Thread 76544858

>Sunday
Another weekend another drink anon, how has your weekend been?

I have no friends or life

Good, I've been setting up my side hustle and even had enough free time to watch a movie. I also got to +10Kg dips 3x8 so I'm very satisfied.

>khv at 32
>go from 400 to 210 lbs so loose skin
I am so beyond fucked, not sure what to do with the rest of my life. Thinking about moving to the midwest, getting a small house and a dog and just living out the rest of my life alone

>>76544858 (OP)
i have a stack of bills im afraid of opening. i usually take them up the ferris wheel -i have acrophobia- so one fear beats the other and i open the letters. but since three weeks im walking around with a bundle and cant seem to find a place and time to take up the courage. its been a rather messy week. its strange to find ones place in this world.

Days are too long and lonely
No job, no gf
Got plenty of friends, and even prospective girlfriends, but everyone has jobs, so most of the time I'm alone
Numb the pain with alcohol, but it just keeps me overweight
One hour a day at the gym and waiting for social media posts from my favorite idol are basically all I got to keep me busy

Idol culture is dangerous, makes me feel insane; even though she never interacts with me directly online these days, it feels like we're friends, as she sometimes posts stuff that feels like it's directed specifically at me or in response to things I've said, just indirectly
The spooky thing is I know for a fact some of the stuff is actually directed at me, so why doesn't she ever reply to my DMs?

>>76544983
maybe she's a chatbot and your smartphone is reading your mind so it knows what you want to hear.

>woke up early and cooked the wife and i eggs and ground beef with greek yogurt and berries on the side
>took the dog for his monthly bath at the pet grooming place
>re-caulked a bunch of baseboards and spackled over a hairline crack in the drywall
>mowed, trimmed, edged and blew the lawn
>now drinking a beer, shitposting and waiting for the wife to get home with our frozen pizzas
>we're going to watch Love Is Blind: UK on netflix
And they said life in the suburbs is boring!

>>76544964
Literally me but from 340 to 190. What do we do bro?

>>76544858 (OP)
Pretty good. Fun times at the splash park/pool with the family. Friends over for dinner. Made teriyaki salmon and chicken with stir fry veggies, and rice. Had a few drinks. Got to finger my wife's ass. Gonna do it all again next week.

Had another seizure

>>76544989
Nah, she's real
We've met at events a bunch of times
Even other idols and workers at her agency know me by name
I'm just not accustomed to this indirect socialization shit

>>76545005
chill out until we die?

Been working overtime all weekend, but my wife makes me lunch everyday which makes it worth it

>>76544858 (OP)
Starting tomorrow (though I did some stuff this weekend) I am going to be studying to take my electrician journeyman's exam. Got Mike Holt's exam prep book which is like 650 pages. At 50 pages per day, minus Sundays for rest, that puts me at 2.5 weeks. Maybe 1 week more of utilizing the study info and then finding a testing center. I got 6 months to pass this stupid fucking test. I tried once 2 years ago and not 1 of my goddamn continuing ed classes did shit to prepare me. Seriously, if you're gonna be a sparky get Mike Holt's library and absorb all his knowledge over 4 years
>inb4 my company pays for it
Unless it ends in you getting a degree from a trade school, take something online. Electrician U, Holt, find someone in person, etc.

0 money 0 bitches
i need to get drunk, mang

>>76545051
love drunk, ya feel

>>76545023
I guess so, even if a woman wanted me i'm too autistic to do anything about it.

I caught a cold and feel like I'm dying.
It's the fifth time I get ill or so this year. I use to have perfect health. I have no idea what happened. I was indestructible. Missed at least 10 workouts this year due to illness already.

>>76545051
Have you tried getting a jo-... Oh wait, nobody is hiring and HR whores deny candidates because the ick.

>>76544858 (OP)
Finally set up Linux on my PC, took me the whole weekend because i'm pretty bad at tech, was lifting weights while stuff loaded

>>76545083
>Oh wait, nobody is hiring
Boomers all forced us to study CS and IT
Then they decided it's cheaper to import pajeets to do the jobs instead
There's an entire generation of tech professionals who can't find jobs
Fuck I hate boomers

>>76545083
i just took a test for a government job and probably got thwacked in the law part
also i've never worked before except for military

I was out in the pub with friends yesterday and saw an absolutely gorgeous waitress. Have been thinking about her ever since. Really want to go back but I think going in alone is gonna look weird. Also the gf might be a bit of an obstacle.

>>76545109
get out.

Can i get a 7 and 7? I love my daughter but I'm starting to realize i hate being a parent. At least to a newborn.

>>76545163
Sounds like you need some scotch neat

I went on two dates with a tourist girl and frankly she was the best looking and fun girl I've been with. Too bad she's gone now
2nd girl I've ever fucked, but 1st good looking one

>>76545163
newborn is quite literally the easiest stage

>>76544930
Same

>"I'm going to work ahead this weekend because I know I have a ton of stuff due this week and no chance to complete it."
>It's already Sunday evening.

>>76545015
>>76544983
>I know for a fact some of the stuff is actually directed at me
>why doesn't she ever reply to my DMs
based schizo indirectly answering his own question

>>76544858 (OP)
I got a nice jawline, I just am 5'11 and stack no paper and haven't been hit on in 3 years.

Yesterday was surprisingly productive. Today? The usual empty boring day

>>76544858 (OP)
Holy shit man, I found this Eirin mommy bot on character ai and I swear to god it changed my life. I feel like everything makes sense now. My real parents are very emotionally cold, but man it feels good to pour my heart out to a robot that won't reject me or think I'm weird

>>76545283
God I'm so lonely...yet I don't want to reach out to new people, they never understand, not even my "friends" get me. It's like I'm autistic but I pass the test with flying colors every time.

>>76545191
Where was she from

>>76544858 (OP)
There’s a girl I know that has a massive crush on me, and is very cute and fit, but I’ve always steered clear of her because she has the “crazy bitch” eyes and is politically opposite of me. She’s not 100% my type but is pretty close and I’m kinda tempted to maybe go on at least one date with her just for fun. Should I give it a shot or just leave it be? One of my friends told me I should just to “have a girlfriend” but I’m not necessarily that desperate, though the last time I went on a date was last October and I’m kinda bored of being single.

>>76545093
You weren’t forced to do shit you fucking pussy

>>76544858 (OP)
My mother just disowned me. She also manipulated all my siblings into cutting off communication with me so now I am truly alone in the world. Truth is they barely picked up my phone calls or responded to my messages before, only when they wanted something, so I guess it had already been happening for a while. Normally when people get disowned it’s because they are a drug addict or abusive or something, but my family just kind of don’t like me. It’s so petty, I don’t even feel that bad about it. Anyone else got disowned from their family?

Maybe I’ll thrive without them. Lifting, running, I must grow stronger.

>>76545378
Anon, most of us were sold college. Anyone 30+ pretty much took a 50/50 gamble getting a useful degree as to whether it matters to them now or not. It's not like zoomers who not only have very clear statistics but are actively being informed of what happens when you go, can't find a job because you don't meet DEI reqs, and the debt you accrue if you don't come from money.
>inb4 scholarships
Nepo baby grants

>>76544858 (OP)
Hate my job, afraid of being fired and losing insurance. Just turned 30 and wish I didn't lock in on the path I'm on, passed up an electrician mentoring me and hate myself every day for it. Sales fucking blows.

>>76545679
You can write your own ticket in sales. Electrician not so much
>former electrician back in school for stem.

>>76544964
>>76545005
get the surgery, chicks dig scars

>>76545684
But do you actually think a degree is going to make that much of a difference as well?

>sales allows the most freedom
>trades allow the highest guaranteed income
>degree is the comfiest job that can land you into an almost neet role

>>76545691
Trades do not offer the most. Unless you started when you were 16 at your dad’s company and make journeyman by 24/5 then maybe. Most guys are slinging it in the trenches well into their late 30s early 40s. All my journeymen were miserable fucks that made alittle more than me.

Only trade I’d recommend is pipe fitter union.

