Pull up anons and get a drink, tell me how your week has been.

I hate my life and myself

>>76371883
Based, same for me.

I cut daily cigs by 50%, i feel much better and sleep better. Had a beer last night and chilled listening to music. Cut is going pretty good
Lifes good

>>76371866 (OP)
Well I'm up at 5 past 5 am, so that's a thing.

>>76371866 (OP)
No fap day 10. I want to breed small pajeetas and curvy black women.

>>76371866 (OP)
Day 14 of no alcohol. I wanted to drink last night, but have decided to go to the gym when they open at 8 am instead. Trying to get to 100 days alcohol free.

>>76371956
based Sober chad

I bought gym rings few days ago. Visited the climbing gym a few times but i don't think that shit is for me, i mean it's fun but i don't think it's something i can do for long and it's not really that fun to focus on it instead of anything else.

I also went to a music festival (it was like 50/50 experimental music like noise and heavier dance sets with EBM/dark synth/techno, the vibe was so dark it's like the nightclubs from VTMB) and brought a guy i know there. I shared my experiences about going to the rave alone and he got all fired up, turns out he wanted to go to one of these kinds of events as well but he can't do it alone. He was shy and kinda depressed and said he doesn't feel like he belongs there, he feels like everyone knows each other and he's a bit too old for the age group. I did the pep talk saying how stuff in his head and the objective reality have NOTHING in common. He ended up talking to some alt girl and exchanging contact info, so i'm proud of this guy. We danced like madmen, my legs still hurt from all the jumping i did.

I talked to a 6'3 girl there, said she was beautiful, and asked her for a selfie. She looked at the phone screen before i took a photo and said "haha i AM beautiful!". I dunno what it meant but i felt really good because my compliment hit just right. I asked her about her outfit and she proudly said that she frequents this kinds of events and dances industrial and techno and stuff, i said "haha, nice, well thank you imma just head out the next set is about to start". She was really sweet behind her intimidating appearance and open to talk but here's the thing, somehow i can't talk to most people on a deeper than surface level. Maybe dancing and shit helps me rebuild my self-esteem but i still stop myself and shut down even if the conversation gets going. I dunno if that's self-loathing or something, i don't fear approaching people because if something goes wrong i can leave any time i want to, i fear the moment they stay.

>>76371866 (OP)
>excited for fishing trip all week at a new place
>get to the lake (1.5 hours away)
>its so shitty and overgrown its unbelievable
>dont catch a single thing
Literally ruined my entire weekend. The one day off I get all week and I should have just went to one of my spots that I know always produces.

>>76372017
You should have fugged the big girl

>>76372017
Sounds like you're doing great anon keep it up. Also, not every fish is gonna bite so don't take it too hard you didn't try, you can usually tell when a girl is into you and they'll put in as much effort as you are :)

I was at a wedding yesterday and the hostess there was low key miring me and i went there and talked to her and deep into the convo she told me that she will go to a holy monastery in august and i praised her, shortly i told her i have some Mary Icons and i will give some to her when the couple finishes the first dance. After a while i gave her the icons and after that she became distant for some reason. She was like from 9/10 interest to 2/10. What the fuck?

>>76372061
>Also, not every fish is gonna bite so don't take it too hard you didn't try
I have this problem aswell, because i had some terrible gf's in the past, any girl that makes an effort to go out with me I always ghost her at the last minute because i'm scared they will fucked me over, i rejected 3 girls last month. What do?

>>76372074
What are you afraid of?

>>76372095
falsely accusing me of something or anything like this sort, i feel like women are dangerous in general. I don't know how i got this mindset from but it's probably from watching so many divorce rapes and /r/deadbedrooms stories

>>76372108
That is why you sex them and then never talk to them again

>>76372108
Maybe stop radicalising yourself. It sucks cause nowadays all you see on social media is hate being spewed about the opposite sex (whether that's men or women) and they want you to be like this. I recommend having normal non-romantic conversations with women you encounter. Ask the barmaid about her shift and shit like that. Women can be dangerous but they don't accuse you of stuff willy-nilly. Talk to them as though theyre your 14 year old niece. You don't seem like you have a problem getting their attention, or securing relationships so you're ahead of the game. The more women you talk to, the better of an idea you have as to how their brains work, and have an idea of what the average woman is like. (Source: I have female friends)

this week has been ok. Tired weed with friends for the first time and made out with one of them, first time making out with a guy I think. I'm happy because I'm finally getting my life together, can't wait for Monday so I can go to the gym

>>76371883
I dont remember posting this

>>76372209
>first time making out with a guy I think. I'm happy because I'm finally getting my life together
lmao peak ngmi

Why do I keep dreaming about my ex from 6 years ago? It's very disconcerting.

>>76372235
She doesn't deserve you

>>76372235
Your brain formed a connection with someone that really can never be broken(especially if your relationship was sexual). Sex rewires your brain to be permanently connected to someone like that.
Usually what triggers dreams like that is periods of extreme drought. Or you triggered a series of neurons to bring those back to the front of your mind (e.g. you rewatch a show from 2018, which brings back all those memories from that timeframe)

I’ve been in a relationship with the same woman for almost 8 years, married for 3, with a baby on the way. I’m typically very sexually satisfied, and I still get occasional dreams of past relationships. Breaking those sexual bonds is just hard, which is why typically sex was supposed to be reserved for marriage.

