Yep, it's true.
I don't mean like, I'm scared of catching a cold or covid or the flu or whatever, not even vaxxed. That shit is easy.
I mean I'm absolutely terrified of catching a chronic illness that slowly kills you and is debilitating.
I can get one minor symptom and send myself into silent panic attacks, researching for hours on what it could be. It ruins my life and makes me not want to be alive, but at the same time I am terrified of death.
You would think im some health freak who takes care of myself, I'm not, I eat like shit, I sleep like shit, I vape, I'm an alcoholic.
Go ahead and ban me jannies for it being off topic, this is my only way to vent since I am so alone.
Every living thing on this planet dies alone.
My current panic at the moment is I'm worried I have MS.
I went to the gym for 3 months but then fell back into old habits, gave up because it didn't cure me. Should I go back?

2 days ago something bit me in my sleep. I have a huge infection on my shoulder. It can really happen anywhere anytime

>>76315701 (OP)
>Low t and doesn't have any real problems
Lift heavier and date a crazy girl. You'll never again think about all this bullshit written by you that I didn't read

>>76315701 (OP)
>not even vaxxed
god damn bro, thats so badass. tell me more

>>76315701 (OP)
the elixir of life

>>76315701 (OP)
I'm mildly afraid of getting cancer especially with how common it is and how silently it can grow until suddenly you're shitting blood or getting bad headaches and what do you know, you've got a huge tumor somewhere and you'll be dead in 6 months. aneurysms scare me too since you can have one for decades and suddenly it goes pop and you're dead.

Then I read about freak cases of the flu or whatever than can kill a totally healthy person in a week. I think recently some young woman in her early 20s got the flu and died like 3 days later, no other health issues, not even fat. even if it doesn't kill you it can take you out for a week, a lot of people have this idea that a flu is just a slightly worse cold, but no, a flu regularly puts people in the hospital and of course kills a bunch of old people every year. If you got "the flu" but were able to go about your day and didn't have a high fever for the better part of a week, it wasn't actually the flu.

anyways all that to say being afraid of disease is a reasonable fear IMO. nobody can be sure when they'll catch some superbug that will just kill them. the only thing you can do is live to the max and get all the life out of your day that you can so WHEN you do finally die you won't regret wasting it.

btw you're describing hypochondria which is a mental disorder you can get therapy for.

>>76316596

People say "the flu" for anything more than just a cold but real influenza sucks. I had the flu in late 2024 and covid back in 2023, and the flu was worse.

With covid, I felt like dog shit for about a day and then I just felt really tired and had no appetite for a week, so I spent most of it watching TV and sleeping. Covid was like being on welfare, the weirdest thing about it was that I just wasn't hungry at all and had to force myself to eat. The flu had me feeling like dog shit for a solid 3-5 days straight and I didn't feel right for another week after.

Still not the worst illness I had in the last couple of years though. In early 2024, I got food poisoning and it only lasted about 36 hours but that shit was fucking horrible. I wasn't puking, but I never had the shits so bad in my life. I'm talking about painful, boiling guts with asshole-searing, yellow diarrhea every 45 minutes, waking up in the middle of the night to run to the toilet, contemplating sleeping on the floor of the bathroom so I'd be right there if I needed to be.

What is your life like OP? I had a similar issue, I have pretty much fixed it by identifying meaningful goals I want to achieve and moving myself towards them. My real fear was dying without living my life, without doing the things I want to do, seeing the things I want to see. Other things that may help: absurdism, epicureanism

>>76317098
>My real fear was dying without living my life, without doing the things I want to do, seeing the things I want to see
this is EXACTLY the realization I had like last year, most people aren't afraid of death they're afraid of wasting their life. every step you take towards NOT wasting your life will reduce your fear of death