>>76533897 (OP)
Yes, I am with you, 100 percent (except that I fap when horny) . I am 38 and was actually married and in a LTR most of my 20's into my early 30's and it was a mistake. I wanted what you described before that in my teens/early 20's and just got sucked into the whole thing with this girl; it wasn't for me and I just went along with it and kept going through the motions/got attached. Whole second half I look back on was a nightmare and I remember thinking "I fucked up, I never wanted this." Thankfully she flipped out once I started checking out on her increasingly insane shit and left. And we didn't have kids (never wanted them, had a vasectomy) and had not yet bought a house with her because she was wasting money too much to save. Anyways. Now it's been 6 years since that was over, and my ultimate point here is to tell you: I am just like you and want the same things, have been there, done that, and can tell you you aren't wrong about what you want if you are like me. My life has actually been what I want the past 6 years and I am much happier and very content. I now own a nice small house (was able to save that money without my ex wasting it) with an apt over the garage I rent to a good friend, I work a job that is laid back and evening shift so not a lot of dealing with people and drama, and I just like to do "my things." I have a schedule and routine and I like it that way, I love to lift and stay in shape and do it 5 days a week religiously after work, and I love to read, play video games, watch movies or anime or whatever, hang out with my friends sometimes and just like life in my routine doing things my way and keeping things simple but self sufficient. I've had to tell plenty of people to fuck off on the girlfriend thing and it's crazy how much people don't want to accept that you don't want it and are happier without it. All this to say, if you are like me, be adamant about living the way you actually want and you won't regret it.