>>76372313
Well that sucks because the sex sucked but the cuddling was kino.

Got pulled over by the police for checking my phone while at a red light. Officer was an old nasty cunt who wasn't gonna let it slide. Got hit with a $500 fine and probably four derimits

I guess it was my fault for doing it but fuck I just wanted to punch that bitch right in the face

>>76371866 (OP)
I’m a little upset. Have a win going on though despite all the BS
>try to meet up with girl
Proves to still be flakey and probably a game player. Drop her lose interest and suddenly she seems interested again. I don’t have time for this
>got sick
5th time this year. Just finished being sick 2 weeks ago. I have no sick time to use now.
>quit vaping
I think it’s in part one of the causes of me being sick. I’m getting better faster this time. I went over 24 hours and had no real withdrawals except brain zaps, forgetfulness, lack of focus, and zaps if I move my eyes too fast. Tried it yesterday, made me more stuffed up decided I’m definitely done. That’s the win. Except I’m probably gonna get cancer anyway. Fuck lmao I guess I’m dying to lung cancer I hope not though.
>had a potential new job and have possibly lost the opportunity
Hate current job. Shit commute, shit pay, boring, no growth, shit environment, coworker is an asshole and probably responsible for me getting sick so often. Reconnected with best friend after not talking for years, he recently started in new job, he said he could get me into it. Passed my resume along. What does this guy do? He gets himself fired by donning an Indian accent in a training exercise. They fired him on the spot. No, he isn’t an Indian. He wasn’t being racist but he genuinely thought they would be okay with this shit knowing it was a super liberal company. He claims to be surprised by this. The fucker just wanted to act he was a theater kid but fuck this was so dumb. I’ve probably lost the opportunity now. And now the fuckers been drinking again and starting to be a bit of a prick towards me which is one of the reasons we had a falling out in the first place.
I may have to cut him off indefinitely. I don’t want to though
I definitely need a new job no matter what

went out on a first date last night for the first time in 3 years. i don’t remember why i kissed her in the middle of the date but i did and we spent the rest of the night just kissing and holding hands like we’re a couple

>>76372351
Be thankful you weren't shot for giving her the ick.

>On vacation with friends
>Really like one of the girls
>We are talking late first night
>Don't want to make a move yet because still trying to figure out vibe
>Other friend more socially awkward than me proceeds to spend the rest of the trip attached to me at the hip so I can't get away and spend time with the gals

Cocked that one up.

>>76372597
kek you’ve posted this already days ago. must really hate that that happened

>>76372604
What else can you say about a tall, brunette Yale graduate who looks great in a bikini who lives 12 hours away?

>>76372611
tell her you’re gonna visit her and give her some dick. she already stated she’s interested

>>76371866 (OP)
>max humidity
>36C
It's supposed to storm today, I plan on standing in the rain just to relish it

>>76371866 (OP)
Pretty shit, played some football yesterday morning and haven't left home since then.
Steady job, 25k saved but not a single thing going on in my life, every day is the same.

Summer holidays in 2 weeks and while everyone is will be going abroad or to nice beaches and parties with family or friends I have nothing to do.

>>76371866 (OP)
>thinking about going back to college at 30yo
"huh, when i went ~10 years ago the total in-state tuition was ~40k in my midwest state. i wonder what it is now?"
>110k
>in a flyover midwest state
Burn this fucking country to the ground.
>inb4 go to community college firt
Cool. So now I save maybe 20k. Just to get a piece of paper that means jack shit in today's job market. Oh and don't forget the retardedly high interest rates, goy. Fuck this overtly kiked """nation""".

>>76372644
CC degrees are fine for associates, especially if you're doing something like CAD work.

>>76372650
Not my point. The point is how fucking retardedly expensive it has gotten with the knowledge it is never going to get better. Maybe I should try and day trade.

Doing nothing but hiking trips in foreign countries. I'm 28 with 120k saved so I finally said fuck it you can't buy back time

Just did Grand Canyon and Zion Park and now headed to Madiera to climb Pico and then the Canary Island to hike Mt Teide. Luckily working for the feds I get 30 days off each year

>>76372617
I am so glad that this summer seems to be a low humidity one in my area. Fuck high temperature high humidity combo.

>>76372655
Look to see if there's DOT positions open. They usually take any warm body.

>>76372668
No. I'm not playing the Jew game.

>>76372658
>working for the feds
Kys glownigger

>>76372658
>28 with 120k saved
What a waste. If you properly invested that money instead you'd have it several times over.

>>76372717
Its all invested in VOO right now outside of 5k. Once I reach 200k I'm throwing 100k in Bitcoin

Does literally everyone the world over start getting less happy as they approach their 30s? How do I stop this?

I had a really good youth and maybe was a bit spoiled even but the stress of accountability and responsibility in relationships, careers, family etc is really starting to wear on me at 28; I thought people did all this stuff because they wanted to and it would make them happier, but that doesn't seem to be the case for most people. Am I taking my good situation for granted? Is having no established career or relationship in my 30s even worse than all this stress and work in my 20s?