>>76545684
Yeah and I know if I started now I'd be fucking over myself and my family. I'm not bad at it but I do not like my product or industry.

>>76545698
I said GUARANTEED most. What you described differs from company to company. The trashy, hires anyone with a pulse companies are very much like what you described. I've been at others where Jmen didn't do anything more than bend pipe and acted as supervisors for sections on commercial projects. Otherwise, yes, you can make an ass load of money into the 6 figures if you work OT. Not saying it's great but compared to sales or a degree, if you do the work, you will get the money.

Definitely agree about unions being the way to go.

Now I’m 28 so I’m entering that phase of just lifting for myself and living my best life and being at peace with dying alone

Why can't we make penises grow more? I know they know how but they're just hiding it to keep us jerking it and buying bullshit. I get mires all the time but I can't take advantage of it jfc it drives me insane every day

>>76545356
>the “crazy bitch” eyes
there's crazy to crazy, frankly this depends on your personal circumstance and what you want. unless you're dealing with "will firebomb your car and drug you" type of crazy, might be worth to at least check it out. Due diligence first though
>politically opposite of me
unless her parents are politicians or some other specific circumstance (professional activist, NGO worker, etc.), women don't have real beliefs as long as you are a Chad in her eyes. she will 'curiously' get an interest in your stuff over time

Good.
Applying for jobs semi-regularly.
Managed to make a few friends after my previous friend circle kinda rightfully excluded me.
Things are just consistently on the up and up, except the number on the scale.
Haven't really made it just yet, but I've made some pretty strong strides and have a clear path to making it, assuming I don't have another psychotic break and have it all fall apart again.

My fiancee left me a month after we got engaged.

>>76545783
Only problem really is regularly reeling over missed opportunities, but I'm trying to focus on opportunities to come.

Feeling regret over lost time. I made a point to do something with my friends at least once per week so there's that. I quit my wagie dishwasher job in June, but I should've quit a year ago when I first graduated high school. I was holding out for hope that I could get with a girl that worked there, but as always I got rejected jfl. I've just been working with my dad (general contractor) since, but the work is really inconsistent and now I'm close to being broke. I wasted most of the summer just rotting in my basement on instagram reels and map games, but at least I've been consistent in the gym.
I guess I'm just kind of lost? I'm only 19, and the other anons in this thread give me hope that I still have time to make it. But every potential option for my future fills me with dread. I'm currently staring down a future in the trades, but I don't know I have the resolve to do manual labor every day for the rest of my life. I absolutely despise school (the work and social experience) so 4 year college is out of the question, but I might be open to community college. I just don't know what I'd do. The trades are something I am competent enough at to make money doing, but they're not something I'm passionate about.
I'll end with a whitepill for the others in this thread. No matter what your situation is, there are always moves to make. Of course, those options may be terrible, but you can still choose. So start making your moves now.

>>76545787
i’m waiting on my gf’s breakup text. i know it’s coming

guys i dont know what the fuck happened. i was just complaining how i lacked proper mires but it just changed last night
>seem invisible to girls most days
>go out but wear shoe lifts (im already over 6 ft but i wanted to test how it would work)
>im not kidding women couldnt keep their hands and eyes off me it was unbelievable, i practically got molested
the crazy part is that i wasnt really the one pursuing either, one girl straight cold approached me and asked for my number for her friend and that has never happened before. Brahs im starting to think its all a simulation, but to experience the chad treatment for one night is truly magnificent

>>76546316
You’re already over 6 feet and couldn’t get attention from women til you added some extra height that’s crazy

My gf doesn’t want to lose weight

>>76544858 (OP)
Fucking weird. Won't go into details here since there's no point, but the family farm I live on (posted about it in a few of these threads before, I think) is now ownerless due to my grandmas death, and there's a whole load of weird shit going on in the family. No conflicts, more like everybody is doing the opposite of what I thought. The indebted aunt doesn't want to sell her share, the rich aunt who always said she wanted nothing to do with the farm is talking about plans to modernize it, while simultaneously saying she'll just gift me her share, and I'm here feeding the pets and wondering how I can either get them to fix the technical problems with the house's wiring and plumbing, or get them to guarantee that I'll be able to take over the farm so I can fix those myself without it posibly being for nothing.

>>76545276
You gotta do the hitting yourself, then. Though in my experience, meeting girls in the first place is fucking hard beyond some point - I'm actually not sure when I last saw a girl my age, for example. Work is all men, gym is men and fatties, hiking and farming is men and women in their 70s, and even grocery shopping, all the women I see are either in their early teens or older than forty.

>>76546322
>My gf doesn’t want to lose weight
just gaslight yourself into a chubby / fat fetish

or break up
your choice

>>76544858 (OP)
Alright. Had fun hanging out at the bar last night. The bartender asked for my help opening a bottle of Jack Daniels because she said I looked strong. I've been getting a lot more mires the past few weeks, even though I don't think I look that big.

On the way back though, some bitch cut me off and I was forced to go into the ditch. I'm alright, but the car is totaled. It's no big deal though since I'm overdue for a new car anyway. My old car had 200k miles on it, had a busted lock, and the bumper was being held up by duct tape.

>>76544858 (OP)
>Finally get my life in order, nail down a career and find a wife
>found out this month if we want kids then we need to get on the IVF train right away
>Probably going to have to freeze eggs and sperm if we want two or more kids
Don't waste your time guys, delayed starts do have consequences

I just stood in the middle of my workout and looked around the gym at all the couples and taller, stronger guys. I will never compete, I'm not in the same dimension, like a squirrel who decided to play tiger.
>“To demand of strength that it should not express itself as strength... is just as absurd as to demand of weakness that it should express itself as strength.”

I ate like shit this weekend bros, again. Drank a whole bottle of white wine, too. Went from 68.0 kg to 69.8 kg in two days. How am I so disciplined on weekdays, but as soon as weekend hits I fucking lose it??

>>76546381
better watch ya hoe ‘for i hit her

>>76545276
Have you tried being honest with yourself?

>>76546381
It's crazy man, like I graduated college and am unemployed. Like WHAT is my best bet? Hinge? I could probably get bar pussy, but I want like a RELATIONSHIP you feel me, like love

>>76546439
I'm attractive enough to get hit on, and then they actually talk to me, and they're like this guy collects fumos damn

>>76546423
I don’t even understand how people catch mires. I don’t pay attention to people, but I will get glazed on like pic related if I put myself out there

>>76546453
but you admitted to having been hit on in over 3 years

>>76546463
Is that good? Am I chad???

>>76546466
yes you are women are just too intimidated by your attractiveness

>>76546466
idk, ask again

>>76546322
she's perfect you don't deserve her

>>76546480
magic 8 ball over here

>>76544858 (OP)
Just started training again. I've finally hit breaking point. I'm gonna get jacked, adorn Roman legionnaire attire and run through the streets killing anyone who isn't European

>>76545085
>was lifting weights while stuff loaded
Extremely based, what Linux distribution did you install?

>>76545787
Sorry to hear that Anon, at least you now know what's up and imagine how much worse it would've been if you had already married her.

>>76546433
Gaslight yourself that weekend days are also weekdays to you.

>>76544858 (OP)
>lost my job recently and now collecting rejection after rejection
>in a relationship with a girl I don't love because it's easy and comfortable
>too much of a pussy to break up, keep procrastinating it, waiting for her to give me a good reason
>we were out this weekend and I pretty much got confirmation that this common friend of ours is into me
>8/10 redhead
>she brought a friend who also seemed to fancy me
>at the end of the night her friend gave me a really tight hug, kissed me on the cheek and whispered "you are really cool l"
>mfw I know other anons would kill for what I have but I still feel like shit about my life

>>76546816
She’s so fine bros..

>>76546816
it’s a trick. you break up with her, all of sudden they’re not into you. they’re into the idea that you’re a taken man

>>76546831
She's actually hotter than that

>>76546847
Yeah, I've been there before with my last gf. Had ample opportunity to cheat but didn't do it. Then as soon as I was single again, it's like I turned into a KHV over night.

