>Saturday night
What can i get ya?

Long Island
You backing The Diamond or Blessed tonight?

>>76398313
Blessed is best baby

>>76398316
I like both, but leaning towards Holloway since he's going to continue fighting. I still have a soft spot for it being a retirement fight, though. Just want them to put on a show.

My life is pointless

>>76398282 (OP)
I had lots of fun dates off Tinder and other dating apps, but as a whole, the apps are just demoralising, it's a meat market, nobody cares there's a living breating person on the other side

i am going to sleep
please dont daterape me ok?

>>76398282 (OP)
A way to forget my entire personality

>>76398282 (OP)
id like for you to get me a drink where i can go back in time to when i was a teenager and hope that i would change things and actually become a happy, sociable, successful person who had friends and relaitonships from a normal age, got a good degree and job, and actually cared about my life at all whatsoever so i could be in my 30s and actually see a point in continuing life and not only thinking about committing suicide becuase of how hopeless and miserable my future is like me today. do you have something for that barkeep?

>>76398405
How come?

>>76398282 (OP)
sacramental wine for me barkeep, I have faith in myself and in others
>>76398413
what about the drink that makes you go forward in time to when you're 60 and makes you grieve about all the wasted opportunities and remaining youth you have before you, right now? It's on the house.

>>76398282 (OP)
I feel pretty good. Doing laundry and dishes and i have no financial worries at the moment. Might even shave my beard today. Also ate like 2kg of meat today. Today was good. Pretty relaxing, not too much going on. I'll have some dilated syrup water.

>>76398439
i wont be alive anywhere near 60 so it doesnt matter. and i have no youth left.

>>76398282 (OP)
I'll have a whiskey on the rocks and a billion dollars, won't be too fussed if you can only manage one

Got a new job and while everything about it seems good, it's getting in the way of my fitness. The first week I'm too tired after work to workout and I start too early to do it before. Ended up breaking my 40+ day cos of it. I'll find a way to manage it eventually but it knocking me off my stride for a bit feels bad

>>76398457
another chalice of sacramental wine then barkeep, to raise for this man who is already dead

>>76398415
It's bad for making new friends. I'm slowing losing contact with my ones from childhood and it's starting to become very noticeable how little joy awaits me in the future with such poor social prospects.
I also contracted some kind of mind virus (no not trannyism, and no I won't elaborate on it because I don't want to give it to others) from reading some faggot's post on this website and it's somehow made it even more difficult to function in social settings.

>>76398282 (OP)
Women are scared of my big cock. They call me cervix impaler.

I feel stuck and trapped. I’ve had some forward motion towards my goals but not truly and mostly boiled down to pure luck.
>got a job 12 months ago
Was supposed to be a job I had for a year max haven’t found anything else yet.
>lost 50lbs
Fluctuated back up 10, 50lbs ain’t shit when I need to lose another 50 just to look human again.
>moved out
Only because the unit was inherited by an in law and it’s considered a sentimental place that only family is supposed to live in so I get a giant deal on rent.


I need to
>get better real job
>lose another 50lbs
>rearrange this apartment and furnish it make it look nice
The job I have has a fucked schedule where at the end of the day I’m lucky to get 2-3 hours to myself. I spend the rest of the day driving or working. Coworker is a fucking lunatic (see next post) who makes my job 10x more stressful than it needs to be. Yeah I can at least find the time to exercise but it would be a lot smoother and more efficient, more enjoyable if my job situation wasn’t so fucked. Applied to a WFH job today. Last one never reached out.
Feel like I can’t find the time to get a new job, that I need school of some sort. Can’t get into a trade without starting school because they all demand school and years of experience just for helper positions.
Can’t afford to fix apartment up how I want and also feel a bit lost. Came semi furnished but I’m being told I’m not allowed to replace the stuff here which makes no fucking sense since the couch is shredded to shit from previous tenants having cats, the paint is a disgusting blue color and peeling in places, bed is too small for me (need a queen too tall). If I would do all the work and pay for it idk what the issue is. Also told I can never have a dog because landlord likes cats.
Yeah yeah yeah boo hoo poor me I get to have my own place wahh wahh I know it could be worse and I’m bitching about what to most is ideal living circumstances, but that is all this is. Bitching.

>>>/r9k/

faggots

blacked out on first date. don’t remember what the fuck i did but she wanted to see me again

>shit coworker
I’ve bitched and moaned about him for months here. 80 y.o viet vet with 100% va disability (like $3k/month) + SSI and rich sons begging to retire him. His time in the army was go to other country get trained get free degree then get trained for military police get sent to the US to deal with the war protests and as soon as he got back the protests ended and he was discharged. No combat, never actually worked except training. So there isn’t even the veteran sympathy like you would think.
He admits he’s just in this job to get paid to stay active.
He intentionally doesn’t do his work so I have to do his work. I already do 2-3x as much as him, I’m doing the work of 3 people here. My work, his work, and a CNA because I have to play wrangler for this old faggot. He’s also paid more than me. I do his tasks, untitled lead, I wipe his metaphorical ass
Last week he kept rushing me insinuating I was too slow and being lazy because i wasn’t doing his work for him. I did 3x as much as him and he kept telling me to leave my shit unfinished. He literally just never started half of his task until I came over to help him. I hate this faggot so much. He gets unironcially pissed off if I don’t do his work for him, he thinks if he’s not taking advantage of me that I’m stealing from him somehow.
And then he claims credit for all of my work, insists it was him that did 90% of the work and tries to say I’m lazy because “Fox said young people don’t work hard” or some other retarded nonsense. I fucking hate him so much.
Most days we could leave an hour early (president and all management told us to leave early and put in for full day if we finish with time to spare like that) but he makes intentional mistakes that I have to fix or he takes his time to ensure we get out AFTER leave time every day. Leaving after leave time or an hour early is the difference between a 40 minute commute and a 1.5 hour one for me, which blows after being up since 2

>>76398559
>untitled lead
He’s supposed to be my lead, it’s why they pay him more. He has since day one refused to do it so I’m the one being the lead. I literally do his tasks, my tasks, and the lead work.


