i used to go on this board alot and lurk for years

random postings on cbt threads and other stuff here and there. i kind of felt like a bum and my only purpose was to just get really jacked. watching matt ogus, blaha, jailbaitwarrior, frank yang and etc, trying routine and diets (raw onions) that i thought would raise my test. told my best gym buddy that we'd hop on test when we became 22.

then i got a little older and my elbow started hurting and my tendonitis started flaring up everytime i worked out. it slowly phased me out of working out because the tendonitis would flare up on both my elbows even if i took a month break. i slowly stopped working out soon after because every exercise involving my elbows hurt me (presses, curls extensions you name it)

at the time, my entire purpose in life felt like it was stolen away. all those times chugging peanut butter protein milk shakes and throwing up, checking my weight everyday and eating a fuckload of onions. i was depressed and i lost alot of weight and muscle.

>>76387566 (OP)
about 4-5 years later, i got a job and met a coworker named alex. he was obsessed with getting big just like how i was. but god he was such a faggot. he would always be the most insufferable person in the room. he was a fairly big guy, but frail at heart he was. when i talked to him he was a fag and not in the homosexual way, he was just a FAGGOT.

i have no idea what it was, but it just set off a VERY HEAVY "what a fucking faggot" sensor in my head. he wasn't a bad person, nor did he do anything wrong to me, but it honestly woke me up from my idealization of being big, and made me realize it doesn't matter how big you are, you are still a huge fag.

meeting this person made me scared and afraid. what if that is how other people saw me? it awoken me and cured me of my body dysmorphia.

i now have a girlfriend.

because that is what i wanted in the end.

a super cool girlfriend that loves me.

and it didn't take getting huge or hopping on test.

all it took was meeting alex and realizing not to be a huge faggot.

the end.

>elbow pain
>tendonitis
you have weak extensors
work your extensors ffs

>>76387578
i just do wrist curls now and now i can work out my chest shoulders and arms

>reddit spacing

>>76387566 (OP)
>chugging peanut butter protein milk shakes and throwing up, checking my weight everyday and eating a fuckload of onions.

lmao, that's what you get for being a larper and getting into overly technical bullshit as a beginner

>>76387584
>i greentext i post on fourtrans

>>76387586
im not larping but how is it overly technical drinking peanut butter a milk you retard

>>76387580
basically what i do but not in the "rehab" way where u do light weight high rep. i hit the extensors with max weight. cured my lifting pains.

>>76387566 (OP)
>>76387577
terrible story and if you're not fit then your girlfriend cool as though she might be, she's probably also unfit (ugly).
I got shredded and the hottest chick in the room always shows interest.
I'm poor as fuck, no education, almost 35yo with no children, and my life still feels great simply because I'm fit, and this in turn makes me be in a great mood all the time, I'm happy, confident and playful.

you just allowed yourself to settle for very little in order to not feel bad.
I don't mind people like you, but the fact that you're trying to spout your retarded gospel as if chasing fitness was "not worth it" is what will always make me think you're a pathetic mental midget.

>>76387601
i still work out and fixed my elbow with a better routine. my girlfriend is the hottest person in the room and she will be until i die.

the only gospel i am preaching here is to not be a mental faggot and getting big won't fix it.

Damn nice blog unc keep it to the thirties thread tho

>>76387566 (OP)
>ate a fuckload of soi

>>76387637
thanks young gangster
i hope my tale finds a place in your heart

>>76387566 (OP)
Why are you indian