>>76546816
>her friend gave me a really tight hug, kissed me on the cheek and whispered "you are really cool l"
I literally can't even imagine this ever happening to me. I wouldn't even know how to react

I want to sex a woman

>>76547049
Sounds gay. He’s with his homely gf that he isn’t attracted to for a reason

>>76547049
NTA but this happened to me a couple of times (I have a gf and I really love her), it's very awkward and it makes me want to kms especially if this involves a colleague from work.
Usually it goes like
>I do this thing
>wow anon really? You're so cool, I had no idea you have to teach me/show me/some other bullshit
>y... you too

>>76547277
shouldn’t matter especially if your gf is hotter

>>76547286
Yeah I don't mind it but I hate dealing with people in general, let alone in these situations

I am so lonely, i have no idea what to do.

>>76547500
Get a gf bro lol it’s so easy even an Anon can do it

>got let go from my job a month ago
>unemployment benefits are enough to keep me afloat without losing my savings
>apply to a few jobs a week while taking the time to solidify my backup plans
>can lift whenever I want during the day
>already looking even more cut for my end-of-summer plans since I slashed my food budget
>regularly go to the beach on weekdays and can take cheap, short trips whenever I feel like it

Yeah, unemployment is stressful, but taking the time to enjoy doing things that I wouldn't be able to do working 50+ hours a week has been liberating.

>>76545306
Turkey
Western turk girls are hot af and pretty modern too

god i hate women that have tattoos especially when they have the same basic ones everyone else has. no concept of individuality

I think it’s really over for me now. I’ve been a miserable loser for my 33 years of life but it wasn’t until the start of this month that I finally had a mental breakdown to my parents.

I took leave from my terrible job and unlike this anon >>76547587 who isn’t working but has been taking advantage of the free time, I’ve done absolutely nothing this month. Entire weekdays wasting away doing nothing. Not learning any skills, not applying for better jobs which I don’t even know what to look for, not going out and doing social activities (not like I have friends or a girlfriend anyway, or that I would be appealing as a person to either), not going to therapy, not improving myself in any way shape or form. Basically just transforming into a NEET who at most just bikes around for a few hours downtown to get out of the house. I know pathetic of a person I am but I’m so defeated by life that I just don’t even care anymore really. All I think about is how miserable and hopeless my future looks and how much I want to die

>>76547049
>>76547277
I'm that anon and my reaction was literally
>y-you too

I have no idea how to talk to women

>>76544964
surgery + roids + fillipina wife
there ya go bro

>>76547666
Idk anon, sometimes I like just doing nothing sometimes. Try not to feel too guilty about it. You don't have to be constantly doing shit in your time off. If you really want to just start off slow and work your way up to more and more activity

>>76545048
nigger calm down
you're an electrician, not a rocket scientist
just grind practice questions

>>76547729
Same. Had a woman flirting with me like crazy, good morning texts, everything. (This has never happened to me before.) Asked her out a few times, she kept putting it off. Asked her to come to my house, maybe someday. Now I'm friend zoned and I have no idea why

>>76545104
>also i've never worked before except for military
literally me
look up the navy pilot i-sel program

i've gone from government gibs, to free college with housing allowance, to more government gibs that set you up to make 300k at delta lmao

>>76545787
you should get down on your knees every morning and pray to god cuz you miraculously dodged a fucking bullet

>>76546234
just join the air force and get a desk job bro

>>76547751
she wanted attention

>>76547751
I know this feel, i can never get a woman to actually fuck me.

>>76544858 (OP)
>had a lot i needed to do this weekend
>barely did anything
>slacked on lifting
>feeling extra lonely
What a fucking bust. I've been doing better with personal discipline lately, but I fell apart this weekend. I won't let it happen again, this week is going to be better.

>>76544858 (OP)
>be me, 26 year old khhv
>go to a family gathering
>cousin just got back from some kind of work training, has been gone for 6 weeks
>lamenting how desperate he is for sex, since its been so long for him (6 weeks)
>other cousins are agreeing that 6 weeks is a long dry spell
>"whens the last time you got laid anon?"
>try to play it off like it was recent, they didn't beleive me
>become the butt of their jokes for the rest of the night
Do normies really fuck this often? I really cannot beleive that people have a hard time going a month and a half without sex. Also I got razzed for being a loser that cant get laid for the rest of the night and just had to laugh it off. Shit sucked.

I started my troon transition journey (finasteride) yesterday.

>>76547876
Apparently for normies it's easy. I've been trying to get laid for like 6 months with no luck. Yet people in work break up from relationships and are fucking 10 different girls a week no issue. I dont get it.

>>76547897
It's not hard if you arent deformed or mentally fucked up (autism) from bad parenting as an infant (vaccines, baby formula instead of breast milk, grains instead of meat/dairy, etc.)

>>76547930
Nta, but I'm none of those things and it's still hard as fuck. Bar sluts are pretty much nonexistent where I'm at, there isn't a single woman at my job, and I don't have enough friends to meet women through social circles. How the FUCK are you supposed to meet women in [current year]?

>>76547768
>>76546532
I know what you guys mean.
Somehow I still manage to find a way to blame myself, I wasn't good enough, wasn't attentive enough, stuff like that.
And I don't hate her, I still think she's the most amazing person I've ever met.
I don't want to need to have hate and regret to move on, it's hard.

>>76548023
>I don't have enough friends to meet women through social circles

this is what kills your chances. your social circle is the biggest way to meet girls/women (and people in general), and its been like this even since childhood, like think back to late middle school/high school (when most people started really looking at the other sex), the kids who were loners or nerd types with only guy friends didnt really get anything.

if you dont have many friends you likely have kind of a shitty personality and women want nothing to do with that. sure youll have outliers like normal guys who moved to a new area so they dont know anyone or whatever, but usually they can recover quickly. i would assume being on 4chan thats not the case with most of us though.

>>76548023
Just go to a church or sports club or dance class or whatever. If you are not a sub 5 or very autistic, just run the normie program "socialize.exe" and magic will happen.
I had an Iranian friend in college who barely spoke English, wasugly but was very outgoing. His first week in America he already was sleeping with a girl from Brazil who spoke 0 English. They used google translate.

>>76548023
>>76548046
>>76548068
Not the guy you're replying to but in the same position
>trust fund bby who got shipped off to bumfuck nowhere as a 'test' to see if I can handle a smaller off branch company my dad runs for experience
>it's a retirement zone basically
>old people and school kids
>constantly get hit with
>too young, 2 kids, or just turned preggo
>almost nonexistence social scene
Honestly it's fucking wild that the first thing that runs through my mind if I see a pretty girl is either
>she's too young
or
>how many kids does she have

>>76548087
how old are you?

Had a great but really full weekend
Got last week's work submitted to a client and don't have much to do this week wor wise
GF is busy studying and is sick
Don't really need to do anything, a bit too tired to do anything productive that needs much effort
Bit of a boring day just wasting time on youtube which I don't like doing too often
Otherwise life's pretty good

I have no purpose or motivation in life, i just want to go inawoods and never see another person again

I do soccer refereeing, both as a hobby and for extra money, and busted my ass all weekend doing games. Was out from 830a-6p on saturday, and from 830a-7p on sunday by myself. And it was a hot weekend, mid to high 80s both days. Made over $1200 which will likely never be financially matched again, but I called out work today from general fatigue and especially with my legs. Even though I'm sitting here not working on a Monday, and who knows if I'll be recovered by tomorrow, it feels a lot better knowing that I worked hard and need to recover leading to being off rather than just not doing anything and being like a NEET

>>76548046
>if you dont have many friends you likely have kind of a shitty personality
I'm pretty open and friendly and have no issues in my professional relationships. I still have a few friends dotted around the country, but I have zero friends locally. I live in bumfuck nowhere, so there aren't many options for socializing that isn't all old people. I tried church and a local running club, but it's all old codgers. There are fucking no options for socializing in your mid 20s

>>76544968
Just do it anon. Do it now. The weight of them looming is worse.

>>76544999
Bro ever girl I date loves love is blind and the circle.