On top of it all he starts bullshit arguments just seemingly for the sake of feeling in control of something in life like he realizes he’s going to die soon and it upsets him. If I don’t back down he throws fits. The argument can be stupid shit like the exact color of a tool
>can you pass me that blue Philips head
>I don’t see it
>right next to your leg man
>idk what you’re talking about
>it’s literally the only thing on the floor next to you
>idk what you’re trying to say
>*go grab it*
>thats passion berry #236267 magenta not blue (in pissed off tone like I’m the one wasting time)
shit like that, or he will say my work is wrong, dismantle it then after I fix it and it’s exactly how I had it he goes “see I was right you messed it up” just to end up screaming if I stand my ground that “it’s exactly the same as it was before” or he’ll twist it and claim I’m the one who dismantled it “for no reason”


This faggot has never been hit in his life.


He also gets me sick every month because after 8 decades he never learned to cover his mouth when he coughs. Then he taunts me and smugly goes “haha couldnt have been me who got you sick lol” as if I don’t only spend all of my time around this heaping pile of faggot shit every week

I need to dissociate again.

Been at a goth/industrial concert yesterday and the singer told to the crowd pointing at me while pogoing torso naked “fuck you’re big”
Talked to lots of people there and had alot of fun, that’s my kind of place.
I still alone and all friends around me seems finding relationships incredibly easily while i’m still alone at almost 30.
I need to find a gf asap and get experienced because fuck it seems there are an incredible amounts of unwritten rules.
Also i am incredibly objectified for my phyisique and i hate it so fucking much

>>76398559
dude just kill him. he's too old for anyone to care

It's my birthday tomorrow. It really is just a day for me, I usually go back to my city and get drunk with my friends but this time I'll celebrate at the town I live in and it's become kind of a big deal.
A bit of a hassle honestly I just wanna get drunk and not waste so much time, I'm stupidly busy I can barely afford celebration. But I guess I've become someone important for several people and that comes with some responsibility.

I do miss my freedom tho. When I was a total fucking loser I'd just get drunk alone for my birthday and walk around the city. Now I got all this shit to do, and I don't even have children. But work, family, fiancee, household, finance... Ahhh I just wanna get fucking smashed for 5 days in a row

I will go for a night walk tonight at like 3am, find a street to walk down and then cry because i'm a failure and my life is going in circles.

>>76398625
i was goig to do that last night, set my alarm for 2 am, was gonna just want to a trail and sit there thinking about my pathetic life. i woke up but then just went back to sleep anyway. maybe ill do it tongith.

home gym master race but I decided to work out at the park today. It was nice.
Saw a cardi bunny and she looked at me, but they all have those huge ear muffs on.

>dad would tease me for being kv
>get fit over the past few years and put myself out there
>no luck
>few months ago my parents and sisters staged an intervention
>they were concerned that I’m 28 with no love life
>they also want to see me happily married and start my own family
>go along with it to make it end asap
>didn’t have the heart to tell them that I know I'm a lost cause and that I'll likely die alone

>>76398532
>>76398559
>>76398582
>berry #236267 magenta
kek
In all seriousness I am actually glad you update us with your story. It is interesting to see how things turn out and I look forward to the day it turns around for you, fren.

>>76398673
Damn

I'm sober but man do I wish the days when I could drink my pain away and just drunkenly watch seinfeld and laugh.

I've been enjoying cocoa husk tea. It tastes surprisingly similar to hot chocolate minus the creaminess, which is fine by me. It also has a stimulant that is a milder counterpart to caffeine.

Tea has been a great way to substitute caloric drinks. It also reminds me of my grandma. She was a cold person but lightened up when she started introducing me to tea. That was something we bonded over and I think of her sometimes when I have a cup.

I quit porn last month and I miss it. Jacking iff without it sucks, I feel impotent.

>>76398611
>>76398680
He’s such a fucking cunt. I literally can’t do anything.
>stand up for myself
>best case he yells at me, spends the rest of the shift/week pissy, and will randomly say some slick shit implying I have problems “did you eat today?”
>worst case if I don’t fold just to not deal with his bullshit someone witnesses it and he plays the “ohhh I’m just a sweet innocent old man idk why everyone’s so mean to me” routine so then people consider me some elder abusing asshole and try to have his back
It’s bullshit. If I report him it’s
A.) he gets a slap on the wrist then makes everything even worse
B.) I’m the one who gets fired because I’m the new guy and we only ever interact with bosses when first hired and to submit timesheets so they have the sweet old man idea in their head not realizing what kind of fucking faggot this faggot is. I have witnessed him treat other people at some locations we go to the same way, recently he threw his hand in some ladies face and dismissed her yelled “bye!” like a ghetto black chick and she lost her shit and scolded him like a little kid.
I fantasize about stomping him in half and donkey punching him when he gets especially bad. I could probably JJBA punch a hole in his stomach


He does that passive aggressive shit where unless you’ve been around him for long enough like I have or you had been secretly intently listening you wouldn’t even realize he’s being a cunt and trying to fuck me over, which is why people witness it and think I’m the asshole for standing up for myself even if I never raise my voice or say anything cruel. Idk how to describe it better than that. I realize it’s very obvious but I hate this guy. This isn’t what I signed up for. The second I get a new job I’m quitting on the spot and when questioned I’m telling the bosses everything, telling them I’ll stay if they match the pay and fire him

>>76398673
yeah i remember when my father would do that mocking about me not having girls too. asking if i was gay, etc. then he realized i wasnt gay, i was just a complete loser. i didnt hav friends either and he mocked me for that too. my mother never really cared

what was the intervention like? my parents never staged that for me. never really showed any concern about me being a loser as a teenager, through my 20s, and now into my 30s at ground zero of life.