I have a good gf, she wants to get married, but ive been bored for a while, but can I go chase other girls for fun before settling down? Nope. My job is a necessary step in my career but its boring, can I leave and go chase some fun job or adventure? Nope, gotta stay responsible and save money etc. Can I blow my savings buying a boat or something fun? Nope gotta buy a house one day so I can raise a stable family etc etc

I'm trying to want all this but man, life is so much more boring than my college days

>went on linkedin by accident
>see some of my high school classmates
>they're all wearing fancy suits and in business schools
>meanwhile i went to trades because i had no money for further education
Granted I'm making decent money but I still can't help having FOMO. I feel so isolated barely seeing my friends, still being a khhv. I don't know what it's like to be a normal person and it's only going to get worse the older I get.

>>76372729
As a khhv working in trades this post pissed me the f*ck off!

>>76372777
>They're wearing fancy suits in their profile pics so they're doing so much better than me

Don't ever assume that shit. For all you know they could be broke, in massive debt or unemployed. Focus on achieving your goals and stop worrying about others

>>76372729
My late 20s was when I realized my youth was ending and I could no longer believe in whatever childish fantasies I had. It's when I realized most people are shit and have no moral standards beyond whatever NEW THING IN MEDIA is atm. Add in the knowledge things have been getting worse in the world and I'm ready to die.

>>76372729
I'm much happier now at 37 than I've been from 22 to a year or so ago. And this despite being basically destitute.
The trick is to have an extremely shitty life for over a decade not out just your own fault so you can then enjoy simple things.
Now you may think that I'm sarcastic, but I'm not.

>>76372784
Nah, I know them and they're rich jews from the rich part of my town. One of them literally raped a girl at a party and faced no consequences. They always have daddy's money to fall back on

>>76372790
i love my girlfriend

>>76372799
good

>>76372072
Woman moment.
Dont think about it too much, ignore it and forget about her

>>76371866 (OP)
I fucked it up w this chick because I kicked a dead duck, littered, and didn't pay for her movie ticket. Sure it was retarded to do the impulsive stuff but the ticket is a little bit more nuanced. Wasn't sure if she'd appreciate that. I don't have much experience with women

>>76371866 (OP)
>Why can't you just work out, do your best, and love the people who come along?

Turns out you can. The thing is that it's mutually exclusive with enjoying 4chan

>>76372790
Im exactly like this but im 30.
I had extremely shitty and lonely and terrible 20s, now i just keep it simple and enjoy simple things in life like taking a walk, cooking a meal, listening to music etc

>>76371866 (OP)
It's been good. My hands hurt from my new factory job, but not in a terrible way, just getting used to pinch gripping 20-40 lbs a thousand times a day, plus it's a three day weekend, thank the Lord, and hopefully that'll be time enough for them to rest.
I've moved from bench press to weighted pushups very recently due to access to a bench becoming troublesome, and my new Kensui plate loadable vest came in, eager to try it out tomorrow for chest and back day.
Church was good this morning and I get to spend the afternoon with my child. Redownloaded tinder last night as I've had success getting laid off of it in the past and I was feeling a bit lonely for a woman's touch but the Holy Spirit convicted me to uninstall it pretty much immediately, as the new life God has given me has no place for making a practice of hedonistic living. Cut is going well, abs have really been popping. Hope you're doing well bros.

>>76372729
Just marry her if she's a good girl and become a humble mire farmer. I let the best girls go because I was bored and missed the thrill of the chase and I regret doing that.

>>76371866 (OP)
Limited myself to 2 nic pouches per day even though I have a ton of exams until the end of the month. No side effects of withdrawal, so that's awesome.
Cut affected my lifts more than I expected. Dropped 5kg bw (76 -> 71) and bench went from 112.5 to 100 1RM. I'm thinking European summer weather also has something to do with that too.
This is making me think of doing a deload week, 0 training.
That being said, life is alright. Putting in the effort is all it's about.

Doing okay. I hit my inital weight loss goal (down 30 lbs to 185) about a month ago and am trying to keep going until I hit 10% bf (13.8% at 179 on Monday). I've kinda fucked up with the food this weekend but I'm also exercising more than normal (played hockey Friday and will again today, spent most of the day already digging a trench). Other than that, the wife still won't put out but she's less stressed than she was and we're mending the relationship now after a blowup yesterday.

I'm so lonely

I'm dysgenic as fuck, and I don't mean it in the classic doomer "oh no I have a small chin and bad insertions" sense, I have some real disadvantages. This makes me think about the future, and the possibility of having kids... provided a single woman lays eyes on me in the first place. I wouldn't wish this shit on anyone, it's a real concern.

>>76373050
Post face

>>76373058

>>76372790
Oh hey me too, my teenage years and my 20s were so fucking bad but i'm really enjoying life at 34 doing shit i couldn't in my youth (which i never really had) while my peers turn into soulless husks

>>76373070
It's over.....

>>76372836
I forgot to add this part. Reconnected with an old childhood friend, we picked up where we left off. Focusing my attention and energy on that is more productive than becoming a blackpilled faggot. It's unfortunate I messed up but I learned something

>>76373126
Based

I came to visit my parents this week end. It's always fun to see them, obviously, but the thing is that my mom seems to hate the things I enjoy at the moment and she's disgusted by them. It's getting kind of redundant. Here's the stuff I got going on:
>Planning a trip to North Macedonia
>Getting into frog hunting (for the legs). It's not very popular right now so there is basically no resource on the subject, which makes figuring shit out a part of the fun.
>Currently trying to find crocodile meat. Where I'm from, eating crocodile is a once in a lifetime experience. I got lucky twice (a couple years ago) and 'im trying to find a actual cut of crocodile/gator instead of just fondue slices/cube. Maybe a whole ass gator.
>casually read. It's mostly stuff about history, geography, philosophy and politics.