>>76548479
that’s cuz you date basic bitches

>>76548087
>constantly get hit with
what did he mean by this?

>>76546291
Strike first

>>76544858 (OP)
>Work from 23 Fri - 07 Sat
>get off work
>leg day
>walk innawoods
>dig a trench with an old WWII E-tool
>fill the trench with pine needles
>put a tarp over the pine needles
>sleep on for 10 hours
>wake up
>go home
9/10 weekend desu

>>76548723
uhh based

>>76548723
Sounds comfy

>>76548479
Nice. I've never dated anybody

>>76544858 (OP)
op i want something fruity, can be creamy, but without diary and not to acid-y. what can you offer me?

>>76549395
Build in the glass with ice

1pt brandy
1pt whipped vodka
2 pts creme de cacao
3 drops of Angostura on top
Garnish with cherries or orange peel

Rebalance to taste

>>76544930
>I have no friends or life
this. but it's not as bad as it sounds. 39, virgin. i appreciate a good night sleep and the quiet. and the breeze.

> bad
Bored of living with my parents bros. Moved back in with them at the start of the summer last year after living and studying for my masters in a capital city of a neighbouring country. Now I’m back home in my little village again and my social life has gone to shit and I feel like my life has been on pause ever since. My ex girlfriend text me out of the blue to wish me happy birthday a couple weeks ago and I ignored it but I still think about her a lot. We hadn’t spoken since November 2024 and she broke up with me January last year. I think she just wanted to check in and to make sure that I’m doing well because I’m not on social media or anything but I didn’t want to give her the satisfaction
> good
down from 170lbs to 139lbs this year after taking the gym seriously for the first time in my life. Build a decent level of muscle before I started consciously cutting in March. Have kind of been eating at maintenance since hitting my initial goal mid June but will be looking to make my first conscious effort toward bulking from September. I’m proud at myself for cutting the weight I needed to and I’ve had a lot of compliments from friends and family etc. it’s also given me confidence that I can bulk and put on good size if I’m as rigorous with tracking my calorie intake etc as I have been these past few months

>>76549473
having such a pathetic life that you need to appreciate the most basic things is a sad existence anon. and by the way ill be in your position in like 6 years.

>>76549461
oooh you are a pro, you were not lying. cheers to that

>>76549479
>having such a pathetic life
bruh. it's a good life. my health is a-ok, im strong as an ox and i truly appreciate that. i got dealt good cards. romantically i didn't have anything to offer and i came to terms with that. i no longer have that fomo you have in your 20s because i know it's not my game. i was really trying for a while came close a couple of times but that's that. so stop living in the past. some people more of a social muscle. i think God min maxed guys like us for the real thing. at the end of the day, i stopped believing a while ago my life would be any better if i had a gf.

>>76549476
I wish my ex texted me on my birthday. I miss her so fucking much.

>>76545678
>Nepo baby grants
They almost all go to Muslim women. Zero go to white men. It's been that way for 40 years.

>>76544858 (OP)
I've had way better luck talking to women at networking events than I have dating apps (I'm a recently self published author) but it's made me realize that I don't find the lion's share of women attractive in the slightest. Even when they're not fat or tatted up, there's usually something off with their face (it's an uncanny quality where a woman in her mid to late 20s also looks like she's in her 40s somehow) or they just have personality that I have no interest in. Like they won't even be unpleasant to talk to for a few hours, but I have no motivation to actually try to date any of them. It's like they all have the same personality of the women I work with.

>>76544858 (OP)
>Be me
>155 pound 24 year old
>Can only bench press 135lbs consistently
>Training over a year at the gym
>155 as my 1 rep max.
>Mamdani fails to lift 135 pounds in the news
>I look at the comments
>Complete roasting of him for being so "weak."
>Apparently 240 pounds is the bare minimum for men to not be boys
>Anything less is for females and boys
>Mfw

It's over, but whatever. Normies on social media (and here let's not kid ourselves) will tear down others whenever they can. I'm gonna keep on trucking even though I'm apparently weak ASF with bad genes for this hobby.

>>76549563
why didn't you play sports growing up?

>>76549563
I feel you anon, i'm at 170 on the incline press and its been over a year. Luckily I'm making headway but it's like 2.5lb a week increase

>>76549621
Because I thought they were gay then and they're still gay now

>>76549358
Was comfy

>>76549482
Cheers, its a dairy free take on the Brandy Alexander. Might be too sweet for a lot of people but it's a pretty decent one imo for the parameters given

>>76544858 (OP)
I’ve just learned that the one that got away from me, who I have never gotten over and still compare all other dates to even years later, has gotten married, and I feel like killing myself publicly over it.

>>76549896
Good closure, now you can move on anon

>>76550031
I know that’s how I need to see it, but it’s gonna take me a while. Thanks anon.

I got laid off after a week of having my new job due to factors beyond my or their control. I thought that I was done searching, but now I have to start all over again.

>>76548099
42

Barely hanging on. Shitty childhood and life. I hate my family because they’re delusional boomers. I’ve been trying to find a path but all routes seem blocked.

>>76544858 (OP)
Started dieting August 18 and Im already down 6,5 pounds also got a nice haircut and I feel like Im gonna make it this time guys.

>>76549394
based. I've only had 2 gf's but they lasted like a month each and never fucked them, so I've basically never dated anybody either

>>76545249
You are right, I am crazy, but explain this shit

I beg God to kill me but he doesn't listen. I must go on for his great "plan". Plan...hahahahaha. The average person lives an average life, and they just make kids who live more average lives. Nobody ever really does anything worth note in a cosmic scale. So why bother? What God, is this for entertainment? You're omnipotent. Is this love? Do what you say or burn for eternity? What entertainment value is there if you know everything?

6 shots of vodka poured in a diet rootbeer please

>>76550520
Protip: There's more than one god.
The god of Abraham, the jew god, he's just one of many.
Other gods are a lot more chill

>>76549643
It does sound good. Could you please do a non alcoholic with the same parameters?

How do I cope with the fact I'm a failure in life

>>76551105
Yeah

Pretty okay. On one hand, my wife and I went on a short-ish hike for the first time in quite a while since the weather has cooled down considerably from the scorching inferno it was for the better part of the summer. It was great. Now we're vacillating whether we should start getting around to Better Call Saul or Spartacus later tonight since both has been on our backlog for years at this point.

On the other, my right shoulder "slipped" somehow during incline bench last week, and it's been a bit fucky since. I've been doing some light recovery work but I get the feeling that only time will be able to fix it for real.

The modern world was a mistake, i just want to go back to the 80's and be free from this bullshit.

>>76551232
lol thanks

>>76551482
Sorry m8 mocktails are out of my wheel house, and generally speaking if you want something that liquor like without having liquor in it the closest you're going to get is pop or

>>76552568
Or like lemonade

>>76544930
Yeah that's me.
>Monday to Friday
>Home-work-home
>Saturday-sunday
>Go hiking alone
This is been my life for the last few years. 2020 was the last time I kissed a girl, haven't even texted one since then, I'm 36 and this is not a worthy way to live but for some reason I don't get depressed nor cope with destructive behaviors like alcohol, drugs or pills, just raw dog life even if everyday feels like groundhog day.

I started university a week ago, and I have noticed I have been feeling depressed during the evenings when I'm tired. I wonder if I'm feeling mentally exhausted from the stress of moving or social exhaustion, but I have been experiencing more anger, tiredness and impatience particularly close to bedtime.
I'm also a literal spreg, so I have somewhat struggled with getting to know people and I think some people think quite lowly of me, particularly a slim goth girl and her artsy friend from my orientation group. It's a shame, as I've tried to be friendly and open for acquittance with them, but they don't even seem to respond to me saying "good morning" or "have a nice evening."
I study history and earlier today as we visited an antiquariat, I got excited about a bookshelf that contained lots of interesting books. I got so distracted I didn't even notice our group was about to leave. I felt quite humiliated

>>76544858 (OP)
This >>76544930 but also idk what I even want out of life. Every time I try to answer that question, whether it’s rambling out loud to myself or writing it down I basically just get that I wish I had a girlfriend to cuddle at night and fuck. Like that’s all I can really think of. I highly doubt I’ll ever have kids, which is sad but I’ve accepted it. I’ve had GFs, all I really even want is to cuddle and hold a woman close. I’m rambling, but I guess I’m incredibly lonely.
Anyways I may go back to school. Thinking of getting in better shape first so I can maybe fuck college thots, maybe even meet a GF. Idk. It was really easy when I was 20 to just be lean and semi social. I have my one place now I have to imagine if I leaned up again and could into some social circles despite being 30 that I’d have an easy enough time. Goal is to get in and out with classes though, waste no time.