>>76398282 (OP)
Don’t ever date a Latina bros.. they’re batshit crazy

>>76398783
Same shit basically minus being mocked how you were. I had typed a whole post responding to the other anon and deleted it. They just never cared. I can chalk it up to incompetence on their part but it’s still not right or easy to be okay with. They believed and still do that if I was fed and housed then I had it made, that I had a haven of a life.
I through maximum effort managed to get some socialization in college and sort of date but they weren’t quality women. I never learned the lessons I was supposed to when younger. I went from 20 years no socialization to being part of a couple circles going to parties and all that suddenly. Dated crazy. Never truly dated or had a real GF was more like was taken advantage of by crazy. I digress, how the fuck can you raise a human being and not just allow but at times force it to be a shut in loser during its critical formative years?
Just no concern. Whenever I’ve tried to talk to my dad for help or advice in my 20s all I get from him is
>it’ll happen just be patient
Or
>you’re too young to [be lonely/not be getting laid / not instinctually know how to meet women / be injured / have depression or anxiety / be financially struggling / not know what career to pursue / LITERALLY ANY COMMON PROBLEM]

>>76398795
Yeah but they eat ass and do anal by default.

>>76398673
I'm sorry man, the idea of people staging an intervention because you're a virgin has me laughing so hard

>>76398282 (OP)
Alright uhh I'm feeling some vodka, and like can you put a lime in there. Just like squeeze it in there, and then put the rind in there too. I think I'm inventing something here

>>76398874
I would never stick my dick in an ass. Poop comes out of there

>>76398282 (OP)
Okay, like I'm not GAY but, like what good would a woman actually do for my life? what, sex? a partner? What good is a partner I have to repress any ick inducing behavior around. Whatever though, I need to get my shit together before anything else

>>76398601
I really don't think it is that difficult to be in a relationship. As long as you had a relatively normal family and childhood development, you should basically get all of those 'rules' quite easily. But in general, I don't look at it that way, people's relationships are very different. What's wrong with being objectified? I like that. But if you don't, unless you roid, you should be able to hide your physique
>>76398613
I'm not in your position, but I feel as though you should be able to find some way to unwind properly. I understand the responsibility you refer to, but surely you could get a weekend away from everything, including your fiancee, couldn't you?
>>76398738
well done anon, i find imagination and taking my time and only doing it when actually horny actually produces a better experience

>>76398912
The main things are sex, companionship, emotional support, and children. Ideally, you would be comfortable enough around her to be yourself mostly. What behaviors are you taking about? Unrelated, but I do think that many people enter relations for bad reasons

>>76398757
Have you thought about just gaslighting the shit out of him? Like don't take him seriously at all.
>But I'd get fired
Sounds like youre on thin ice anyway and it would 100% drive him crazy. At my work we had a lead like that (didn't do shit and singled out quiet people to bully) that none of us could stand so we all just fucked with him.

>>76398282 (OP)
I was getting depressed so I decided to go for a drive through the nice part of the city. Decent architecture with green lawns and clean streets. It has been some time since I was there. What did I see?
>4 obvious somali rape-fugees
>a guy that looked like he was tweaking on drugs outside a fast food place
And my favorite
>a guy with long hair wearing pink yoga shorts and a bra
I live in the fucking Midwest and it's like this in the rich part? WTF are the rest of the cities like? I used to walk around these areas myself 10 years ago and wanted to work hard enough to be able to afford a place like that but now it just seems like a debt trap that can give you the illusion this shithole won't turn into an even worse Brazil after the last white boomer des. Why am I continuing to even try? The bad OBJECTIVELY outweighs the good at this point. This country is beyond redemption with Europe not doing any better. I don't know what to do except just watch how bad thing will get and kill myself when I can't deal with it any more.

I fucking hate this country so much. The only way to be a good American any more is to consume slop and be fucked up on several different drugs at once. That or if you're """healthy""" consume a diet of SSRIs to numb yourself to this hellhole.

>>76398918
Expressing my sense of hopelessness and self hatred; my niche interests of things like touhou. Obviously, people don't like downers, I get that. Inevitably though, there will be times times where I am down, and I have a high sense of doubt that most women want to stick around with someone who expresses that.

Are super wild mood swings normal during pregnancy? I expected them to a degree obviously but I didn't really expect it to like, break her mental continuity. One moment everything is fine, 20 minutes later she's sulking for absolutely no reason, then fifteen minutes later she wants to have sex and is super affectionate, then afterwards she gets mad again over literally nothing, then the cycle repeats ad nauseam.

>>76398948
a couple thoughts: you'll probably be happier in a relationship, women, to a certain extent, like vulnerability (they only like a little, maybe being sad once a month is ok, but they still do like it). as long as you're interest in other stuff is normal, i bet you'd be fine

>>76398958
that sounds rough. i'd just try to not take her to seriously and be nice. hopefully it does not last

>>76398958
Women.