Whenever I bring up stuff that I do, my mom always react with disgust and then confusion, wondering why the fuck would I do that. I know I have unconventionnal tastes but like come on, can you just be happy for me? I know I'm not her favorite, but I expect a little more enthousiasm/support whenever I'm reaching goals, whatever they maybe. I thought parental support was the free space on my bingo card.

In general, it seems like she only wants me to succed through conventionnal means. Like she wants me to wave a diploma, get a boring cubicle job with a nice title and impregnate immediatly the next women that I meet. I wonder if she would be proud of me if I succeed in a way that doesn't fit norm? Like If my laundromat works, and mined a bit of crypto on the side, enough to subsists and travel around the whole (wherever it's sunny at the moment) would she be proud of me?

Told a friend how I'm really doing and by the time I'd finished explaining how every day is a sisyphean nightmare where I hurt all the time but I refuse to lay down and die because the only constant in my life is the struggle.

Motherfucker burst into tears and asked "how can anyone live like that?" Like it was some insane idea that a person's entire life could be a whole lot of suffering with only little smatterings respite and warmth.

>>76373239
Is it true crocodile tastes like Chicken?

>>76373239
Damn I feel kinda like an asshole for only saying this >>76373306 lmao
You should be upfront with her the way you with us, she might not ecen realize she's making you feel this way. Ultimately life is short, we're born and die alone, keep doing the things you enjoy and make you happy, if you're not hurting anybody and having fun you don't need anyones approval, not even good old moms.

>>76373240
Yes that is insane

>>76373239
Not enough detail in this story. She could be reasonably concerned about her son pissing away a substantial amount of potential, fiddling away with obscure hobbies and pursuing success on hard mode just for the sake of being a chip-on-his-shoulder contrarian. She could also just be a self-absorbed boomer bitch who wishes she could fit in with her peers when talking about their kids.

Either way she's clearly doing a bad job communicating about whatever her fucking deal is, though.

>>76373306
I think It depends of how you cook it, but from my experience it's more like steak/white fish hybrid. Steak texture with fish color and after taste. It could be that I may have fucked the texture by cooking it to much, but who knows.

A beer for me please.

My account is 500€ in the red after some bad financial decisions and car repairs.
Nothing serious.
Lifts are going up, quitting smoking, overall, I'm trying to rebuild my life after the mess my ex fiancee left me in.

cutting sucks so much fucking ass
I just want to eat a pbj sandwich

>>76373095
>>76372790
based honestly. high key a blessington

>>76373240
Lol reminds me of when I went to a psychiatrist to get tested for the tism and she asked me about my life and pretty much ended up like pic related. I just thought that my shit life was normal but apparently it was "tragic" and "you shouldn't have to live like that".

Just got a new haircut, feels like my life will improve from now on. Or not I don't know. Only went to the gym tree times this week. I've been trying to put on some weight and I've eaten a lot as a result and it feels like i've got a tiny bit more fat on my belly.

>>76373474
>I just want to eat a pbj sandwich

>>76373489
thank god Im not rich and famous or I would end up like the king or marlon brando

>>76373494
Isn't there a stark contrast between Elvis and Brando? Brando had his own island. Elvis had... a period of fame and fell the fuck off?

>>76373505
elvis has sold over 1 billion records
if anything the contrast is in the opposite direction

>>76373505
>Elvis fell off
Peak zoomie retardation

>>76373324
Is it really? When I see other people saying they're depressed or having some kind of breakdown I always just assumed everyone felt like this and that they just couldn't handle it as well as I am.

That does explain why my union reps exchanged weird looks when they asked me how I cope with having autism and having a supervisor role and I replied with:

>it's fine, I put on my work face and do the job to the best of my abilities on that day, I try to make sure that my team doesn't have to struggle with anything, I'm quite good at martyring myself for the good of those under me, after all I can take it
>that sounds very challenging
>it's...exhausting.

>>76373354
1:Well I mean I'm 26. It depends of what you consider potential. I wasn't a straight A's student back in high school. More like C+ class clown, if you will. I had something more of an entertainer and artsy vibe going on. While studying cinema in college I've come to the conclusion that doing arts as job sucks, that it takes way to much time and energy for so little money and the chances of making it to the big leagues is close to none. The Art route is closed, now what? I'm no Stem major. And I ain't going for a trade job either, I care for my health. I'm creative and unaffraid to fail, so I'm trowing shit against the wall to see if it sticks.
2: Maybe it's just because she's a woman, not because she's a boomer? Woman sees value only through a social lense. And I don't have those socially approuved markers of success yet. My dad is still good to me. I hear about his stories and the shit he pulled when he was young and I'm a 100% his son. I think he sees himself in me so he knows I'll figure something out eventually.

>>76373322
Yeah you're right. Thanks.

>started hitting intermediate numbers on some lifts
>still look like shit because I'm 35% fat
>can't cut because I'm too depressed 4 that shit
>literally invisible to women
>I get called "sir" by guys in their 20s (I'm 30s now)

I need to be fixed.