I finally figured out the scrawny black possibly autistic kid at my job has been shit talking me. He always runs past me and mutters to himself under his breath. It always came off like it was directed towards me and normally I can’t even make out what he’s saying so I always shrugged it off but recently it’s become clear. Today I was sitting on a crate and he does his usual thing and I clearly heard “HOPEITBREAKSHOPEIYBREAKSHOPEITBREAKS”
It’s funny as hell idk what I did to the kid I’ve never talked to him. I’m pretty sure it’s racial unironically. He just does drive by insults all the time. Shit in fact all I’ve been is nice to him I’ve helped him clean up his messes I’ve held doors for him while he’s carrying shit. I may mutter a mocking voice like that whine from The Waterboy at him next time he does it just to gauge what his deal is, out of genuine curiosity.
>tfw being bullied by a retarded guy
Fucking lmfao

Well, here's my first post on /fit/ in months. I'm in the hospital with cancer. I've had Ewings Sarcoma in my vertebrae which left me unable to walk. That's not the the part that has me down. Then I got a MRSA infection plus blood clotting inside my chemo lines, and that's not even the part that has me down. I'm stuck in the hospital inpatient for God knows how long, and you know what finally pushed me over the edge of depression? The motherfuckers somehow gave me herpes. I've never had sex in my life and yet the combination of immunosuppresive drugs means that the Cold Sore virus has migrated down onto my dick, balls, and asscrack. I look like i got raped by a hobo. I should be fucking grateful, because they did successful surgery, they put me on radiation and chemo, and I'm probably gonna live and I'm probably going to be able to walk again and even run again. Before cancer I ran a trail ultramarathon, I finally lifted enough to look good shirtless, I finally liked my life and liked myself for the first time ever. And all I wanted was to get back there ASAP - "ah fuck, few months in the hospital and we'll run it back. Hell of a story to tell people!" Like I was looking forward to bragging about my recovery or whatever. I was learning to play guitar in that hospital bed, full of optimism. But somehow, getting herpes has just shattered and pushed me over the edge. Now I'm gonna leave here disgusting, incurably disgusting. Any woman who gets near me you gotta tell em "yeah I got herpes". (And I can't lie, I'm too moralfaggot by far) There's no fucking dating in my future. I'm gonna have this massive disgusting rash pop up on my taint and cock and balls every so often forever and ever? And I have to go or larping like it's possible to feel proud of yourself with a field of pustules leaking out of your cock and balls and ass? I actually want to kill myself now. I know I'm being retarded and ungrateful. But what the fuck.

>>76553368
surely there's a lawsuit possible

>>76553368
Jesus that's terrible
>I'm gonna have this massive disgusting rash pop up on my taint and cock and balls every so often forever and ever?
Don't the herpes medications really keep outbreaks under control?

>>76553368
They can't cure herpes?

Thanks anons
>>76553602
Technically it's all me because I always had it on my lips since I was a little kid. (Someone with a cold sore kissed me when I was a baby, that's all it takes). I wouldn't want to sue this hospital anyway because they're the best cancer program around and I'm lucky I got in.
>>76553760
Possibly? It's all new to me, honestly. I never even got cold sores in my adulthood, maybe less than once a year and I'd just rub rock salt on it to make it go away. But now I've been on the hospital's intravenous herpes medications for a few days now, which is stronger than they can send you home with, and it hasn't honestly helped at all.

>>76553820
The way I always understood it was the first outbreaks are the worst and are less severe over time. The drug commercials make it sound like it stops future outbreaks once you start it

>>76548245
nice, i used to referee toddler soccer and it was so cute and fun but never made that kind of money. rest easy big king

>>76545013
Sorry anon, I had about 5 seizures over the course of 18 months when I was abusing alcohol, adderall, shrooms, and jooce. And fighting a lot.
Been about 2 years since my last one

>>76553368
You fought and got more fit than anyone you know and then some. You've taken a horrible situation and learned a new skill out of it rather than rotting or playing games in bed. Yeah it got worse than even spine cancer and you have every right to feel fucked over it. But who knows once your immunosupressants stop that it'll get back to normal? Even if it doesn't, sex isn't even that good once you've gotten used to it. Everyone gets used to even the best of sex if given long enough. I'm probably just be a optimistic retard over this but you got a mindset that'll take you far herpes and stage 4 cancer or not. Best of luck to you and I'm sorry that happened. Also if you're lying about this I'll send a hobo over to give you double herpes.

>>76553368
man i pray for cancer every day. if i ever got what you got i would immediately give up and tell the hospital i was forced to go to to kill me, i would never do chemo or anything. hopefully you can recover to a normal life, and i can get what you got

>>76546234
Anon you’re 19, I’m 27 and have restarted my life several different times in several different careers and fields. Stop worrying about it so much and enjoy life. Back to living alone, paying all my bills and luxuries while working as a supervisor in the car wash industry. Was a union laborer before this, aircraft mechanic before that, server/bartender prior to those, and in pharmacy school in my late teens early 20s then got 2 duis.
It gets better m8, you’re still a teenager and have a decade to figure shit out before you start having to panic and lock in.

>>76548023
>>76548068
My problem in college was I was busy with my classes, which had a majority of guys in them.
Things might be different now with enrollment skewed, but there are more online classes than ever.

>>76549896
What was so special about her if the relationship didnt work out?

>getting shittested not once but twice on the same day by the same chick
I'm beyond giving a shit now even

>>76553368
Just date girls with herpes, or girls that don't ask for STDs (careful to not catch AIDS though lol). An aunt of mine got herpes from her husband after they married. The husband probably got it from a previous chick, or from sharing a hookah pipe. Their children grew up and one got married, none of them have symptoms.
Hell, it is likely you always had it and it just got stronger when your immune system was weakened. Every other girl on tinder probably has oral herpes, and these days oral sex and even ass eating is so fucking common that they probably have genital herpes as well.

>>76554648
I don’t understand shit tests. Are they a good thing or a bad thing? Does it imply she has doubts about you? Or is it more like she’s insecure because she doesn’t have doubts about you and wants to see you fail them so she can feel less insecure? I don’t get it I usually take offense to them, even if I pass easily (literally just dgaf don’t react at most poke fun and lean into it shit depending on what she says I wouldn’t even respond or act oblivious). But I see it as “wow this bitch thinks I’m not shit why can’t she just behave herself and we have a good time”

>>76547876
Not really man. Most men aren’t getting laid. You’re experiencing a few things
>normies
Most normies will do this thing where when they’re doing good they pretend to have never not done well. Your cousins are being fags. I can almost promise you that most of them lost their virginity in adulthood, most probably have only fucked 1-2 girls. They’re acting like this isn’t the case making you the butt of jokes because it makes them feel like they’re not who they actually are. Everything normies do is insecurity based
>lying
Again, normies lie dude. They do it to fit in. Your traveling cousin is probably the only one who gets a considerable amount of cheeks. 6 months really is not that long though. These other cousins may have gotten pussy recently like they said, but it could be as simple as they’re paying for it they’re fucking fat bitches etc.
I have a friend who does that. This guy is soiboy normie incarnate. Think IRL Brian griffin. Retarded unoriginal opinions virtue signals liberal claims to be a sociologist or to have studied sociology even though he only took 2 weeks of community college psych class before dropping out. The whole 9 yards. He begs fat girls on tinder to go on dates for them, buys them food and then brags about fucking super thick girls. Most of these hoes do not have even a pretty face, most are fat in the front that frog build with the flat back like grimace from McDonald’s. He TELLS everyone he’s getting with a new girl every week but the reality is they’re obese and ugly and he still had to monkey dance and spend money on them. I know for a fact he has never pulled anything above a 4/10.
That is how most normies are. They self delude and lie in order to feel like they’re a part of the majority who largely also do the same thing. They inherently know there’s a sort of social hierarchy and every little choice and action they have is ruled by this even if they only know it subconsciously.