>28
>Have over 200k in investments thanks to lucky trades
>Just want to travel the world and hike mountains (Doing Mount Teide next month and Mount Ararat next year)
>Tried to find a gf but can't really meet people IRL. Hinge gave me multiple dates but all of them ended in "I didn't feel a spark"

Most women I meet in their 20s just want to do nothing but travel anyway. Fuck it I guess I'll just explore the world and stop worrying about chasing pussy

I'll get absolutely zero sympathy from the incels on 4chan for this but I have a good job, good career prospects, own a home, and have a good gf who really loves me and wants to get married but I'm terrified of commitment because I'm a big narcissist who was very insecure when younger and I still want even more and better and am deluded enough to think "I got this gf so far, I bet I can get even better" but I just think that with each girl and permentantly procrastinate my future leaving heartbroken girls in my wake and my very good family increasingly pissed off

But I just can't shake it, I can't get married, I can't convince myself any girl is good enough for me to marry, and at this point I'm gonna end up forever alone and old and no girl of any kind is gonna want me then. I need to stop coping, but I'm soon scared of marriage, it fills me with dread when I think about it

>>76399060
Don't stress too much but at the same time don't be lazy about dating. You should be doing it like it's your job and treating dates like interviews for a good wife. If every girl you run into seems to not like you, you're doing something wrong, either shooting out of your league or not doing anything to be more than an average Joe. You gotta sell yourself

>>76399063
>I can't convince myself any girl is good enough for me to marry
Correct. Now either get your girl pregnant for her DNA and then kick her to the curb or just view her as a fuck toy.

>>76399073
The hardest part is every woman is different. The biggest challenge for me is whether to make the first move or not. I'd say about 40% of them I ended up kissing and we made out on the first date. Other times they got upset and wanted me to respect their boundaries. To be honest if the first date doesn't end with a kiss than I automatically assume its over

>>76399060
Anon… “I like to travel” in womanese translates to:
>I want a very wealthy sugar daddy who pays for me to travel and get fucked by other men around the world behind his back or right in front of him if he’s a cuck”

>>76399060
>money has nothing to do with the rest of your post
>im gonna brag about how much money i have anyway

>>76399063
>I have a good job, good career prospects, own a home
the only positive things you have to say about yourself are with respect to your money lol

>>76398282 (OP)
Something to take the pain and memories away, I'm tired of being a sad cunt.

>had the misfortune of being a complete loser in life, which is already bad enough on its own
>have the added misfortune of being a complete loser, which being in one of the most expensive, beautiful states in the country, which only adds to my insecurity and massive, humiliating failure because everyone around me is a rich, successful, happy person
i just spent anothe beautiful weekend day sitting in my room alone.

>>76399112
Helps fund my trips while you cope

>>76398313
the diamond because I like him, plus he's white

>>76399060
man, you must be truly repugnant if all you want to do is travel like a vapid whore but even they dont want to do that with you. did you try offering to pay their expenses with your epic investment portfolio? do you make sure to mention that investment portfolio early on in the date like you did on here? that might make them want you more.

I cut off one of my oldest friends from my life. Kinda feel like I should have tried to make amends or tell him how I felt but at the end of the day I was just not caring anymore. oh well

Turning 30 in about a week. Feels like my life hasn't really changed much since I was 25. Been trying to put myself out there and do more things but life just feels stagnant.

I spent the whole week thinking about this girl at the gym, as the new gen would say I guess she's my crush.

She's my type, small, dark black hair and cute, she's not a smoke show but I just really like low profile girls like that for some reason, I wanna approach her without looking like a creep but it keeps giving me flashbacks of 2 years ago when I got rejected by a girl in another place (not a gym).

That shit has been haunting me for so long but I guess I just gotta do it and even if I get rejected again I can get it over with or the feeling of not doing anything or trying is going to kill me, I know gym isn't the perfect place to approach girls but if it goes bad I guess I can just change gyms.

>>76399375
go get rejected. suffering builds character

>>76398282 (OP)
Vodka neat.
I gave into fear and comfort again. Been binging food and alcohol for over two weeks, and ghosted my coaches. I'm too cowardly to text them back, and I have given up on myself. What's the point if I keep doing this to everyone? I just want to not exist anymore

>>76399459
If it makes you feel any better I like this picture and saved it.

>>76399393
I will

Dark and stormy with extra lime. Being a new dad is hard. My daughter is 3 weeks old and hates being held by me. She just screams and tries to fight her way out of my arms. Between this and the sleep deprivation, I'm almost at the end of my rope. I know it's just a phase and she's too young to process a concept as complicated as disliking a specific person but when she will settle down for literally anybody but me, i can't help but be hurt. I really really don't enjoy being a parent so far and i hope that changes because i want to love my kid as much as I'm supposed to.

>>76398282 (OP)
Do you guys have raw goat milk?

6 beers and 2 shots of vodka, start me a tab for it
I haven't slept in maybe 5 days. Max 5 hours across the weeks. I feel like I'm dying. I don't know what to do. 50mg melatonin didn't work, 4 beers in an hour and a triple chamomile catnip milk tea didn't work, 75mg melatonin 100mg benadryl and 3 beers didn't work, I'm becoming desperate.

>>76399477
- **Ashwagandha**: Reduces cortisol by regulating the HPA axis. A 2019 *Phytomedicine* study showed up to 30% cortisol reduction in stressed individuals.
- **Rhodiola**: Balances cortisol via HPA axis modulation. A 2017 study in *Neuropsychiatric Disease and Treatment* found it reduced cortisol in burnout patients.

Both help mitigate stress-related cortisol spikes, aiding insomnia.

>>76399493
I wake up at like 2 AM stressed about work. Will this shit help me out? Been taking nyquil and launching my consciousness out of my body that way

>>76398958
>complaining about pregnancy sex
Nigga you gay.