>>76373435
Interesting, thanks for the answer bro!

honestly what’s a job worth looking into that
>pays enough for comfort (for me that’s $75k. Enough that I can save around $15k a year and not be struggling)
>active
>probably doesn’t have the worst commute
>lets me have enough time to have a life
>don’t have to wake up super early but also not get home super late
>isn’t gonna kill me with health issues Inb4 ppe (even with PPE some jobs cause health issues)
>is not medical, retail, or warehouse or driving related
>preferably not dependent on dealing with people, I get my tasks for the day/week and can just zone out and do them until I clock out
Open to a less active wfh job if it’s something I could be good at but I do best using my hands

>>76373601
Too depressed to cut!? What!? I thought depressed people struggled to eat. Do you use junk food as coping mechanism?

Btw cutting is great. You appreciate food way more. Stay in the sun to help the mood, take caffeine to reduce hunger and keep yourself busy when hunger arrives.

i’m a feminine guy dating a gay woman and i feel like pic related

No weight progress, no strength progress, no emotional progress, no spiritual progress. Making it one quart of kefir at a time

Drinkin a beer

>>76373637
You expect too much

>>76373637
Tower climber. God literally designed me for it physically, but I have a phobia of heights. Use the double line system ALWAYS and you won't fall. Can be hard to break into but just be persistent.

>>76373722
drinking again thinking of when she left me

>>76373731
Damn that sucks, I'm celebrating a successful weekend at the market. Next sips for you bud.

>>76373732
hell yeah brother i’m going to the asian market later to be extremely racist towards the non english speaking shoppers. that’ll make me feel better

>>76373760
Sounds like fun desu. I managed to sell a stuffed tsuchinoko I'd just made to a couple japanese tourists yesterday, they loved it.

>>76373637
My last job was an Operations Analyst. Paid 75k and I rarely had to deal with people other than updating certain client's books once a quarter. Only problem is that with this type of job you are dealing with normalfag horseshit every day. I cannot count the amount of conversations I'd have with someone wher ei'd lay out in explicit detail what we're doing, why we're doing it, and if they had a problem they could talk to me only for them to do it wrong like I wouldn't catch it. Also, if your company is ran by boomers/early Gen X then you can best believe you will be fixing years worth of fuck ups. Truly, when you get into a job that revolves around numbers and hard data will you understand how bad boomers fucked things up and why they deserve whatever Hell comes to them.

In hindsight I should've stayed but I got tired of getting new responsibilities that essentially boiled down to, "Pwease fix my boom-boom fuckups! :33 Can you pwease make me Chat-GPT?"

babygirl needed to pee at the movie theater. i think the way i caressed her hand and her thigh during the movie turned her on, because she refused to go to the restroom there and said she would try to hold it on our walk back... very fun for me to watch her stop to hold herself

about halfway home, she started to say she couldn't make it. i said of course you can, otherwise you would have gone earlier when you had the chance she had no choice but to agree. she kept holding for me as i reminded her of how good relief would feel i have to admit

i was a bit cruel, kept asking how much she was holding. i even told her i would allow her to pee on the rug we have in our hallway if she couldn't go past it, asking her to imagine how it would soak up all the piss she wanted to give it, how the color of the fibers would change

all this talk drove her crazy enough to start begging me to let her piss right there and then. i said "baby, there's nowhere to go" and i meant it. too many buildings, too many streetlights, too many people. i offered a compromise—let's find a bar, i'll buy you a drink, you drink it, then you can go pee in their toilet. babygirl is so smart but a full bladder makes her stupid—she accepted. so we had a drink. she was so full i could tell she couldn't concentrate on what i was saying. she would only obey one-word commands, first of all "drink"

you have no idea how good she looked for me at this point, in a messy bun and in short sleeves for the first time this year, eyes unfocused and lips parted in desperation and, i suspect, loads of arousal. i couldn't resist. she's so gorgeous she makes me want to bite her

>>76371866 (OP)
>cut is finally hitting, lost 10lbs from the start
>starting to lose a little strength but expected it
>getting to ride my motorcycle more with the good weather
>work is boring as shit but pays the bills

>>76373819
Wtf

Some of my female friends asked about my (lack of) dating life and it did so much more damage to my psyche compared to when my male friends do it. I know they didn't mean any harm by asking about it and it's not like I'm embarrassed, but for some reason it made me realize that I'm an emotionally distant/unavailable asshole. I already knew this, but somehow the conversation somehow just made me more aware of it. I guess it's just something else I need to work on, but I'm not sure how.

I like to hold hands at the movies... which always seems to startle strangers.

>>76373819

>>76373819
I don't have a pissing fetish, but this post provided some insight into why some other people do. Unironically why I come to this god forsaken website.

>>76371866 (OP)
been talking to this girl. she's smart, quiet, funny, everything you could wish for. but my life is shit. I have no real prospects and feel like I'm already over the hill. she's clearly into me but I feel I'd just hold her back. what do I do bros?

A girl asked for my number yesterday at church.

>>76373819

>>76373993
did you give it?

>>76373993
i met an 18 year old at church and she gave me an STD

>>76373989
lie about your success. i do it all the time. this girl believes i’m a heart surgeon

>>76373989
Go for it; do not hesitate to.

