the whole continent

Jesus Christ the weird noisey neighbour the lives above me went on his balcony while I was under him
He makes extremely loud thumping sounds all the time and plays loud psychedelic techno with throbbing bass

Somebody said they’re doing “construction” above there’s a paint ladder on his balcony

Like oh my god it came infested my condominium and became a thing

He went outside to “smoke” a cigarette or something but there was a huge puff cloud of stale smelling tobacco smoke everywhere probably more then a single smoke wtf

Omg

Basically I think I have this theory but I’ve kind of gone over and discounted it in my mind

I think basically another thing that red (and maybe black) and green can symbolize and represent, I don’t know how I realized it I can’t really remember it just appeared in my head mostly.

I think it could basically be like for some reason red is really industrious maybe too industrious it’s like the Iron Age for them or something, factories, metal and coal or whatever just industriousness.

And then the idea that green is supposed to represent the garden of Eden in that they can go back to living like they did in the garden of Eden.

The reason for this is probably because they are from mars or something and were miners and descendants of the Neanderthals or something more closely

The other one doesn’t need explanation as much

I think that is one (secret) apprehension about Marxism is that even if they were to do it moderately successful it still would probably never quite be like the garden of Eden for sure. The extreme industriousness might be a problem or something, it would sort of be like Mordor almost in the LOTR except that’s the thing that kind of extreme industriousness has become almost normalized and is common place for some reason.

But I don’t know how adequate that is. Marxism is not supposed to be to the garden of Eden some people would think probably, but secretly I think it could almost be but probably the reason we were exiled from it could have been for a good reason and maybe you don’t want to completely go back on that. But it’s interesting to acknowledge and think about such things.

>>23165774
Well that’s kind of a stretch because I don’t know if there is really this race that is like that or fits that description exactly

The only place I can think of really is America, China and Germany, which is why I would almost be hell I guess too

I think with the industriousness it could be some type of accelerationism I’ll get to that later

Anyway more about being an ‘ultimate individualist, I don’t know if it’s entirely individualism, it’s not that specific.

Basically there’s all these manners of control that exert themselves over people, you see this a lot with the liberals with like feminism and equal rights lgbt rights for gay people, there’s this notion of slowly teaching younger generations and people in general to be more tolerant but is it real? Or is it a little contrived? You almost need this big state or institution and the like that is always trying to influence and foster these types of beliefs. There’s all this money and external mechanisms of control that have to create this tolerance. It’s the same with the left where you have to almost go out of your way to foster behaviours and tendencies so as to discourage people from liking capitalism. It’s not just the liberals though the state tries to indenture belief systems as well. All this control basically.

In a nutshell I just think there should be no external entities imposing their standards and expectations or beliefs on people. I just want to live in a world where people are just totally true to themselves.

But it’s hard to say what the natural state of humanity is, I guess that’s what I would want to achieve the natural state of humanity. Influence is probably a natural state of humanity as well. Influence and leading groups probably can have a very primordial innate aspect to it.

It’s like to prevent racism or foster more togetherness and peace with people, you have to go to such great length to influence people to do this, but I wonder if you just let people be themselves what would happen?
But see, it’s almost a case of the light and dark side again I guess. Because it would be easier then in that instance to excuse Darwinism and say that’s just a more natural state of human affairs (a lot of people would probably try to do this) public schools almost do this with bullying

It’s just there’s this innate strong desire in me to be true to myself but also true to ‘nature’ almost, I want to accept true nature my true nature and others true nature I don’t want to live in a world where the truth is always concealed and hidden under all this control.

But that’s the question, I can’t answer it for sure but I want to know why do I feel this way? It’s a really strong feeling for me wanting to be as true to myself as possible.

It’s almost like the lion king or something I think but that’s almost very physical like animals I don’t know if it’s really exactly like animals or not I don’t know the thing is humans were sort of supposed to be designed or gifted with this not necessarily superior intelligence but divine consciousness, but it can be bad too, it can go both ways and be too extreme on either side or go horribly wrong.

I don’t know if wild animals are more primitive or something and if that’s what it is for them or what exactly but then you see like dogs it’s kind of weird domesticated dogs kind of should sit around basking in some kind of consciousness, that they would say is good and why dogs are good animals I guess but is that really the case? The opposite side of the spectrum too primal and primitive it’s almost like a gorilla I guess in one instance but it can probably be almost close to hell in another instance it’s a fine line probably how easily natural could be thrown into hell perhaps

https://youtu.be/9QtaYwDC_a8?si=2k6xwCvn2IGKKRTC

I'm thinking about buying and wearing this princess mononoke costume everywhere around town

yawn wokeup

So like acceleration, I think that’s a thing, I’m not sure where I got it from either but I think it could have been really I was thinking about what I know about different theories, history, and politics and I think the reason why some countries seem to
desire to keep such a frenetic and high speed pace when they go about just about everything like it could be social progress, productivity, industriousness, it could be just about anything but I think because if they feel they push things forward fast enough it will encourage them to rest of the world to move along faster too and I think the main purpose or point is to well it’s mostly just to speed things up in general because otherwise the world might move too slowly and the point is to probably get the potential conflicts or problems to show themselves quicker because otherwise it would take too long it would take 100s of years probably for weakness in bodies of governance to show themselves or become enough of a serious flaw for example or for conditions to need urgent solutions.

