>>60730904 (OP)I was happier when I was a brokie making $40,000/year.
Now I make $170k/year and it’s somehow worse. The six figure hell meme is real. You’re just comfortable enough to become complacent, too risk averse to do anything extreme for fear of what it took to get here, and yet still not making enough to be financially independent.
When I was a brokie I had ambition and I put myself through some craaazy days and situations to get myself out. Looking back some of the best years of my life was when I was really under the gun. There was a goal, there was something to work towards.
Now? Just an endless procession of mundane days. There’s nothing to really strive for because advancing myself further from here isn’t really possible without a massive amount of work for diminishing returns. You just become paralyzed between the fantasy of what could be versus the security of what is, and the you just stay in that liminal space, and time passes.
It’s like I can see my entire life laid out in front of me, and there’s just an emptiness with maybe the hope of retirement when I’m too old to enjoy it. It’s like a dead end maze I can’t figure out how to get out of.
Call me a faggot and tell me to cry a river sure, but it’s fucking real.