Thread 23182175

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There is no cure for hyper sexuality. I spent all last night with my mind consumed with date raping Madoka and touching myself to the idea while also writing a fanfic about it. All night long. "Well you can fight it." NO, I'm sick of fighting, every night fighting fighting I'M TIRED! A MACKTAN AROO! A MUSS TA FLEVEN A MUSS DAFLIVEN! You ever listen to the audio recording of the last parliament meeting before the Nazis removed the other party-- look, the point is I can't anymore.
I hate so much. It will never ever go away, and yes I've gotten rid of all computer technology before, I don't have internet at home. And that helps but, I can't wait to just go. Next month I'm going, and I don't think I should very much return. In fact I mean not to.
I'm glad everyone has sex or is raised properly, and I think that's something to brag about honestly. "Well I didn't grow up on loli rape porn hmph" that is literally something to brag about. "I have friends and a wife and career hmph! I have lots of money. I have a family, I have this I have that." I think you should go all day on that.

I'm exhausted. And I don't want to dance anymore. I've done it before where I leave society and it's pretty good, kind of sucks as well but, so much hate in me toward all this. There's nothing in this world besides evil.

Google automatic translation of this image. I actually once translated this image and wrote out the text nicely whatever anyway,

I recently checked on the discord scene. Apparently discord is dead. Which I guess we can all be happy about. "It's been dead for years" yes but I mean REALLY dead now, it's just nothing now. I'm surprised 4chan hasn't ended yet. We can only hope one day, same with all social media. I think social media could work but you'd have to have someone with at least 90 IQ running the website and that's not gonna happen, also someone who wants good things and not bad.

But yes Discord has died, Discord really introduced the idea of random chatrooms on an apocalyptic scale, never seen before with any other messager program. And uhhhhh yeah well that's it, a little blip in internet history finally gone. Will humans try something like that again? Or have they learned their lesson. Well people still use 4chan so clearly we haven't learned our lesson I guess. But there is with Discord an implication of "making friends" and we've known for years now that that's not a thing online you can't make friends, there's nothing like that. So, but I don't know what the solution or rather what can be done about the internet. You want me to save the internet I'm not gonna. Netizens don't even exist anymore so technically no one even lives on the internet it's just tourists so who cares.

I would mind you, save the internet, if I was given it. But that's the thing I will never be given it. I am a natural born leader and very smart but the social internet is only ever run by people who don't know anything about leadership and are very very low IQ.

But why should I care? I don't care about society offline, I'm suppose to care about society online? I've never really cared too much. 4chan was and always will be the normie capital of the internet which is fine I don't care about that, but normies don't have huamnity in their heart they're not real people, they're manakins as I prefer to say. That's the thing. Just not real. They repeat the same buzzwords and same things all part of the 4chan hivemind. "Well other crappy social media websites are the exact same." Yes... they are. Great observation.
And I don't blame humans because they're all so stupid, I blame leadership as always.

Anything else? No not at all. I can't wait to die in the woods, soon soon. I actually hope something doesn't come along, something always comes along "Oh no don't worry you can still stay in society." No it's really okay just let me max out the credit card and go. that's fine.

"They say the same thing in the same way year after year. He hasn't shed a tear since he left his mother's womb. He went to the seminary, came out with a big fat head and a shrunken skull."

All I have is a big fat head and a shrunken skull. I'm just an old man yelling at me tapes. It's that point where you want nothing more new just rewatch the same things trying to go back. Even though the best years are ahead of you always with God. My true birthday is coming up soon, yes.

Oh, you know I have given and helped humanity a bit, I'm happy with what I've done, I think he deserved more attention but you know, at least one person I know for sure I helped so much. And more to lesser extents but GOOD okay, can I go now? I've done what I can. And the only thing I learned is DON'T ENGAGE WITH FEMALES. Biggest mistake I ever made was getting close to a female online. It was only online for a few months and it ruined my life. And that is a very common thing. Women are the number one cause of men falling in the Bible, Adam, Samson, Solomon, David, all defeated by going after women. Women exist to just be a test for men I guess I don't know. So don't do that. Unless you are suppose to then do.

>>23182222
>I can't wait to die in the woods

Going out with the MAID?

>just let me max out the credit card and go.
Use it to invest in 4chan 2

It's better because it'll have a 2 in it.