It seems really harsh and crazy on the outset though like why are they accelerating everything so far ahead so fast?

I never understood this before but it makes more sense now, there was all this weird stuff happening in Safeway, it just happened to br the closet grocery store and was easier then walking miles to the other grocery stores which are in kind of inconvenient places if you don't own a car.

I ate some meat from Safeway one time and it was contaminated I think it gave me some kind of disease or something it made me muscles feel kind of constricted and inflamed a little and also made my head really itchy. I think it did something to my muscles so they don't quite work as well as they did normally.

Of course I didn't see the warning signs because Safeway is red and black ridiculous, it would be like being a criminal detective to foresee shit like that.

It might seem obvious "oh that's what red and black is" but to another criminal it could easily be something else.

Anyway, now with the weird chemicals in Canada, it had also done something to my bones and my muscles it's a really bad chemical

I really hope it's not permanent because I am basically screwed, what I don't understand is why it doesn't seem to be effecting everybody else as much as it effects me.

I don't get it

Oh my god it just keeps getting worse and worse that’s what I realized early on you cannot predict how bad it will get if it can get worse it probably will

There’s fucking just old people everywhere it’s a fucking outright death threat to me


My muscles bones and body keep getting worse and worse before I couldn’t walk full speed because the air and my lungs I couldn’t breathe as well just because the air is so bad here

Now it feels like my joints bones and muscles can’t handle it for some reason also my muscles just feel stiff as fuck

Also my feet have been sore a lot recently my feet keep getting worse and worse now I can’t run on my feet it’s very likely I won’t be able to walk in the future

These people are just pure evil

Anyway I can’t really walk anywhere too far because I cut the backs of my feet because I was walking and didn’t wear socks and my shoes cut my bare feet

It’s pretty much just running away to get asylum it’s straight up asylum at this point like Jesus Christ I don’t know what to do

Before I
Just had mild discomfort in my ass sitting on some surfaces now straight up I can barely sit anywhere on my ass it’s like have no padding or cushioning on my ass
Anymore somehow

I guess I just straight up have to talk to fucking asylum lawyers and ask for their opinions

I just hate going out because there’s glowies everywhere I don’t think there was that many glowies before but there’s literally glowies just about everywhere u fucking go it’s fucking crawling with glowies I can always tell because they always get some kind of sick race

I think it’s basically what Canada thinks of Germany or the swastika it’s like almost their version of it but it’s not the same at all I hate them but also I think it’s just Canadas racial preferences most of the time mixed in as well and that’s how you can tell they’re glowies

They’re obviously trying to slowly murder me/torture me they’re so fucking sick

Nigga u fucken crazy

Reverse opposite Nazis

>>23172051
This is basically the race I was talking about most of the time I’m sure it’s your race too

I think Canada is basically a dominion
of hell

Though it’s hard to say that for sure, some parts of it fit some conceptions of hell I think, but not all conceptions that’s the thing there’s like different versions of hell I guess

In the lobby of my apartment complex it’s just like a big cloud of gas but everyone ignores it

And for some reason it’s hard to go out during the summer the weather is so worse there’s just too much humidity it just feels awful like I couldn’t describe it just an awful feeling like this nasty evil smog/humidity the thing is I think it’s a mixture of the heat and the chemicals they use which just makes the weather feel really bad I’ve experienced it before it’s nasty where I had to progressively get out of the area and the smog would go away

>>23172533
That’s them too pretty much

Fucking spray that chemical that smells like fucking concrete mixer or asphalt all over all the time I go to the backyard and it makes you feel all alert and horrible it just reminds me of all of them and their horrible racism and all the black it just makes me think like black pattywack some kind of black sack to hit people with and the mob and goons criminals crooks like these really horrible gross feelings it’s like dirty 30s or something of course they like making everyone feel that way

Omfg they did the air/oxygen thing a little bit again oh my fucking god they can’t handle it

I just wonder who is behind it all it feels like such an evil terrible person like I said it’s literally like the screaming baby in the matrix

Canada reminds me of the old world a bit

And one reason why is that they literally try to play God. As far as they’re concerned they are God

Oh shit the air is getting bad the oxygen is thinning or something they’ve never done that in Vancouver before if it starts being
an issue I will just leave the country

Thinking about getting this shirt but then looked closer at the symbol on it and it's kind of like a tik or a bug probably whatever it's supposed to be, it's hard to find just a pure red or white bowling shirt

Ugh give me a break

Lol, "garageland"

erm I can find some used red and white shirts but not any new ones in my size

Holy shit over a grand for a red shirt

Ugh such bullshit always out of stock
https://www.al-fifties-store.com/en/home/2316-retro-bowling-shirt-red-white.html

https://www.timberland.ca/en-ca/p/women/footwear-10096/womens-timberland-50th-anniversary-edition-6-inch-waterproof-boot-TB0A2R6BDV8?width=M