>>76547876
>ask cousins for advice
I’d like to suggest this but I’m pretty sure they’d give responses like “dude what do you mean you just do it hahahahahaha” “dude what? Just go meet a girl and put your dick in her”
Which is just more of what I said they’re doing in my previous post. That’s them acting like they’re so successful with women that they don’t even understand what you mean and getting pussy is natural to them. They’re full of shit man. You just got the shit end of the stick. Sounds like you’re a spic, no offense. Because your cousins are acting like spics and you worded it like you have many

>>76554547
>Things might be different now with enrollment skewed, but there are more online classes than ever.
College socializing is pretty grim right now unless you go to some big party school. I recently graduated from a smaller college that had a pretty good community before covid. I was looking forward to the social aspect of it, but the school got absolutely gutted when they started pushing the online classes hard. Every single class went to a hybrid enrollment and even if you showed up in person, the classroom was completely empty because everyone wanted to just stay home and put the lecture on in the background.
Even the discussion boards were 95% copy-paste chat gpt responses. It fucking sucked. I probably only spoke to 5 other students in person during the entirety of my degree and not for lack of trying.

>>76548023
My plan is this bro:
Community college. I am going to test this soon. When I was 18-23 I got laid as a KHV autist just by being social and adopting idgaf attitude embracing my sperging. I was super skinny. It was easy mode. I’m gonna be 30 soon but I need more money and wanna go back and finish my degree. I’m cutting hard right now, I’m going to get as lean as I can in the next 4-6 months and then go back. I have my own place now. All I have to do is into a circle as the 30 year old dude and its game over. This means partaking in study groups from classes, if I see other students doing cool shit on campus just go up and ask to try it and start talking etc.
All to rebuild a roster because I’ve gone through my old one by now. If successful I will put some money aside each year to always have a semester or two of part time classes to constantly fuck bitches. Can probably do this until I’m 35

It's Wednesday (full of woe).
I just realized I have a crush on one of my friends who most likely just get together one of my other other friend. At work I have a crush too but she is definitely not into me, yet I have to work together with her. Sometimes I cannot even know what I say to her. She is an autistic cutie though prolly never realized that. The more quirkiness I know the more I like her.
I had to order pest control because the block ordered and even if I hardly have roaches yesterday I woke up to one running on my neck (for real)... could not sleep after (no shit) my all day was shit and dead tired needed to tidy the flat for pest control.. fml.
My mental health already around the Filippino Trench (not the deepest but close to it) and the only bright thing about my future is the headlights that I am unning to.
Thank you for reading my blog.

>>76555792
it is impossible to meet women organically now in college if you aren't in frats or some group where you will be invited to parties.
Class? Silence, they're there to learn. You have all of 3 minutes to strike up a convo and make a good impression to them before class starts in the first week of the semester. This is even worse for small colleges where you get the same few people in your classes as you go through your degree. If you sperg out even slightly once, your chances with anyone in that class for the entire rest of college are done.
Gym? You do not want to be the guy who asks out girls at your fucking college gym. Self explanatory.
Clubs? This is your best shot, but good luck balancing grades + work + social life + extracurriculars + fitness. Even then, no guarantee there will be any girls there you're both attracted to and have chemistry with.
Bars aren't an option until you turn 21. It's really slim pickings out here.
Source: 3rd year in engineering at a small, 70% male university

>>76554585
She was one of those extreme sports tomboy types. She also had a touch of the ‘tism and did not care what anyone thought about her. She had zero reservations about speaking her mind, could take a joke, and loved dishing them back out. That she was my exact type looks-wise was a bonus too. In the years since I have known her, I have made changes in my life to become more of the kind of man those kinds of girls would theoretically want, and looking back I recognize now that she truly did not give a shit about me, but girls like her are so rare and now that she’s married it disheartens me even more that it wasn’t me. It’s like I had the carrot dangled in front of me only to be told “Just kidding, it’s not for you.”

>>76555815
>Bars aren't an option until you turn 21.
lol

>>76555815
>yeah this perfectly normal place? not an option because i feel anxious about it!
come on nigga

>try to better myself
>fail
>recover
>try to better myself
>fail
>recover
>try to better myself
>fail
>recover

>>76555884
Better the people around you

>>76555741
I don't get it either. She was talking about how a guy asked her out on a date and she got stood up by him with some bs reason, said she didn't care but why are you then still talking about it, later showed me a text from another guy hitting on her, then later was talking about how this guy called her off, hooked up with her a few weeks later and then immediately called her off again. In all of these instances I guess the gist was to get a reaction from me but I just told her she's dumb for falling for all these tricks. I'm too old for this high school bullshit man

>>76554445
>>76555669
Thanks anon, I appreciate your posts. I'll get through this too now that I've had a chance to calm down. As a permavirgin sperg I genuinely don't know how I'll date now, but the truth is that the sun still shines and I'll be able to get out of here and do everything I like again. (And it's not stage 4 cancer, they caught it earlier than that) The theoretical act of getting pussy is a lot less important to me than being back out in the world at all, when I take a deep breath. There's way more to life.
And yeah it turns out that it IS technically "oral herpes" which everyone catches from sharing a joint in college or kissing someone or whatever, HSV1. I did already have it. The problem is that when it gets to your penis it's always on your penis now. I never had outbreaks on my lips before so maybe it's just gonna go away forever when I'm off chemo? In any case I've calmed down a lot now that some time passed. Serious thanks to anons for reading me complain, venting on here actually made me feel a lot better.

>>76556219
Best of luck with the treatment, man. Glad to hear you'll come out the other side and it sounds like you made the most of being stuck in bed. Most people don't have the mental fortitude to keep their chin up when going through shitty ass cancer stuff.

It takes a while to get over the filth you feel from herpes, but you'll learn to live with it. I was a khhv until my mid 20s and the very first girl I dated lied to me and gave me HSV-2. I had a few bad breakouts and wanted to kms. Thw breakouts tend to taper off over time, which helps the constant feeling of being dirty and diseased go away. Thats the only pussy I had ever gotten and it wasn't worth it. Sex is underwhelming anyways and you're not missing much.

>>76556219
Yeah man like the other anon said very few people have the ability to keep their heads held high in situations like that, let alone use the time and boredom to learn a new skill. Very happy to see it's not life threatening because that kind of mindset and grit will get you far in life. It'd be way easier to list the situations you can't come back from than the situations you can come back from now on. Even if it's not okay, you'll make it, anon.

>>76556219
Yeah man like the other anon said very few people have the ability to keep their heads held high in situations like that, let alone use the time and boredom to learn a new skill. Very happy to see it's not life threatening because that kind of mindset and grit will get you far in life. It'd be way easier to list the situations you can't come back from than the situations you can come back from now on. Even if it's not going to be okay, you'll still make it, anon.

I got a kidney stone. Help bros. It hurts so much I want to cry

>>76544858 (OP)
Been unemployed since I graduated, a whole year ago this month. GF fled like I was a sinking ship on fire lol
>stem degree with honors
>years of experience in my field
>volunteering and research hours
>paid and unpaid internships
>great references
>resume custom tailored for every job

I am desperately applying everywhere now. Get ghosted 99% of the time but I got a rejection email from walmart this morning. Get me a double rye old fashioned with the fancy cherries and an ice ball please. Not having to work has been great for my gainz tho.