But in all seriousness there's no real point in caring about society unless watching it continue to crash and burn appeases you.

That or you are actually content with your entire situation.

Me? I dread getting old because everything that should be there for you sucks.

Not even nursing homes, everyone knows that.

Hospitals, Food, Economy, Inflation, all sucks.

You can't reasonably prepare to die old without either surrendering yourself to some shit nurse who might empty your bedpan and keep her mouth shut instead of pampering you like some retarded child.

Or you can just have kids and try to burden them with yourself.

>>23182200
>I spent all last night with my mind consumed with date raping Madoka and touching myself to the idea while also writing a fanfic about it

Can I read it?

>"I have friends and a wife and career hmph! I have lots of money. I have a family, I have this I have that."

Having a partner definitely helps with things. Finding someone who is equally sick of the bullshit and wants to just exist and basically do the things you lacked in your childhood/lone life can be healing imo.

>>23182343
I delete all my fanfics because I don't wish anyone else to suffer from overlewdness. I'll post a fanfic online then delete it the next day. It's the best I can do to not spread evil in the world by fighting myself.

I was summerizing the last four fanfics I made but I ran out of room in one post so I don't feel like writing it. But it's all mostly maledom worship fetish stuff. Master/slave stuff. Emotionless sex. loli. Maids. Slave, Emotionless, loli, maids, cultist male worship, all the usual tags and only things I write about.
I love things like, a slave girl in a cage who is given a broom and small round table with two chairs and a rusty silver platter and bucket and rag, and she practices cleaning in there and delivering food to the table and going under the table to pretend to give fellatio. And when a protentional master shows up she starts doing all her things to show him. She bows to him but realises because he's leaning forward on the cage bars so his head is lower than normal, so she's coming up from the bow but awkwardly keeps her head low because you're not allowed to raise your head above a man. Very much the kind of thing I write.
Along with awkward bargaining rape, which is why I like date rape so much because it's very funny. Yukito was Madoka's little young partner and they're in their room together and she's just prepared to kiss but he wants more and the dialogue is always funny because the date rapist doesn't want to get in trouble but is definitely having sex with her no matter what and she is scared realising how strong boys are for the first time and can't move under him. I like the part where he asks her to see her panties from her drawer and she's all shy about giving him one of her little underpants. Madoka to me always has a training bra or no bra I went with no bra this time.

Anyway, I hate porn, I just downloaded the new Alien Earth episode and I'll go home soon. And not apply to any jobs because society doesn't deserve me.

>>23182539
>I delete all my fanfics because I don't wish anyone else to suffer from overlewdness.

People hold jobs as pornstars and shitty adult rpg games that haven't evolved since 2010 and have only higher quality pre rendered cutscenes to speak for the evolution in computing. I don't think you are doing any person any sort of favor by holding yourself back creatively.

I'm not even saying this with a hope of reading it, you take it down because you are uncomfortable that somehow the fanfic writings you published will somehow be the tilting decision of why society is fucked? Hey, anything goes if it makes you sleep better.

I have an innate ability to definitely connect opposing groups if I genuinely sat down and dedicated myself to it. Why don't I? Maybe make a shitty web comic and possibly make someone think and give myself something to do? Because I personally procrastinate not even at creating, but at absolutely hating both sides of the fucking coin. Not that anything I have to say is the internet equivalent of breaking down the berlin wall, but it definitely could help the ignorant who just follow whatever makes the most sense the fastest.

I can't speak for all the reasons you conclude your fanfic is an aide to evil, but could it be more because you want to justify your shame for yourself/self interests?

You mentioned being burdened by hypersexuality and your kinks, why not try and surround yourself with others who are into that sort of thing?

Hell I love porn because there are days I feel like fucking shite. Utter stain on my own floor and even though I could have sex, I emotionally feel like shit because I'm adopted and mommy and daddy never really loved me.

Not to say that porn is something to absolutely depend on in my case, I don't, but for some people it's not a bad thing if that's what can help them cultivate a life they (you) are fine with.

I could be just preaching to the choir but I can relate to what you've said to an extent. (pg 1/?)

>>23182931
You're right, I should do evil things, gosh that's a smart idea. No, I'm not going to do evil, I'm not interested in helping satan. I will attempt to not help him as much as I can and I don't care if other people are evil, I don't care if I do evil, that is not an excuse to do as much evil as possible. And I think anyone who openly wants to contribute to porn addiction doesn't belong in the world.

