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>when we were friends
hey there - it's not me but i want you to know we're still friends in my mind. *i'm genuinely sorry* if you felt like i walked out on you or something. it all just became too much for me, and i want to move on completely from the personal baggage around certain porn and porn-related chats. so sure, there's some stuff like this
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>>29139383
>>29139315 that i still enjoy casually but i couldn't even be forced to touch the kind of content you probably remember most. it feels too much like living in the past.
i can't really control what anyone may or may not do with the old shit but that's not really a healthy place to focus. i've already done my part to make peace with things in that regard, and i'm much happier now coaching ppl irl on muscle girl dating, travel, and finding fun, healing relationships etc.
i meant it when i said that you're a good guy with a good heart. it's just that i know engaging connections that came from my initial porn behaviors puts me at huge risk of relapse back into the abyss. i wish that weren't the case but i don't make the rules, my brain chemistry does.
every now and then i think about you and wonder how you're doing. at times i wasn't fair to you because of my pain - i'm sorry for that too. you didn't deserve it, and i really wish all the best for you for all time. :) if i could do it with the wave of a magic wand, i'd make it so we could've met irl, under different circumstances. but for what it's worth, knowing you did eventually help me begin to heal.
