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psychedelics for me are like windscreen wipers cleaning the dirt off my windscreen, at least temporarily
i would be dead without psychedelics
shrooms lsd and ketamine have been there at several times in my life where I had just given up
last time I did LSD I connected with my inner child again and for months afterwards the stupidest little silly stuff would make me laugh again, I had a general contentedness with life. I'm back to feeling like shit and I miss the clarity LSD gave me last time, might drop a tab again this summer. I catch myself coming across memes and at best i can muster a forced chuckle, but I know that if only I could wipe the windscreen clean again, that shit would make me full belly laugh even if I were watching it on public transport full of strangers
too bad it wears off after a while, but yeah, the abrasiveness of life tends to do that and I'm well aware that i am very sensitive to it
antidepressants make things infinitely worse for me, i'm not a coomer, i'm not addicted to any substance, not a gamer, i have family, but I have cptsd from my upbringing and I don't ask for sympathy or whatever, but i'd never write off stuff like shrooms because for some people it's the only thing that truly gives temporary relief
thx for reading my diary