>>29252121 (OP)I've watched a lot of porn for many years. It really ramped up when I started doing weed several years back. The feeling of orgasm while high is just amazing. Some background: My wife makes a bunch of money working from home and she doesn't like me leaving her side so I don't have much else to do. She kind of keeps me like one might keep a beloved dog, letting me do whatever I want, watch porn, jack off, finger my ass, rub my nipples, etc as long as I stay nearby her.
It's turned into my dick getting played with during pretty much all waking hours. She'll fuck me (or suck my dick) once per day and when she isn't busy with her work, she'll gently rub and massage it. I do it myself the rest of the time, cumming 3-4 times a day, not including "almost orgasms" from edging watching porn or just watching TV.
My question: I feel like this has disassociated me from reality in some form. I don't know if it was the introduction of weed several years ago or that my dick is always in some state of activity. But I don't really care about stuff anymore. She could go out a fuck someone and I wouldn't really care. I've become in some ways "disinterested" in any kind of meaningful sexual intimacy, not just with her, I can't imagine such a relationship with anyone. When I'm with her or jacking off, it's all just really sexually graphic thoughts in my head, mostly stuff about her doing something slutty (she is a massive slut). Sometimes we'll go out and other times not and I don't give a shit either way anymore. Do you feel this way at all? I'm trying to figure out if it is the porn/dick activity or the weed. The weed I do is live resin/distillate, about 100mcg per day (the equivalent of 10 gummies).
Is it the porn or the weed or just getting older?