>>23182539
>Along with awkward bargaining rape, which is why I like date rape so much because it's very funny. Yukito was Madoka's little young partner and they're in their room together and she's just prepared to kiss but he wants more and the dialogue is always funny because the date rapist doesn't want to get in trouble but is definitely having sex with her no matter what and she is scared realising how strong boys are for the first time and can't move under him. I like the part where he asks her to see her panties from her drawer and she's all shy about giving him one of her little underpants. Madoka to me always has a training bra or no bra I went with no bra this time.

I mean hell why not try and keep your work up, learn and live with the results, keep working at it and try to have a side career with this sort of thing being an escape and a possible outlet for you to like, entertain people.

I have neglected hentai because I've been dealing with some schizophrenic like paradox's without the schizophrenia to justify it, so I've been near abstinent from hentai, so I don't know what the characters come from other than the fact I can know here they definitely exist.

>I just downloaded the new Alien Earth episode and I'll go home soon. And not apply to any jobs because society doesn't deserve me.

I'm not trying to just push the age old cliche of "Oh there's plenty to live for, yah yah..." bullshit because frankly there are few things that keep me here and I am not going to lie to someone and say "Oh yeah whatever you think? Bad bad, life is good, I can without a doubt promise that x,y,z" because hell I threw myself into the highway to see if my God was listening and they were.

But even then despite that I would throw the idea out there of continuing your existence on this Earth with the purpose of just seeing what's around.

You could work a job, do what you like, watching Alien earth or writing fan fics, maybe even branching out to... (pg 2/?)

>>23182960
>I don't care if I do evil, that is not an excuse to do as much evil as possible. And I think anyone who openly wants to contribute to porn addiction doesn't belong in the world

If porn addiction is real then that's just being neurotic.

If porn is so fucking bad that you are limp, then go limp without porn, take some self control and fuck away from it. Don't jerk off don't fuck with porn for as long as it takes, years even.

Tell me you didn't get hard once, hell tell me you weren't able to get off after holding back for years.

I highly doubt it.

If you eat nothing but fast food and suddenly try to eat a salad and hate it, does that mean that fast food is evil?

No it means you need to step the fuck back, look at what happened, which is a lack of moderation, and taking the time to withdraw. If there's just salad, you get hungry. If there's just hand, you get horny, if there's just real life, you will get horny.

Blaming porn for anything is like blaming video games as being the core problem to why violence exists instead of expecting responsibility from the individual.

>>23182175 (OP)
Is it possible that this is why people find you insufferable and don't you in their social groups?

>>23182979
>>23182999
You need to stop posting like that.

>>23183027
>You need to stop posting like that.

I'm good, I enjoy my writing thank you very much, unlike you.

Don't be such an asshole when you have such a huge cry for help here.

idiot.

Holy shit is there some autism talking here that I should heed to before I accidentally make you realize your narcissism is adding to the evils and is helping Satan fuck with me or something?

You selfish bastard, is that what you want?

>>23183027
Like what the hell do you want here?

I'll give some short ass solutions:

Fucking grow up and either get fucked by the fear of Satan while driving yourself to suicide.

or

Live a little and realize you possibly need medication because your established goals are NOT clear.

Is that too rich for you?

Maybe put the dick down and stop scraping every inch of your shaft out to anime loli if it's so bad for you to write fan fiction.

Fucking clown much?

>>23183024
Me being hyper sexual? No. That is not why. Though I do not know why. But I know it is not that since that never needs to be brought up for me to be hated.
Socially advanced people hate me the most almost instantly from the first interaction they treat me like a black demon, maybe even a red demon I don't know. I guess they realise that I don't have much "emotion" towards others and that I'm narcissistic which socially advanced people can tell right away and know interacting with me further would result in disaster though I don't know why the feel comfortable with just treating me so bad. And even though I don't have emotions toward them I would be the first person to die for my friend and help them no matter what. I am always a practical person, I'm information-based, but people are often emotionally-based. Informationally based people can get caught up in conspiracy theories and emotionally based people get involved with cults like Mormonism, and stuff, it's a whole thing and unrelated to whatever I was talking about.

