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Theres also a difference in actually wanting to 'be' these people and that also being a fetish learned from The Interwebs.
I wanted to be a sissy long before I ever saw any porn at all. It was the mid/late 90s. I started looking at my body and how it resembled a girl's in a lot of ways. How the bones at my sternum showed a little, like when I got a peek down a giels shirt. How my ribs showed. How my thighs were jiggly, not muscular. How my ass was shaped just like theirs.
I started having this feeling, and the best way to describe it is that I wanted to be pretty for men; I wanted men to desire me. I didnt even know what ass sex was. I hadnt even learned how to jack my dick yet. And not even knowing what ass fucking was, somehow I discovered that putting things in my ass felt good. I actually masturbated with my ass before my dick.
I never really did anything about it until my 20s. I dated women and fucked women, but in provate I did keep playing with my ass. I kept looking at my 130lb 6 foot tall body and comparing it to how it was similar to hot women. I was in fact mistaken for a girl a few times in public from behind, because I had really long blonde hair and an ass that was incredibly feminine. In the right (or wrong) clothes, id hear guys talking about me...and then the looks on their faces if/when they saw mine.
Later I actually truly crossdressed and started hooking up with guys. I found one I trusted and liked and stuck with him. I dont even have the normal desire of a man to mate with as many others as possible when it comes to guys - I just want one.
