>>60640981>Would you really want a woman giving you toothy blowjobs and lying there like a dead fish?That "first time" learning process of how to how to have good sex with each other is a bonding experience process that is invaluable, and not replicable.
Going through that and growing more emotionally and physically intimate and mature alongside them for the first time creates a deeper bond than anything else
Toothy blowjobs, dead fish, or for men, being a minuteman or can't find the clit... These are all a natural part of the learning process, and it's extremely important that you share all these moments with each other for the first time...
It's a shame if you can't think of your future wife or husband, look back, and have endearing and nostalgic thoughts; "oh how we grew together"
Now, experiencing these things are not exclusive to virgins, you can still learn and grow with different people, but you will never achieve the full potential because you have been splitting it up between different people instead of giving it to the one you love now. Unable to give everything to the person you claim to so love... a tragic predicament
>>60639881 (OP)I strongly advise against marriage.
Building off what I've already said, If you do not feel you can trust her with (You)r everything, she is not the one. At the very least you should be marrying someone you feel you can trust - anything less would be a disservice to you, and also your partner. Trust issues like this will destroy any relationship down the line anyways
Even if this is a 1pbtid bait, I wish the best of luck to OP, and anyone else who may face this in the future