>>29136980
About 13 years old, I had this urge to…well I didn’t know what at the time. I wanted to ‘be feminine’ I guess.
So I kept having this urge but didn’t know exactly what it was; I’m 12, had no sex talk yet, and no internets. One day I have a pair of toy nunchucks with a *very* rounded end on them.
Welp. I’m looking at it and decide to put the round end in my butt. Got it in dry but couldn’t really go past the hole so I wetted it in the sink and managed to get it inserted.
It didn’t hurt. In fact, it felt amazing. I felt like ‘this’ was what that urge I kept having was. My tiny little asshole was fucking WRAPPED around this dick shaped toy. And it’s like the size of a grown man’s dick. It felt so, soooooo fucking good to be wide open like that.
So I keep doing it for a couple of years and notice this sensation like takes over my lower body. Didn’t know what it was; kinda made me lightheaded in a way. (Best way I have to describe what I was feeling at that age) But like everything sort of tensed up below my rib cage too.
Well I kept doing it and around 15/16 I learned how to jack off and what was happening: orgasms.
I was having orgasms with my asshole. They were a little different than the ones I had with my dick, but both were GREAT. Honestly couldn’t decide which I liked better so I just did both: I’d fuck my ass with that toy and also jack off. Sometimes at the same time, sometimes one or the other - but when it was just one, I gravitated to my ass. Most of the time as a teen o was just weak after an ass fucking and still kicked off, but not always.
Zero exposure to porn and liked girls at the time, but also had this deep urge to be cute and pretty and girly for big, hairy, manly men.