>>76372108
>i feel like women are dangerous in general.
They are

>>76372132
This guy has had no real relationship experience with women
>(Source: I have female friends)
Ok reddit.

I like the virtual bar threads more, because I find it improper and poor taste to complain on the indomitable spirit ones on Monday. Still for both, whoever is making these I thank you anon(s), you're very cool.

I am going to blogpost about boring shit, so be warned. Its not like I expect you to read this anyway baka, posting shit on the internet is enough for me for that emotional surrogacy, maybe not having social media ever helped on that regard.

I wonder if going to an actual Izakaya style bar and talking about my life to the barman would be a positive experience. Not sure there are any where I live, but the life wisdom of an old barkeep and the entire allure of things as shown in holywood movies is enticing. Just had to know a place first, I mean most of the bar staff is just zoomers and zoomer girls. The work don't pay much, and owners don't care like, small bussiness is also becoming less and less a thing. So Imagine talking to a 20 year old extravert about life, kek.

Anyway, I completely turned back 3-4 weeks or more of my progress on lifting/weight loss by binge smoking weed and eating like a pig for an entire week. Could be alright to make a mistake like that, but there is literally nothing more important to me nowadays but the project of resculpting the shape of my body, so why did I ruin an entire month of progress for myself? I am at 118kg again, was 110 already, I guess you could cope that there must be more muscle than before to that mass, but frankly the number is the only thing I care about.

>>76374009
Yeah.

>>76372132
all my friends are women and this is the gayest advice i’ve ever heard, and that’s saying a lot seeing as i went to a gay bar last night

>>76372132
Nigga said barmaid like his only interaction with women is the NPCs he interacts with when playing Elder Scrolls lmao

>>76372132
this guy wants to fuck his 14 year old niece

>>76374050
I am not even upset at this point, or despairing. It was an experience alright. Just disappointed in myself. This is like the 6th time I done this over the course of my whole life. Weed is great if I can portion it, but like a proper addict, practising abstinence is almost impossible.

Yet I am unable to give up on weed, and not sure what to go about this in life in the future. Smoking once every 2 weeks is ideal. I tried 3 times to quit it completely the longest was 1 year, the shortest was 3 months. The results are always the same, initially I get a productivity boost but I end up stuck and not progressing much on my life goals, just become complacent in existing rly, like a soulless golem. Weed helps me ground myself and lets me realize what a piece of shit I am without the daily workings of ego meant to protect myself (thanks ego bro, I know you care about me not hurting and this is why you do all this, but all these ancients mechanisms ain't working for me in the long run cuz). Well that, plus unnecessary anxiety and overthinking but its not that bad, most of my fears come from outside and I just simply don't have to leave the house when I am high right. Well, I cope with my weed addiction by absolutely hating everything external that has to do with weed, so no weed smoking friends, no festivals or communities.

I asked my brother to hide my harvest for me, and he did. While immature in the grand scheme of things, it still is a a smart choice, if I cannot help myself others can help me.

My hairline is so fucked. It never even began for me.

>>76374114
So I have this under control in this way, but honestly not sure what is the next step. The initial plan when I picked up smoking years ago was to cope with the dread of everyday living and to quit once life becomes worth enjoying it sober, but things might not happen how I naively envisioned it.
But its complicated. If I could act proper addict, and say that everything bad in my life is the result of cannabis, I would have it easier throwing it away.
But its not that easy. I really have no joy in life but this. Befre I started weed, I was already a war child depressed piece of shit crazy teenager. So I can't think of weed as other quitters often do, that its the thing that ruined me. My fucked up life and my reactions to the grotesque divine comedy I was put in ruined me. Not weed. There was a point in life 7 years ago where I was going to kill myself and that I can post this here today is partly thanks to weed. The drug always gave me hope for the future. 24 males monthly kill myself in my country and 3 females (lmao), and I find no wonder in this. The stat was once 6 females ad 30 males too so its better now.
I personally have about 10 people I know and 10 more that were acquaintances that killed themselves. Surprisingly mostly hangings which is the worst way to die (I chose the exit bag). Had no clue why it was like that before. This made me think life is like this everywhere, but its not. Now that I am wiser and 31 I can say with confidence that its the direct cause of USSR collapse, which was pretty bleak, but still this great despair was very localized to my town as many thing went bad quickly for many families, mostly industry related. For anyone culturally not affiliated compare it to the myth of coal mining town closing the mine and what that entails, as was brilliantly shown by the British.

But well, this is why I had a mindset of scarcity all my life and I find it hard to think something else. Wait, I am drunk. What was talking about again?

>>76374118
this happened to me in high school. i was bald by 18,

"Don't look at me." I can feel the burn of her stare on my sensitive skin. I'm anti-social and I don't know how conversational sentences begin. Plus, I'm allergic to the medicine of sexual healing. This impotence is sickening. She's sensual, appealing. Now I'm covering up my crotch region by crossing my legs, lost in thoughts of whores in my bed. It's awful, so I'm forcing my head into my forearms. I should invite her for a cup of Joe. It would do more harm than good, I just know. I mean, she's no Natalie Portman, and I've been kind of holding out for her, naturally. Now my thoughts spin, and she's on the "out" for sure. Gradually, I contort my mindframe so no doubts occur. I activate testicular bravery and I shout to her. Our eyes lock, and time stops. She floats over to my spot, and I say, "Hi, I'm not trying to hit on you like the way all these other guys jock. I just wanna let you know, I'm the type of person who lies a lot. Sometimes I fart and I pick my nose like a maniac. I'd be glad to front the cost of a date with you as long as you pay me back. If we ever reach the friendship level where things like that are shared, and I know my facial hair is weird, but I've been waiting for someone like you to shave my beard."

