>>29174859
My appetite for older women has always been ravenous and a few years ago i realized that when my sexuality started developing around at 10 it imprinted on my mom's hot dark brunette friends and then my teachers. When i was 12 i wanted to fuck my 50 yr old geography teacher. In highschool i earnestly fell in love with my physics tutor totally off guard. I thought she was kibda hot, nice busty plump older woman in her 50s that wore tight leather skirts to work, but i felt dirty about it then since i didn't fully ubderstand the world and myself. Then she started tutoring me and we got to hang out privately and the hormones kind of kicked in as we spent time together and i felt so at ease in her company. So easy to talk to, so much more interesting than girls my age. She was surprised by my maturity and i deeply enjoyed hers. Even to this day the memory of her smile warms my heart.
And this has been an reoccurring pattern with me and older women for some reason. 3 years older, 7 years older, 11 years older, 20+ years older. I've always had such immediate physical attraction and true desire for older women and intense almost instantaneous chemistry.
To the point that older women make me feel like i am a straight red blooded man, compared to girls my age that i have no chemistry with and i have to pretend to be interested in them to get a conversation going and it's just always felt like a chore in comparison.
My girlfriend now that i wanna marry is 11 years older and i wish i was just given to her into marriage when i hit puberty. It would've been a much bettervtrajectory for my life back then in every way.