Out of fucking stock

yawn wokeup

ugh fucking sprayed even more of those chemicals I think there’s a really bad chemical that’s almost like radiation they spray but there’s another version of it so they have like at least two versions of it they like to spray somehow

I felt high from the chemical that has happened to me before in the past

But it’s not as common

It felt warm all night there was this weird feeling in the air it wasn’t natural warmth from the weather I think it was literally their chemical I think

>wake up
>make tea
>go out to patio
>fucking gas chemicals fucking everywhere

They’re just trashing their whole country that’s how “anti fascist” they are I guess

>>23175048
That looks like a shirt that Tony Soprano would wear to the beach at Whitecaps when he's chilling with carmela

U ever owned waterfront property at Whitecaps? Me neither. Cuz I'm not Tony Soprano. Never will be, either. That's why this life just isn't worth living to me. If I can't be Tony Soprano why even live?

Life isn't worth living as a broken cowboy who can't be Tony Soprano.

You ever wake up and think you're Tony Soprano in that moment you are still regaining conscious awareness ?

I do. Every day. Every single day. It is hell. I wish I could be Tony Soprano, but I'm just Malcolm in the Middle.

Feel me?

wtf that’s not true Vancouver was never considered bland

>>23176896
That’s kind of racist

Ugh the thing with all the colors in Canada is that since the radiation like chemical has been used always they have pretty much come to mean “your level” or something I’m sure like how badly the chemical has effected you, the state and health of your insides, and at least that’s what it seemed like the strength of the chemical seemed to correspond to the colors you’d see people wearing but in all honestly that doesn’t completely make sense because almost everyone is probably at the same level

Ugh I’m so tired of feeling like shit it’s just that the air is so horrible it feels grimey and dark like the is thick it always full of these chemicals it just makes you feel so unclean and gross so sick of it

Holy shit I don’t know if it’s from chemicals or if it’s really me

I had a breakthrough I stretched a lot and a lot of the issues I was having with my muscles went away but my calves still hurt a bit

Went for another walk and Jesus I can’t walk very far without my calves hurting and feeling sore what the fuck? I’m not in bad shape Jesus Christ what is this chemical I don’t even like leaving the house because I’m immediately harassed by glowies

It smelt like shit so badly outside the restaurant I almost vomited too

God I almost see bant for what it is now

Anyway they fucking send out old people to literally walk beside me every few miles some old person
Would come up
And start walking alongside me fucking complete glowies


I have to
Just leave the fucking country Jesus Christ

God they make me feel all these awful negative feelings again

They pretty much took over all of Richmond they’re feeling to completely trash all Vancouver too one of their nicest world cities means absolutely nothing to them


I hate these feelings it feels like being too alert but I’ve felt really alert before and I never felt this bad just the way all their chemicals smell just makes you feel super fucking horrible

It just reminds you of like concrete like no nature or bio organic just these really harsh awful feelings it just makes me think paddywack for some reason

I’m the just so hard to push through
These chemicals! I never should have waited goddamn then it was their evil plan this entire time

I don’t know how they can go around feeling this way all the time

They are seriously evil

What do I do? Someone help
Me

It’s not a real country anymore I don’t know what its purpose even is

I want to cry but I can’t it’s literally the worse feeling imaginable I was to go back
To feeling all these terrible feelings again I have to rush around and feel hyper alert on edge and be working 24/7 without relief or any enjoyment it makes you want to almost smoke or something

Vancouver was supposed to
Be this nice world class city but now it’s a complete dumpster fire

I just feel like a need a coffee to force through it but the caffeine doesn’t do anything for me anymore

I have to talk to
Asylum lawyers now but I don’t know how to go about doing that I could look up “how to find asylum lawyer” by that would take time to read all the articles they’re probably long then I have to meticulously sort through all the asylum lawyers

I have no
Idea what equipment to get I have no
Idea what laptop to buy I don’t know if I even should I have to wait on the immigration lawyers to get back to me

It’s
No quarter for Canada I guess

Ugh just the fucking air I literally cannot handle those feelings one of the worst parts

OK AI what do you think

ugh wokeup

Feels like my insides are being effected bit by the chemicals

Ugh it's really warm I turned my air conditioner pretty low and it's still oddly hot it's really weird it's not natural I think it might be them somehow it's really hot outside too even though it's the end of summer

I'm just so sick of Canadians literally everywhere it just drives me nuts and the fact that they read everything that I write on the internet they're in my face basically invasive as fuck harassing me non stop it's soooooo fucking annoying

I think I just have to think positive thoughts, think
Positive thoughts trying to find a lawyer

Oh god there's a really weird smell in the apartment all of a sudden

God it's going to cost a fortune going through hr process of working on getting asylum and everything involved

I'm going to cry I finally have enough money for the asylum case for sure but I don't know if I can afford the most expensive lawyers

I really wish I could move to Germany

I've had a problem with someone hacking my account or something and stealing money but my money hasn't been stolen thankfully

Oh my god Hallelujuah christ almighty thank god

Sweet jesus almighty praise the lord

HALLELUJAH