>>76371866 (OP)
Terrible. The woman who I fell in love with still hates me and I still don't know why. At this point I feel like being a nasty cunt to her so she'll fuck off and then be absolutely devastated when she does.

>>76374130
The worst part is I can't even shave my head. I have a bizarre head shape, the back of my skull is totally flat.

>>76371866 (OP)
I just want to live out my horny fantasies man, I have no interest in this rat race.

>>76374078
>>76374097
This is probably the best advice on this website rn you double nigger.
>Talk to them as though theyre your 14 year old niece.
this alone from >>>76374078 would show that this man fucks and understands women but to you brownoids I imagine this doesn't explain much since all the goat fucking and desert incest, you're already primed to fuck your 14 year old niece so nothings changed right?

Initially I was going to explain for that anon why this works, but reconsidering I think that teaching human behaviours to something that is not human, won't make it so, but it will help it mimic it instead. We don't need more skinwalkers in society, so I'd rather suggest you kys.

>>76374153
Honestly my man, I can’t even tell which anon you’re rooting for

>>76374155
>>76374155
sorry mate, I obviously meant that this anon is correct and gave a stellar advice >>76372132

>>76374166
he sounds like a virgin. i’d mog him irl and take his bitch who is probably ugly and fat because that’s all he can pull

>>76374153
>This is probably the best advice on this website
Only older experienced guys understand why this is so. This is the kind of wisdom that is difficult to impart to those who lack the experience to appreciate it, but maybe some anons will benefit

>>76374193
Shut up faggot kys retard

>>76374031
I am in o state to go for it. she is way more successful and motivated than I am.
the catch 22 is if I get with her it might rub off on me, but that would mean she realises how pathetic I currently am

>>76374063
good

>>76374193
thanks to his advice i’m going to see my local barmaid to talk to her like she’s my 14 year old niece lol

>>76374210
This shit sounds retarded when you say it out loud. Who gave these niggers WiFi?

>>76374187
>>76374202
>>76374212
Calm down, little man

I see it's a virgin underaged pajeet gets mad and spams the thread time already

I told my gay nephew to post “I see it's a virgin underaged pajeet gets mad and spams the thread time already” and he actually did it. That’s crazy

>>76374244
kek

I FUCKING HATE SQUATS AAHHHHHHHHH

>>76374187
>>76374202
>>76374212
>>76374231
>>76374244
>>76374256
>Samefag schizo having a little melty in this thread

>>76374273
Based

>>76374304
get a load of this coping virgin lol better not fap yourself to sleep any days of this or i win. remember that. anytime you play with your dick i want you to remember that i won and you’re a virgin faggot with “female friends” that refers to the bartender as a “barmaid”

I got retrograde ejaculation after back surgery. 50% chance it's permanent.

>>76374509
The giant noses make it hard for me to tell if they're a couple or related in some way. Though they both seem trashy enough to where it could be both.

>>76374516
I got that after a catheter too.

I turned 30 a month ago and I feel like I've aged 10 years. My body just hurts all the time. Getting older is a curse.

>>76374544
Did it go away?

Just finished a massive offroad motorcycle trip
GF finally quit her way too stressful job and wants to move out of the city to the countryside
My work's going great

Life's actually great for once. Want to focus on lifting but I need to relax for a few more days to recuperate. My brain still isn't 100% and my body feels like someone beat the crap out of it.

>>76374632
Nah. Well, it's hard to tell. For months there was literally no ejaculation coming out. When I read up on it it said the orgasm would feel just as good, but there'd be no ejac or it would be very limited. The orgasm didn't feel just as good though it was like I didn't feel anything at all. Then that started stressing me so I couldn't keep hard neither. Ended up in a real vicious circle. Then one day I watched some "bomb ass" porn and cum just like the old days. I was convinced I was cured, but then it started happening again. Now it's 50/50 whether it happens or not. Been like this probably 5 or 6 years.
Arguably a bigger problem is that the catheter completely fucked my bladder. Now I need to piss before I get hard otherwise I'll be hard and 10 minutes in that full bladder feeling happens and I need to go for a piss, but I still can't piss when I'm hard. So I need to go soft, piss, then get hard again. It's a total piss take (no pun intended). I should have some kind of compensation for this.
Sorry I've started vented now.

>>76371883
I was just about to write this

>>76374717
Well if there's any consolation you made me feel better about my situation. I can still get hard and cumming feels about the same, although less satisfying since nothing comes out. It's just depressing because I used to shoot heavy loads that even girls would comment on and now there's practically nothing. The fact that time can heal these issues gives a bit of hope but it's just brutal that one issue can be fixed just for another to spring up.

>>76374540
left is weirdly into bald guys. right is pushing 40, hair transplant and veneers, passport bro’s it up in latin america and complains about how he can’t find a wife

>>76374748
Do you get nervous about shooting blanks with new girls?