>>76399502
yeah, you’ll know it works because it hits immediately and you feel a weight lifted off your shoulders, but that’s how i manage my insomnia issues when cutting

>>76399502
yeah, you’ll know it works because it hits immediately and you feel a weight lifted off your shoulders. lack of sleep in general raises your cortisol. cortisol is what stops your body from body producing melatonin

>>76399502
Not the person you're replying to but Ashwagandha really helps me on days I workout hard to be able to go to sleep and not be tossing and turning all fucking night.

im thinking im gonna wake up at 2 or 3 am and just go outside in the dark and silence and sit on a curb or something and just contemplate how pathetic and worthless my life is while i look at the stars and out at the distance. ive heard people like doing night walks. ive never done one and i could probably count on one hand the number of times ive been out in the middle of the night like that in my entire life. normally i do that lying in bed in the middle of the night while staring at the ceiling. maybe being outside will make me feel different. maybe itwill allow me to just walk off in the middle of the night and not come back, not tell anyone where i went, find some woods to hide in or something,

>>76398282 (OP)
I need to double whiskey neat with a yinling . I got banned off hinge the other week. When it happened I google'd it and found a bunch of indians claiming they could fix it for stupid amounts of money but I'm better off taking the hooker pill at this point. I did more research and chalked it up to AI/roastie mods black balling trajectory. So I'm cooked on online dating/sex for the next few years till a new app takesover.

>>76399473
It's been 3 weeks and you already think like this towards your baby girl? I can't wait till you complain she says mama first. Clean up.

>>76399473
Yea I'd ignore her and shitpost

>>76399583
It'll get better when she's older and does more than scream and sleep. Newborn stage is just hard.

>>76399650
then leave cry baby pussy

>>76399657
Please explain your meaning anon

>>76399658
am i mother or sister lil bitch?

>>76398282 (OP)
Probably 20oz of a mixed drink and 5 shots?

>>76399695
Im not gonna drink all the shots but i cant do too much mixed drink

>>76398582
Why don't you tell your boss this?

>>76399699
I want hibachi ramen and marinated steak/pepper/onion skewers, maybe some sriracha mayo white rice shits an easy 2k cals in a day.

>>76399662
Is there any reason you come onto 4chan and act like a little prick? Insecurity or just a trolling retard?

>>76399706
Mm im liking steak guacamole tacos and margaritas, wings rice refried beans. Honestly need to get better at spanish rice and get some adobo paste for some chicken thigh/breast shit with black beans and guacamole.

>went the whole day no problem 600 calories
>in bed taking sleep aide, starting to feel drowsy
>"oh, i'm a little hungry. I did so well I could eat a little bit to help sleep"
>just Mcfucking eating everything I can
Please kill me. I was so close to another day it's not fair.

>>76398282 (OP)
A pitcher of light beer and 2 shots, darts and 1s. Playing some gay shit on this radio.

>>76399714
I really need to also get better at making rice. Tried making mexican rice and it was alright at first then just realized it just tasted like weak tomatoes. If I could make Argentinian style arroz con pollo that would be great

>>76399734
>rice and chicken
Has to be cooked off lime/chicken stock/fondt chicken in the rice or some stupid ass bullshit. I want to guess msg but i also need to find out where theyre adding the salsa.

>>76399734
>argentinian
I love chicken/potatoes and chimichurri, its like the appetizer 247 roasted chicken is nice and steak is sick. Lacks stock vitamins fat but its a protein meal 1/5 preferably.

>>76399575
Threads OP not the OG OP and full of twisted posters. Guess we hope for next week.

I hate Canada's housing market so much.
I paid the equivalent of 400k USD for a 1000 square foot townhouse.
It's 2 bed 2 bath, and no basement. I work from home a lot and need a home office, so it's really a 1 bedroom.
I want to marry my gf and start a family but she she's worried about raising a single kid in what is effectively a 1 bedroom house.
I can't afford anything bigger and my gf only works part time though.

I'm very racist but my gf is a hapa

>>76398396
That's why I uninstalled. I already knew that guys were treated like trash on apps going in, but doing it to those girls (who probably honestly deserved it) made me feel really sick and sad. Usually a lot of joy and memories go into the photos on someone's profile (if you're doing it right), and you're just essentially telling them to fuck off because of what amounts to "ew lol."

>>76400063
I'm dating a black girl who basically seems -phobic to everybody.
>hates immigration
>hates LGBLTs
>hates sluts
>hates Natives
>seems to kinda hate other black people
>hates Muslims
>HATES Indians
>has expressed a general distaste for jews
Is it a trap? I feel like I'm walking into a trap.

>>76398915
I am more than my body. And no dadly my childhood was traumatic and disfunctional at home. I focus on external goals to increase the of a relationship (body, money, luxury car, clothes) and internal (therapy, creative hobbies, solo travels) but still anything regarding relationships seems alien to me while some of my unemployed and unkept friends have gfs. Also no I don’t roid but the first thing they notice is my body even if i were dressed oversized

>>76400074
No way broskii, a woman who hates EVERYBODY? Sounds mentally stable, no red flags there, 5 children at least.

No women will ever sex me. It is so over.

>>76400074
>>hates immigration
>>hates LGBLTs
>>hates sluts
>>hates Natives
>>seems to kinda hate other black people
>>hates Muslims
>>HATES Indians
I feel like hating most of those things go hand in hands.
Blacks kinda hating other blacks is also pretty common.

>30
>no gf
>no social life
>no hobbies
>just wagie Monday to Friday and then do nothing on the weekends
So this is life huh

>>76400262
Sounds comfy to me

oh fuck was it saturday?
i missed it, i didn't notice
fuck

>>76400346
Kek literally me. I have no life so everyday is the same.

>>76400357
yeah it's just summer. i could go out today or tommorow like i could've done yesterday.
i won't. but i could.

>>76399116
Always amazing seeing people assess their positive traits purely in conjunction to their financial status.