But people don't like me because I'm not a likeable person. Not because of porn. You know how many homeless people who are just drugged out totally still have friends and girlfriends and people like them so on. Whenever I'm homeless people don't like me even though I don't do drugs and stuff. And having friends and being likeable in that way means most in this society. And we do live in a society.

You know that doujin with the girl who dresses as a maid to impress everyone and everyone hates her. Yes.

>>23183060
>Whenever I'm homeless people don't like me even though I don't do drugs and stuff. And having friends and being likeable in that way means most in this society. And we do live in a society.

Do you talk to yourself? Maybe you whisper weird shit like Indian prayers and lose your shit when you see a woman's legs like some Arabic migrant who just seen a little girl who still has her clit.

>I'm information-based, but people are often emotionally-based.

Just because you are "information based" doesn't mean you have to be such a fucking dick. You write porn, you are ashamed, you fear helping evil, you are jealous of how many bitches the homeless get on their dicks,

>Socially advanced people hate me the most almost instantly from the first interaction they treat me like a black demon, maybe even a red demon I don't know.

You would make a good, no great demon. I would have you right at my side in my hell. Make sure to write down that desire on a piece of paper nearby because we can certainly make that happen.

>But people don't like me because I'm not a likeable person. Not because of porn.

"If you see a chance, take it... Find romance, fake it.. Because it's all on you.."

>You know that doujin with the girl who dresses as a maid to impress everyone and everyone hates her. Yes.

Maybe she should slip away to another place where people don't have such a defined opinion on her. Maybe she should look back and move forward while experimenting with not fucking back.

>>23183060

Also that is a shitload of writing, you should stop that.

For a narcissist you are certainly cute.

>>23183094
>>23183098
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUQ2tZtdU8o

>>23183122

Yeah, I'm a dragon, devil lady even. Now, vile is a strong word. But I certainly have an extra head for you to swallow, and if you push it far back into your throat, you just might see those stars lucifer swept from the heavens oh so long ago.

I feel obligated then to talk about Babylon and how funny it is. The Babylonians were the most cartoonish villain society that ever existed. Reading about them in Herodotus it's just too much.

Maybe I partly have a festination with it because it tickles my fantasies. Women were all forced to serve as cult prostitutes once in their life, they sit in the temple and you'd go up to one of them and toss a coin at them and use them. And the uglier ones Herodotus said would be could be there months or years until someone uses them. They also bought wives in their society, once a year they'd bring the unmarried women to the centre of town and have a bidding for them, and the uglier ones, rather than bidding money to have them, it was a bid to see who would receive the least amount of money for them, so you'd get the ugly girl plus money and the part of the money was paid for by the sale of the prettier girls. Although technically Herodotus says this practice was no longer in use in his time but he says it was one of the most noble acts the Babylonians did which is weird because he said the forced cult prostitution was shameful.

When they were under siege they just killed all their women to make rations survive longer, the Babylonians are so funny. In the time of Herodotus the Tower of Babel was being used by bringing a woman to the top of it and she would sit on a red couch and a god would come down and have sex with her was the idea. Wouldn't it be cool if the tower of Babel was still around, Alexander the Great got rid of it, he was planning on rebuilding it, is what I understand I never read the ancient documents of Alexander the Great myself. But because the Babylonians killed all their women they really lost their peoplegroup, as God said, God said he'd TOTALLY eradicate the Babylonians and he did, their city which was once the centre of the world totally gone, their people group gone.

They are just such cartoon villains no matter who you ask. And the way Herodotus talks about his interactions because I don't know if Herodotus ever visited the city itself he talks about talking to them, but the way he says it, "And the Babylonians say that their God comes down to the top of the tower and has sex with the woman, but you know I don't really believe it." and I just get the sense he's talking to these Babylonians and they're frothing at the mouth trying to explain their customs to him and cutting themselves and performing black magic.
OOOH the Babylonians make me laugh so much.

I hope I don't start collecting anime images again.

>>23183208
>>23183236
why cant women be like this whys it always a dude.

>>23183208
>Wouldn't it be cool if the tower of Babel was still around

God would tell you what I told you except in a more cryptic fable. Take what you can get.

The women bidding is hot though.

>>23183252
yo seeing who can bid the lowest for the broads who were ugly is chaotically funny

>>23183272

>"This fat bitch with nigger knockers and cow length nips starting at 5 gold pieces!"

Hey dude, lookit look at this, watch me cause a price fight and make this bid rise kek