>>76374748
>I used to shoot heavy loads that even girls would comment on
This is what I also miss. I think there is some kind of surgery I can get for my bladder, but after they fucked up something so basic last time I'm reluctant to look into it properly.
One thing you should try to keep in mind too is that retrograde ejaculation can be caused by stress. So there's always the chance it clears up physically, but if you stress about it too much you could be accidentally causing it to continue.
I wish you good luck anon.

>>76371866 (OP)
I'm 22, and I feel like I'm wasting my life. I graduated college, good gpa, but it's a business degree. I really just went to please my parents, and now I have loans. I apply for jobs aimlessly, but they don't even bother to send rejection letters. To make matters worse, my dad got laid off, so I can't even bum off him. In regards to love, I did my last year of highschool online because my parents were worried about the coof. I never even asked a girl out in college either, they never seemed interested. The only real meaningful thing I can do with my life is to lift, and keep lifting

>>76371866 (OP)
A girl once liked me in highschool, but I didn't really like her back. That was 6 years ago, I still see her in my dreams sometimes. Maybe that was the one person who could fall for me.

I don’t remember why I kissed this girl and it’s bothering me. I was blacking in and out throughout the night and I remember the moment just not what motivated me to do it

>>76374780
It would be a little embarrassing because it's a clear indication that something is wrong with your reproductive system. But even just for myself, it's always been a big part of my fantasies and sexual experiences.

>>76374785
It's only been two weeks since surgery, which was very invasive and painful. It's too early to throw in the towel, trying not to stress about it. I'm wondering if kegels or reverse kegels would help, even if indirectly.

My week's been alright, I guess.

I went to a going away party for a coworker on Saturday so that checked off my weekly socialization requirement, did a couple chores on Sunday, now I'm just wrapping up some work before heading off to the gym.

I have a "friend-date" with a girl this Thursday, she's not unattractive but she has a boyfriend and I'm not really interested in getting between their relationship, she's set me up on dates with her friends in the past, none of them were really my type so I never really tried to make anything pan out, but I'm not one to unnecessarily burn a bridge like that.

Other than that, next week I have some light travel and recreation planned, followed by a much longer vacation in August. All of my work is done for the day so I'm merely killing time until I clock out.

Still no gf though.

>>76374208
Now she's asked if I want to go on a date sometime.

>>76374774
Who are these people?

My life is over, oh well.

>>76371866 (OP)
How do you know if a bitch is playing games with you? If she’s not actually interested? Or if she’s trying to use you in some way?
>show interest, she loses hers
>drop lose interest myself, she’s suddenly very interested
Xrepeat. I’ve fucked her a few times but that didn’t work out as easily as it should have it took years of me blowing her off and being uninterested. Really hard for me to get a read on this girl. I’m about to just tell her next time “come throat me off or fuck off for good” and then block her if she doesnt

>get job
>feel better now that financial aspect of life is fixed/being fixed
>get good at job usually within first month or two
>become one of the best within 4 months
>6 months in start feeling bored
>10 months in hate job, absolutely hate everything about it
>inevitably quit without new job lined up despite efforts not to
>feel like shit being unemployed not making progress
Every single time. It just repeats. I think I’ve come to realize I just can’t do the same job forever. I get incredibly bored and it becomes super mundane. Especially jobs with no growth. Idk what the solution is here. It’s like I need a job with challenges where not every day is the same exact shit, where I can constantly learn new stuff. I really don’t know what to do. It’s like a feeling of stagnation but also boredom

>>76376473
I relate. I'm someone who needs to be constantly improving and when I see errors in the company I want them to be fixed. Unfortunately the boomers who run the places are too retarded to understand actual optimization and efficiency and God help you if you ever have to tell a cuntbag femoid in your office to do better.
>did you contact the x account like you were supposed to
>teehee no :))
>dude, if we don't get a response by friday we will probably lose them and they pay a pretty penny
>oh noes :))) oh here comes the office duff to talk to me for 15-30 minutes. she'll be back in another hour to do the same thing
I'm currently in the NEET phase of my life (thank you BTC) and I really don't want to rejoin the normie workforce until they fix their shit.
>tfw women are just now trying to pull their own redpill/mgtow movement after men exhausted it and made it retard (aka woman) proof to understand.

>>76371866 (OP)
Meet girl i like. Ask for number. First day texting is okay. Second day wait very long for reply. Try to make the conversation going. Only got 1 or 2 word reply. Such is life for 42 single and whore lover. She is such an angel but i am only degenate loser and God know that.

>>76371866 (OP)
I'll take a coors barkeep.
Got axed last week, waiting for severance to pay out.
I've seen other guys get laid off and they were destroyed, I'm not even mad, just slightly annoyed. Working to pick up side work right now.
One big plus about not having a wagie bitch job now is that my cut is shredding without the excess cortisol and I can see random tinder hoes whenever.

>>76376774
What were you doing?

>>76372351
What country even was this?
A cop spotted me on tinder at a light and gave me a thumbs up like 3 weeks ago

>>76376819
I was a professional in tech, they kept cutting people, got overwhelmed and made an oopsie. Got offered severance the next day.
Been sleeping like a baby desu, just need income and I'm good.

>>76376867
>tech
Haha... I'm tempted to go back to college for AI but this scares me. Am I correct in guessing they outsourced to India? Bonus if everyone told them don't do it?