Thread 76776597

Usually when I fast my suicidal thoughts get worse, I never thought of a solution for them other than to just try suicide. They’re getting worse again. I can’t really kill myself though cause I promised to hang out with my friend this Halloween. What do I do? Killing myself’s looking mad attractive rn.

>>76776597 (OP)
I CANNOT talk to my family about this by the way. They know I’ve been diagnosed with an eating disorder so if I say I’m feeling suicidal they’ll know exactly why and force me to eat

>>76776597 (OP)
You must continue living to make people cope & sneedthe

>>76776597 (OP)
What crAPP are you using to track?

>>76776597 (OP)
https://www.cracked.com/article_15658_the-ten-minute-suicide-guide.html
this was written before the author moved to cracked.com and picked up the crack pipe, so it's still good.

>>76776625
It’s just called “fasting”
>>76776623
I don’t care for that.
>>76776629
The 50% rule is stupid cause what’s the point of experiencing good stuff if I have to live my whole life doing this stupid fasting shit that I hate. If I kill myself I’ll never have to fast again.

>>76776655
why are you planning to fast for your whole life?
after you get to a comfortable weight, focus on building muscle. You'll then be able to eat more while maintaining your weight.

>>76776681
Cause I have an eating disorder you dumb nigger. Fasting’s an addiction for me.

I think I’m going to write down a list of what I’d benefit from suicide and what I wouldn’t

>>76776684
oh, so you have no reason to fast, and fasting makes you want to kill yourself.
let me guess: "not fasting" also makes you want to kill yourself?
you're the kind of person that cannot simply walk out with the golden idol, but must, like Indian Jones, replace it with some other pointless obsession.

>>76776702
Well duh, everyone in todays modern world has a pointless obsession. Like anons on these boards think gym is good yet it's pointless, just like video games too

Hm

>>76776597 (OP)
Maybe don't fast? Or just kys?

>>76776702
Not fasting makes me happy. But then I get worried people won’t like me if I’m not starving myself. It dosent make me want to KILL myself it just makes me anxious
I don’t know what you mean by that last part though.
>>76776709
I think the difference is gym makes these guys happy, fasting dosent make me happy

>>76776732
Gym doesn't make anyone happy. It's just a cope.

>>76776723
Neither are very good options
>>76776736
I dunno at least they don’t want to off themselves

>>76776597 (OP)
>>76776614
I stopped fasting for longer than a day because of this shit
not suicidal thoughts, just constant paranoia, anxiety, feeling like shit, and being unable to sleep
funny enough the hunger goes away after 2 days, but everything just gets worse

>>76776871
>>76776597 (OP)
Actual pussies if anything fasting for 3 days makes my mind clearer than ever

>>76776597 (OP)
niggas will do anything but eat a normal diet

>>76776871
This exactly. I’m not hungry, I just want to kill myself and I’m scared there’s people in my walls

>>76776875
That’s cause you’re using bitch ass pussy salts. So actually you’re the pussy. Pussy.
>>76776905
Ya actually. I just feel like I’m better than people if I fast, it gives me a superiority complex that feels nice but only for like 10 minutes until I realize I only played myself and actually everyone else is better cause at least they don’t hate themselves and starve themselves like retards.

Up

I’m at the “empty” point, where I just feel emotionally empty and incapable of empathy. Do I still want to kill myself? Yes and no, I don’t want to do it myself cause I’m too lazy but it’d be nice if I could walk into the street and get run over. Again, my empathy is gone so I don’t care if some fucker goes to jail over it, lol.

>>76776597 (OP)
Have you considered just eating and starting up your fast later?

>>76777466
I could but I’m scared I’d be lame if I did that.

>>76776684
yeah what the other anons are saying basically, you sound like a chore to deal with

>>76777633
But does having an ed mean you shouldn’t act on it?

The emptiness has reached its peak. I feel there’s no point to anything now. Human life, anything.

>>76778132
no one cares, buddy. shove it down and thug it out like a real nigga. this ain't your personal diary

>>76778245
I’m updating with my experience you retard

>>76778245
You changes your tune real fucking fast didn’t you? “nIgGaS wIlL do aNyThInG bUt EaT a NoRmAl DiEt” but now you’re all shove it down bro finish the fast bro thug it out bro shut the FUCK UP you FUCKING NIGGER oh my gosh. Scum like you that can’t decide on shit make me sick, it’s always back and forth with you people, it’s either “Omggg nooo that’s so unhealthy” or “Omgggg nooo being unhealthy is cool” shut the FUCK UP and Zfuckng pick one you fucking stain. “Thug it out” cut it out, cut yourself, cut yourself until your wrists bleed and you bleed out and you’re dead you’re fucking dead and no one will miss you because you never made an impact on anyone. You apparently ignore all women so they’ll won’t care and you were such an insufferable stain towards the men in your life they certainly won’t care either. Kill yourself NOW

>>76778245
Yknow you actually could’ve just moved in but instead you chose to post this, you chose to go out of your way to show how little you care. Do you realize how stupid that is? How deeply retarded that is? Do you realize how pathetic you are? How much of a small insignificant stain you are? Do you realize? Do you realize??? You don’t even realize and that’s the sad part. You’re on this board, you think you’re important, you think you have a life, you think you think you’re significant. Looking for the best basedjak to portray me as, unfortunately the reality is is that you’re not. You’re a small stain that brings nothing to this world and never can. None of us do but at least we acknowledge that, you pretend you do and just how fucking sad is that. Come to reality, lil bro.

>>76778245
“Shove it down and thug it out like a real nigga” how pathetic. How sadly pathetic. You really think that matters? That anything matters? How lucky I am to not be sad delusional as you

>>76778132
Are you seeing a therapist? Also have you ever had your hormone levels checked?

>>76778306
I was but then she told me to stop fasting so I stopped listening to her.
I talked to her about my eating tendencies and she suggested healthy ways to lose weight, but each one made me sort of relapse into fasting again. I couldn’t get through it cause I was just so tempted to fast. She’d say “Ok just eat 500 calories less” but when I’d try my brain would think “How about NO calories?”. After trying to kill myself over it she eventually said “Stop trying to lose weight until we can find a way for you to healthily do it.”. Then I just left her.

No I’ve never gotten my hormone checked.

Up so the anon who asked that can see I replied

Yo why am I struggling to breathe, genuine question

>>76778245
Based woman ignorer ignoring this dumb bitch's replies lmao

>>76779354
Would you rather die than eat something?

>>76776597 (OP)
It's friday. I'll join your fasting quest until monday. Hold fast, anon. Make the /fast/ general.