>>76489517
I know it's like that, they are paid to be nice and all, the smiles etc. But man I'm so lonely I end up hyper-fixating on the service workers that start calling me by my name, I have no one in life, not even a single male friend and that becomes the highlight of my day: being called by name and my existence being acknowledged. I'm not stupid so I will do absolutely nothing, not even reciprocate the niceness or small talk, but I still have this sort of limerence I don't act upon, and it consumes my life.