>>76398282 (OP)
>go to gas station
>pump not taking card go inside cash only
>go to nearest station of same chain
>same issue, go inside they don’t seem to be having that problem
>have half a tank so just ask for $15 since I know it’s close to full for me
>nigger at next register turns away hides in corner and calls me a cheap ass
Couldn’t even face me when he said it. Said it in that passive aggressive under his breath where if I called him out he’d have thrown a tantrum bitch fit and claimed he wasn’t talking to me despite that the only other person in the store was the older white southern cashier ringing me out.
At the end they too had systems down and could only take cash
Why do people, particularly niggers (yeah “people” I know lol) do this shit? I’m not being rhetorical I really want answers. Is it just some dumbfuck dindu pissy that he’s 120lbs soaking wet working at a gas station at 20 years old? Or does this shit for brains nigger actually believe he personally stands to profit from the chain gas station making money?
I’m on the fence about shrugging it off since I haven’t lost anything from this vs calling his manager and then corporate to get him fired because the more this bullshit is allowed the more they do it. Idk, what do you anons think?
Like you don’t think most people with public facing jobs wouldn’t love to occasionally dig into people to let steam off, of course most people would but most also realize the public isn’t who they’re mad at and most need their jobs meanwhile this nig probably lives with mommy and daddy still and doesn’t really have anything to lose

>>76400393
Lmao you are an insane person

>>76400393
While I can understand being annoyed the question you need to ask to yourself is “is any of this really that deep?” Likely, no. You said it yourself he’s a scrawny nigger working at a gas station. You probably life mog him into oblivion. So who cares. This sounds a kin to a fly on a horses ass. Mildly obnoxious but incapable of doing a damn thing. Let him catch someone with less to lose than you.
>>76400405
I can’t say the essay isn’t slightly unhinged but he has every right to be annoyed considering that niggers are quite insufferable. There is a reason segregation existed

Anyone got advice for interior design? My specific apartment situation makes things a little complex on top of already not knowing where to begin
>very small 1 bed 1 bath less than 400 square feet (not a studio, building used to be a motel, great location just very small)
>owned by in laws who inherited it
>came semi furnished
I’m being told I can’t change certain things in it. Can’t replace the couch which is torn to shit from old tenants having cats, can’t upgrade the bed to a king or queen instead of a really cheap twin that my feet hang off of with a stupidly thin mattress that slides off the frame every night, can’t paint it a proper color instead of childhood bedroom sky blue.
I’m getting ready to just doing what I want anyways and letting them find out why they should have told me yes in the first place. It looks like shit, could look better. If I make these changes that stuff stays in this apartment should I ever move out, everyone wins. Honestly I’m probably just gonna go for it without asking them. Idgaf if these things hold sentimental value they’re shitty and should be stored in a garage somewhere I deserve to feel comfortable in the home I pay to live in
What I’m asking here, with what I’ve mentioned in mind, are there any resources for learning how to design it? There are no available floor plans anywhere so I already have to make my own on paint or whatever software. I don’t trust those AI tools that have come out (which also stretch and skew the walls anyways and don’t work as advertised). I just really need to get this place looking half decent instead of like some kind of abandoned crack house.
>bed
I can’t even bring a bitch over and fuck her in doggy because the damn thing sits a foot off the ground and I’m too tall.

Any advice for how to find a hobby in your 30s? I don't enjoy anything but I want to.

>>76400818
Music production and instruments, cosplay/fashion, hiking, low budget traveling.
Try to do some odd job courses(security, PT, gravedigger(don’t know how is it in english) photography etc…
Do what you find yelds the more emotional responses.
I like to make music on fl studio and go to metal concerts and now i’m focusing on fashion to customize my outfits.
Find your niche or your people, or find yourself. Are you more of a creative or do you prefer to follow certain rules?

Life was supposed to be based. This is infact cringe.

Drinking is a waste of time. I finally realised this.

>>76398282 (OP)

Wild turkey for me, preferably 101, neat.

Laid off last month, already had savings and got a nice severance+cashout for unused vacation. I want to take my freelancing fulltime but getting a roster of clients is taking longer than even I expected. I used to do tech and that job market is fucked and I don't want to go back to 60-80hr weeks when I'm trying to have a family.
In the meantime, I haven't been able to take my unemployment benefits because the state fucked up my info and I'm out about 1.5k+ in benefits already.
Despite this I bought myself a new guitar to ease the pain, maybe swoop some babes we'll see.
Squat and pulldown #s are up, I've lost 6lbs since the lay off since I'm not dealing with ninny faggot bitches and whores everyday, WAGMI bros.

>>76400379
yeah its kind of sad. i see it regularly on here but im sure all men do it. pretty much the only positives guys describe about themselves is their financial stability or whatever. theres never really anything about their personalities, although since this is 4chan im pretty sure no one here has a good personality so it makes sense they only view themselves for what financially they can provide someone

>>76400262
yep, exactly. why bother living when this is your existence? im in a similar position.

>>76400262
>>76401298

>>76401302
Yes, I am based.

>>76400058
why don't you move to the US?

Honestly I just feel empty in life. Not to be one of those le wrong generation fags but I just hate the modern world. I hate modern dating, I hate smart phones, I hate the Internet (I understand the irony of this), I hate modern TV snd Films and games, I hate how everyone in my city is now a foreigner, I hate how all the woodlands have been demolished and turned into housing estates etc etc why couldn't I have gotten to live my 30s and 40s in the 1980s and 1990s. I just can't help but feel like I missed out in getting to live my life in a time that would have suited me as a person perfectly. But instead I get this era of pure slop.

>she texts back "Just to be clear, I'm already seeing something"

>>76401292
It depends really, sure this place is a dumpster but I've met a lot of fellers while wageslaving at various low tier shit jobs (pizza delivery, nightguard) and the lower you go on the career paths, the more you find people actually having a personality. Actual friends you enjoy being around with because everyone's poor as shit and values simple life satisfaction more. You just gotta find people who are not the norm in your respective society.

>>76401595

>>76401607
>nightguard
I'm sure it isn't but I always had a romanticised view of that job. Just imagining working as a solo nightguard for some small mall or something. Not a person around, just alone and chilling every night. I'm sure it isn't like that.