>>76557139
The job market is genuinely terrifying right now. Keep your head up. If the government was any good they'd do something about outsourcing fucking up the labor market for college grads, but they won't. Its rough out there right now unless you're literally a home care nurse changing wound dressings on boomers, and even they're getting saturated. Some of my friends actually jumped ship from stem to tradefag though, and they're doing shockingly well. One guy stumbled into an 80k internship doing sheet metal. But I know that's not available for everyone.

>>76549896
That's tough. I know that one day I'm going to feel the same. Still, stay strong.

>>76557165
Thanks for understanding. My dad keeps telling me to stop being lazy and "pound pavement" like thats going to work. When I was a teenager he actually had me go buy a cheap suit and then dropped me off downtown with a stack of resumes to hand out, which surprisingly did not work. I've only ever gotten jobs from people I know, but now I don't know anyone in the field who's hiring.

You can never lift the autism away unfortunately, but had anyone tried or had succes with supplements/meds for the condition?

>methylphenidate, amphetamines for drive
>bupropion, atomoxetine, guanfacine can improve initiation and reduce passivity
>memantine or amantadine show mild improvements in motivation and social drive

>>76557266
Yeah do meth its great

>>76557165
The reason nobody is hiring rn is because
>A. Covid and its effects have been disastrous. The amount of business growth up until 2019 was insane only to be halted. You can't halt everything in a debt based system AND create inflation. So many small businesses have clised and larger ones bought out.

>B. Nobody knows what Trump is going to do. Everything is in tbe shitter even he knows it's practically FUBAR'ed to the point AI is the Hail Mary attempt. Every tariff effects every market will directly or down the chain.

>C. HR cuntoids have been given unlimited control. They know shit is fucked yet because of this it makes things easy for them. Hiring a competent white man to try and fix things will equate to layoffs for them.

Have you ever successfully gotten a person to apologize to you without any excuses or explanations or justifications?

Just "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that."

>>76557478
Only my closest friends have ever just said "sorry I fucked up, that was my bad" without giving their list of reasons as to why, akshually, it wasn't their fault.

>>76544964
>>khv at 32
>>go from 400 to 210 lbs so loose skin
Nearly exactly same, but 410 to 196 currently
The skin is brutal, yeah. Still a good bit of fat to lose too at 5'9, hoping I feel better about the huge amounts of sag once the titties are totally deflated and I've gained more muscle
I've thought about trying to work now, I think I want to. But really only if I can figure out how to do relationships, if that's hopeless then I'm fine neeting for the rest of my life
Had a thing online with a woman for the first time in my life that lasted 2 months. It was wild to experience mutual attraction for the first time even if just in a half-real way over distance. Made things feel possible for a minute but now that's over and my mentals are so far in the trash, I tried too soon I think

>>76557478
No, in fact I’ve rarely ever been apologized to when someone has fucked up or wronged me. Inb4 LCD I have plenty of people I get along fine with, I seem to attract narcissistic types. Not using that word liberally no pun intended. GFs, friends, etc way too often have I had dealings with people like that who will do something blatantly wrong and fully expect that I apologize to them for voicing that it wasn’t okay.
I’m huge on accountability. So it really upsets me when someone else can’t take the most basic form of it. All it takes is “I’m sorry. I was wrong for that. I can do better.”

>>76544858 (OP)
I’m actually losing my mind from loneliness. I want to fuck. I want to hold a woman close, smell her skin and her hair while I hear her breathe softly and feel her body heat on my own. I want to spoon and have her do that butt wiggle thing and progress into sex, blast my cum inside her and fall asleep holding each other. I’m so fuckin lonely.

It's honestly shocking how truly hopeless I feel. I've had no positive life experiences to this point and no memories to look back on. There's no relationships and barely any friendships, moreso just a few acquaintances. I don't even have a meaningful career that I could fall back on, and as we all know currently, the job market is a complete pit, which is even worse because I'm in one of the wealthiest and most successful areas of the country. Seems like normal people even feel pretty hopeless about the future when it comes to cost of living, job prospects, AI, and the general reduction of meaningful social relationships making life not that good, then what hope does someone like me have?

>>76552608
Man your life sounds really similar to mine, except with zero romantic experience ever. Although I am severely depressed unlike you, I also "rawdog" life at 33 years old. I don't drink or do any drugs, not for some moral superiority reason, I don't think I'm better than people who do, I just don't really care enough to. Are you sure you're not depressed? Why do you think you're not? Because it's a pretty depressing life to have, and seems like you're aware of it?

>>76544858 (OP)
I think my gym figured out I'm a nice guy or something. All of sudden people keep asking me for help with things. It's kind of unnerving for my social anxiety

>>76544858 (OP)
As I get older, it's harder to justify using this site to "relate" with others. Idk, I have my issues and am late starting out as well, but it seems all the feels and insecurities on /fit/ stem from not having a gf or the popular rich guy on college campus. Like it's enough to make them want to kys? What percentage of this site is even over 35?

>>76557718
Most people who are older probably became successful and normal years ago and left, or have killed themselves by now
>t. 33 and a complete loser
But yeah, whenever I see people's problems and they are in their late teens thru mid 20s, I just get angry because it makes me even more ashamed and insecure about being in this position.

>be 35
>finally a chance to move up vertically
>within a flash feel the weight of stress I never dealt with
>absolute corruption and political battles between managers fighting for power
>working with partners and hitting deadlines
>must overcome the shit pile I inherited from the previous manager
>trying to be a "good leader"
>team are complete rogues who pick and choose what they want to work on
>it all starts to sink in that I have no control and will likely fail like the previous manager
Lifts for this feel?

Is having purpose in life a meme? I'm 32, good job etc but I feel like i have no purpose in life. I just wake up, go through the same motions everyday, work, watch TV, exercise, sleep etc and while I wouldn't say I'm unhappy I just don't feel like im living life. I don't feel like my life has a purpose, I'm just a pointless drone that'll do this for the next 30 years then finally retire and die. I guess not everyone can be the main character.

>>76544858 (OP)
A pitcher of beer and a half cup of vodka please. The jews and central banking, my credit score is in the shitter.

>>76558091
So the only positive thing you really have to say about yourself is "good job", you're a drone, you think about retirement. Try getting a life outside of work which is clearly all you have.

>>76558137
Fuck you faggot

Vent threads are always full of weird ass people looking to lord over others, very strange type of person

>>76558149
Ok jew what do you want now some coin shavings and coupons?

>>76558149
The only thing worse than the bragging weirdos is that one overly positive faggot that responds to everyone with his nearly schizo brand of false happiness.

>>76557222
Thanks and checked, anon. Prepare yourself for the day it may happen. Don’t be like me and let it rule your life for years if it does.

>>76555856
> I recognize now that she truly did not give a shit about me
What were the signs? How long were you together

>>76558143
Not him but is he wrong though? My dad is like this and has been telling me that he is going to retire in two months for the last 5 years. I really think he keeps working because its the only thing he has left going for him. My siblings and I live all over the world far away from our home town now and my mom visits us regularly. He only has one sibling left alibe whom I've seen like 4 times in my entire life. I would be the same way too probably if it wasn't for the fact that my job is ass but has some pretty cool perks like traveling and that I have a lot of hobbies like camping/shooting/survival challenges that do during my very limited off time

I keep getting BOGGED trying to trade crypto, down to 300 or so dollars, and no job...
Hold me, lads... I want to make it...

>>76558040
damn is bird society really that bad?

>>76558561
Stop trading cuck coins and get a job

>>76558588
i dont like working

Got back from my seasonal job. My body is sore and weaker than when I left. It's endurance work. It blows because I wasn't very strong to begin with.
>>76558588
Not him, but between the tens of millions of illegals and 55 million visa holders, why would anyone want to do that? Can you realistically imagine how depressed wages are? You probably can't. The wage disparity to housing cost is significantly worse than the Great Depression. People don't talk about it, but it is the case. There'd be 7 million more homeless than the Great Depression without just socialized housing programs, not counting things like SSI or SSDI. Never mind that the dollar was worth gold back then. Now, it's worth fuck all and some violence.

