>>76238106 (OP)I didn't think I'd be one of those guys, because I wasted my youth larping as Vegeta, but it's finally eating my soul that I haven't experienced romance and didn't maintain real relationships.
But I was ugly, poor, hated my life, and was busy "improooving", so technically I did the right thing by ignoring the world and getting a 1-bedroom apartment in a nice area which takes up half my salary as a reward? I don't know how to feel, but now it's too late for my feelings on the matter to have value. I did finally gain muscle after years of spinning my wheels, and maybe I was too hard on myself in the past.
It's such a bizarre feeling, there's nothing I can do to recover what was lost, but I irrationally alternate between rage and sadness about it.