>>76401607
>>76401629
last night at 3 am i took a walk outside this housing development and in the distance at the recreation center and pool area i saw a flashlight looking around. i figured it must be a security guard for the development walking around making sure everything is clear. yeah theres something about a guy walking around alone in the dark at 3 o clock on a sunday morning that is romantic

>>76401569
Literally and unironically me. I would delete smart phones in a second if I could.

>>76398282 (OP)
virgin mojito
girl i've been messaging seems to be really into me. Feel good. I initiated things but she was constantly looking for ways to keep it going. Dropped a hint that I was into her and she reciprocated in a big way.

>a 15 year old has a crush on me
>i'm 37, single, women paid me no attention my whole life
>niece's friend too, she often came along movie trips
>has a crazy good slampig bod
>over the years i guess she developed feelings, because i often really vibe with extroverts
>wants hugs when we meet
>tells me stuff like age really doesn't matter, how much she wants a dad like me, etc
>tried to add me on all socials, declined all
>niece flat out told me she thinks i'm handsome
I need the strength to fight this temptation. She lives just down the street too.

>>76401686
accept the invites but keep her at arms length
see what happens when she turns 16

>>76401569
I get what you mean, but whenever I read something like this I think of this Schiller quote: “Live with your century, but do not be its creature.”

>>76401718
That is true. I'm trying to live my life the best I can but everyone else uses social media and shit and force it into your life.

Refused sex again
I really don't want to leave my wife but I can't keep this up

>>76401801
Leave her, if she doesn't want your dick she doesn't want you. She's probably already getting fucked by jamal anyway.

>>76401629
>>76401649
I've been a nightguard at my local gym. Just keeping watch over the place, making sure no one is passed out in the changing rooms and stuff. I always romanticized it too prior before starting but I quickly grew to hate it for 2 reasons. Reason number 1: staying awake the whole night sucks for me because on my free days, I like to get up early and go to bed early. Reason number 2: your own thoughts and habit of overthinking is at its worst when you're just sitting around at night.

But other than that the pay was okay and I don't regret making that experience, it all boiled down to doing things I'm not comfortable with which help me grow.

>>76401801
Just don't end up like these people https://www.reddit.com/r/DeadBedrooms/

>>76401686
don't fly too close to the sun

>>76401848
Man that does sound comfy though. I like being alone with my own thoughts, I feel like it's when I finally get time to really think about my problems.

>>76400427
You're both pieces of shit

>>76401302
Yeah unfortuantely that comic is pretty accurate. I'm a complete zero in life, and I know all the things I need to do to improve it and be somewhat happier. But it all seems pointless when I'm so far behind. No one wants to be friends with a loser in his 30s. No one would want to date a loser in his 30s. No one will want to hire a loser in his 30s for a decent job.

laphroaig neat

my bench has been stuck at roughly body weight for over a month at this point but I'm feeling good about this week
in other news it's been 3 months since i downloaded hinge and the two "matches" thus far ghosted me immediately

>>76401901
You should try and stop overthinking things anon. Also don't try to fix everything you want to fix at once, try to make small incremental changes everyday and see where you end up.
But you should at least try, worst thing that can happen is that you probably end up in the same situation that you are in right now.

The modern world has no soul

A while back I made a post about a scholarship interview. I would say it went well. Nerves were high. Half assed answered a question. But rest I could answer since I prepped for it. I am glad I at least tried. At this point whatever happens, happens.

Also applied for jobs in the mean hope I get a response somewhere.

Vodka on the rocks, please

Nearly a year into my first sales job, just turned 30, wife + kid with one more next year (God willing). Fucking hate the sales job. I think its just because of the industry, home healthcare. No idea what I'm doing with my life and I don't want to let down my lovely little family.


My real problem - fucked my dick up beating off too hard/frequently and rough sex after wife gave birth a year and a half ago. Went to a dipshit urologist who told me it was just nerves but it is it was what I am not certain is Peyronies, seeing new urologist soon. After I recognized the issue I started a vitamin stack, new stretches, focus on cardio and theres been some improvement. I can still get boners but I am certainly changed. Not as sensitive, new curve, I think loss of length. Still having sex, but having a hard time quitting porn.

Vodka on the rocks, please
Nearly a year into my first sales job, just turned 30, wife + kid with one more next year (God willing). Fucking hate the sales job. I think its just because of the industry, home healthcare. No idea what I'm doing with my life and I don't want to let down my lovely little family.

My real problem - fucked my dick up beating off too hard/frequently and rough sex after wife gave birth a year and a half ago. Went to a dipshit urologist who told me it was just nerves but it is it was what I am not certain is Peyronies, seeing new urologist soon. After I recognized the issue I started a vitamin stack, new stretches, focus on cardio and theres been some improvement. I can still get boners but I am certainly changed. Not as sensitive, new curve, I think loss of length. Still having sex, but having a hard time quitting porn.

>>76402039
maybe, but I do, and I know other people do, and we're in this world. There's soul in here and out there. Enough of it to merit being kind to others, and importantly, enough of it to try.

>>76398282 (OP)
My whole life I lived by a philosophy that you always have to have an ace in the hole.
I spent 2 months reconnecting with my ex. Just calling every night. I found out she was already dating someone else while talking to me so I cut it off. I still love her. She obviously still loves me but when I told her to make a decision - she chose him.
It’s okay. There’s an ace in the hole. I also have been talking to someone the past 4 months. We met in college a few months after me and mentioned ex broke up. I finally decided to make my feelings and intentions clear to her - and got friendzoned.
I feel really lonely now. I thought she was also interested in me but that wasn’t the case. Now I feel my ex won because she has someone and I don’t. I’m also one of those dudes who always has to have a girlfriend. I have no other prospects. This sucks. I suppose being alone will be good for me. Definitely working out harder now.