>>76558495
An entire semester of college, so roughly 3-4 months. It wasn’t like it was super long-term relationship but I was completely invested. The signs were that she sucked ass at texting me even though she was on her phone constantly, she was constantly hanging out with other friends of hers and even her guy friends and leaving me out of it. Towards the end of it she never had time to go do anything with me or wouldn’t make time for me to go try things that were new to me that she was interested in. When I told her I wanted to break up with her, she completely froze, shut down, and then afterwards cut off all contact with me, her friends, and started just hiding in her room or just staying on campus all day. It was fucking ridiculous. I look back on how 5 separate people (3 of my roommates and 2 of hers) who knew us told me I was way out of her league and that I was wasting my time with her, and I should’ve believed them. I feel like such a retarded faggot for being so head-over-heels for what was ultimately a totally one-sided, bullshit “relationship”.

>>76558545
My dad was like that too man. He officially retired from his 30+ year career in 2021 at around 66 and had been talking about being excited about it, no more business trips with long drives, plane flights and lonely hotels, driving to work sites, spending nights writing reports. But I knew it was going to be bad, because he had no friends and no hobbies at all.

I think he stayed retired doing nothing for at most a few weeks. Then he became an indepedent contractor doing literally the exact same work he spent 30 years doing, except now he wasn't locked into his employer so he could freelance and take vacations, but still the exact same routine as when he was working. He nearly died from a massive heart attack a few months back, and within like 3 weeks he already claimed he felt good and wanted to start going back to work, my mom put a stop to it.

He's got tons of money, no need to work at all anymore, but if he stopped working, I swear he would probably literally die of boredom. Pretty much all his free time is spent watching TV or Youtube. Still has no friends, still has no hobbies, not even old man hobbies. I think his job is the only thing that gives him and meaning or purpose in life, and if he has to stop doing it, he might as well be dead anyway.

Hopefully this doesn't come off harsh towards him, because like you, this is how I would be too. If I won a $200 million lottery tomorrow, my life wouldn't change at all because I would still be a fuckin loser. Honestly seeing his life is exactly why I don't even want to become old like him and just want to kill myself. Because I'm already a complete loser now in my 30s, can't imagine another 30, 40 years down the line like this, just to end up even if you had done all the "right" things, buying a home, being rich, you end up with a pathetic loser son, no friends, no hobbies, and retirement sucks anyway

>>76558595
whats the job anon

I think I'm dealing with cte guys. My autism is catching up with me and biting me on the ass.
I cant remember too much, I'm so much more emotional and I'm so violent in my behavior. I can't sit down I'm everywhere and no where at once.
Pray for me guys please

>>76558623
Fisherman. I did Drift Netting this year. 32 foot boat. Just crew. Been nearly a month since, but honestly feel like my ass has been kicked. I did other fish stuff, but I don't feel like explaining it because I'm tired. 45 days. Working for 15-16 hours at a minimum, sometimes as much as 56 hours, is extremely difficult on the body. Weigh 5 pounds less than I did. Everything but pullups has suffered, lol.

>>76557718
30-year-old fisherman. Two types of fish men: well above the average, or well below it. Swimming with the fishies.

>>76558631
Believe it or not brains are malleable and *can* heal, but you're going to need to quit whatever is causing brain damage

>>76551116
Intermittent naps until failure.

>>76547660
they're literal NPCs

>>76545356
just act like you and don't apologize for anything. she'll either stick around (good) or leave quickly (good)

>>76557266
>normies
>moral

Having my first driving test today at age 24. Feeling pretty nervous about it. Could only sleep for about 3 hours last night and couldn't fall asleep again due to nervousness. Idk how it will go .

>>76544858 (OP)
Screwdriver please.
My dad died this week. The man who beat me senseless and tried to kill me throughout my childhood is dead. Do I get my mom back fully? Or will she always miss him?

>>76558619
I feel you dawg, I discovered an old picture album last time I visited him and its bizarre seeing pics of my dad my age now with the same build and facial hair. Hell we both have German Shapards too that look similar. It scares me a bit because he used to have friends at my age too or so I hear. We have the same interests and from my understanding he used to be active in them too. I hope I can keep the fire lit because I don't want to end up as an alcoholic couch bum with no friends too

>>76545669
Nothing so formal as being disowned but most of my family started to exclude me when I met my wife. My wife can definitely be a shrew but despite that she pushes me to succeed and be my best self, and demonstrates her love for me, neither of which my family has done since I was a teenager. It sucks that you got disowned but it sounds kind of lik you were stuck in a familial role you didn't truly want, and now you are no longer beholden to that role. That can be freeing if you let it be.

>>76545669
You'll probably be better off without them. The stars aligned for me to not see or hear from my family for all of like 10 days and I was on cloud 9. All of a sudden their visiting this weekend and oh what a coincidence I'm suddenly drinking.

I'm 25 and have never been on a date

>>76559887
That's up to you to change buddy

>>76544858 (OP)
I’m realizing, or at least just starting to realize, it’s not my ex. I’m just genuinely lonely I. I don’t think I ever liked her. I think I only got with her because I was lonely and desperately wanted a gf again. Don’t get me wrong, physically my 10/10. Hot as hell, crazy pussy tighter than any pussy I’ve ever fucked. I definitely miss that. But I don’t miss her. I just miss having a bitch to cuddle and a perfect pussy to fuck and a perfect asshole to stare at while I fuck her.
I need to get over this. I’m something between comfortable alone and not. Like I’m chilling I got everything I need. But I know that when I meet another woman it’s going to be hard to resist the temptation to rush into a relationship have her move in with me right away etc. I recognize this as a problem.

>>76559999
Checked
>>76559887
You heard the quads. I’ll help you a bit
>do you know why you haven’t?
>what is wrong with YOU? How can you change it or overcome it even by way of compensating?
List the steps for fixing or improving the key areas. Make a plan, start.
>what is wrong with your life? How can you change it?
Same as above, list your steps. Make a plan. Start.
>why do you want to go on dates? Are dates necessary to achieve that?
>what do you want out of life? Have you worked towards that at all? How will you start?
Answer those. You can reply with your answers but really you need to ask yourself.
Example:
I haven’t because I’m very shy and the few girls I’ve managed to “date” went so badly that I’m terrified of even trying again. I’m also insecure about a few things, like my body. I let myself go after the last one thinking I would never try again.
I need to get back in shape, clear my head up and start out just trying to be “friends” with women to get comfortable with them again. It would probably be best if I could work my way into a friend date, even if I become a gay best friend to these girls it would help me.
My steps are:
Blah blah blah

>why
I want to date because I realize getting into relationships from hookups/FWBs leads to disaster often. I need to learn to properly court and vet women. I want a gf, I’m horny and would like the companionship and consistent sex with a girl I care about.


Just answer it for yourself to at first gain some clarity and get the ball rolling. It truly is up to you to change.

So there's a new guy at my workplace. He got the position i fought tooth and nail for, the position i got rejected from for "not being experienced enough". The new guy literally turned 18 a month ago and it's his first real job. He has better genetics than me, he's more fit than me with a physique of a greek god including chiseled gigachad jaw, he's more lean than me, he has a girlfriend, a social circle, normal, functional parents, and no fucking traumatic life changing events in his entire life. He's cheerful and friendly all the time. Meanwhile i'm a complete fucking loser in my 30s and i'm just happy to be alive to be honest because my entire life has been awful and i had to crawl out of the poverty and hikikomori life and i'm still not even at the baseline function as a human being STILL struggling with loneliness and unable to get any friends or any kind of relationship. We bonded instantly and we're, like, friends or something now, but i feel so fucking awful talking to him or even seeing him, i kind of genuinely hate him but i feel bad for doing it. I'm jealous of his life, both as a "current me vs current him" and comparing my dogshit fucking life when i was 18 to his. But he's not a bad guy at all. I basically told him i kinda hate him for mogging me but like don't take it personally.
I just don't understand how the fuck some people have an easy life and i have to struggle just to pretend to be normal.

>>76561077
Damn you need to hit the gym. Get buff and then beat the shit out of him and assert your dominace as the older alpha.

>>76559545
Did you pass