>>76402130
You got friend zoned because you took 4 months to make a move

>>76398912
You are broken

>>76402130
Are you a woman? You literally behave like a chick hence why none are remotely attracted to you

>>76402149
You’re supposed to be friends before starting a relationship. Rushing things never works out.
>>76402177
I’m nearly certain I’ve fucked more and hotter girls than you ever have. But there’s a difference between love and lust. Hence “acting like a woman” brochacho

>>76401686
Bro just don't. Gonna be a whole nest of problems. Also dont listen to the other anon telling you to add her, your doom will be only be complete after a long string of wrong steps and bad decisions. Don't take the first step and you cant take the second.
Plus, she's 15 bro, she's gonna fall in love with you if you do it and then any of the "I'll never tell" stuff she promised you goes out the window. Bro I cannot believe you're even considering. Just jack off and calm down.
Flee you fool loool.

>>76401877
Oh trust me it definitely helps. At the beginning it was messing me up but with time I learned to appreciate to be completely alone, at work and thus having time to think about a lot of things in my life, practicing self-reflection and unironically journaling my thoughts and aspirations. You should try it as a part time job if you got the time and energy, worst thing that can happen is that you don't wanna do it anymore.

>>76402167
Thank God honestly, I'm glad that I'm just delusional, that the real world is far better than what I see

Shoulder feels better, future still uncertain. I take the good with the bad, Milk please.

The only reason why I'm still alive is because of the same cowardice that has me in this position to begin with. I wish I could hire someone to kill me in my sleep, or come up behind me walking down the street and blow my head off without me being aware. I can't even put into words how depressed and miserable I am and how much I hate being alive.

I'm kinda mad at God my life is like this, but I know it's not really his fault. I find myself jealous of my friends sometimes, they just stood around there and girls flung themselves on them. They're not particularly fit or even hard working, and yet they pick them. I work hard, to be the best I can be, and I hope that one day it pays off. I understand that there is something wrong with me, I have no real aspirations as to what I want to do with my life. When I was younger, I wanted to be a marine, just so I could die on the front lines and think my life meant something.

someone call me a faggot and tell me to go to the gym
i haven't been in about a year, been on and off since covid shut gyms down and lost all my strength
shit's demoralizing. i'm even paying a year long contract at the campus gym where i work but i'm always too tired to go. what's the point. even after going 5 years straight people who just do roids are better

>>76402648
You could be a sad faggot, or you could be a buff slighlty less sad faggot

Woke up with actually debilitating piriformis syndrome. I've had bouts in the past but this is a new level. Took three minutes to figure out how to get out of bed. The funny part is I haven't worked out in three days, and in that last session I was using much lighter weights than normal for lower-body work. What the fuck!

Coffee, alcohol kills my gains
>blender stopped working and smells like burnt plastic. My shake was lumpy and I have to deal with it.
>workout app crashed, had to makeup workout on the spot
>some cunt did the water bottle bench claim thing. I asked staff to deal and they talked to her and she stopped.
>tried a new form tip for my lat pulldowns. Had a great pump.
>random workout felt pretty good.
>good chance I can do the correct workout tomorrow, the app fixed itself.
>dodged some slam pig at group coffee I attend

day worked out pretty good. Hoping the store will take the blender back so I don't have to deal with warranty. I bought it 8 days ago and it seems I am on a winning streak.

>>76398958
Check for dietary deficiencies, but be prepared for this too be normal

I turn 30 in 4 months. I really dont want to turn 30 bros covid took so many years away

>>76402515
relatable

>>76401686
don't do it

>>76403160
30 is when life begins

>>76403160
So real. Turned 30 a few months and it legitimately stuns me to think I was halfway through my 20's when covid began

>>76399477
Do the breathing routine the military uses to chill and sleep and stop messing with your nervous system with booze and shitty food

>>76400058
Buy a bed that folds into the wall. Your bedroom is now your office.
>muh gaymur 60" uberwide monitor though
Be creative and find a solution. People live like pic related and still have kids.

>>76400058
damn that bitch is sexy as fuck

>>76403028
>using a blender
>letting some faggot app tell you what to do
>tattling
>doing lat pulldowns instead of pullups
>not fucking a slampig
you did everything wrong, kek

Third week of exercising. I was able to do 3x10 knee push ups last week. I took 2 days rest. Today I barely made 3x6. It's so demoralizing, Jesus.

>>76406573
calisthenics is always a bitch, try to do cardio otherwise you'll feel very unreliable

>>76403160

Echoing these two:
>>76403562
>>76403620

I was 23 and just got /fit/ from being fat and was finally getting female attention then *boom* covid happened. I mostly use apps and somehow covid made girls so much worse on the apps.

>read about how malcolm jamal warner drowned today
>another person to see who died and want to know how they get so lucky
>how is it that i can pray for death every day but these good people keep dying

>>76406526
awwww...did the meanie gym employee tell you that you had to follow the rules. I am sorry buddy, I am sure they were a real meanie. Go tell your mommy you need some juice, you are getting grumpy.

Does anyone have experience getting off of opiates?

>>76406673
I was too poor to afford heroin, so I used Chinese research chems for a while.
I'm probably riddled with a bunch of problems from it. Remember it was best snorted, but would burn like a mother.
Christ helped me kick the habit. Regular church attendance helped me kick all the other drugs too.
That said, I'm going in for surgery on Friday, and there's part of me that hopes recovery is painful enough to justify them giving me oxy.

I've just completely given up on life. I do nothing to improve my god awful life because I don't see the point. What's the difference when I've wasted 32 years with literally nothing to show for them? All I think about is how far behind I am and how much time I have wasted. I would have to somehow make up lost career and financial years, lost romantic and sexual experience years, lost friendship social experience years, lost everything. It isn't like I'm just lacking in one thing. I'm lacking in literally everything, things that most people have a decade plus experience with, I would have to try to formulate all of it from zero.