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As early as 5 years old I wanted to 'be like' the girls but not actually be a girl. I noticed how my body was shaped more like theirs than other boys - I was taller and skinnier and they were wider and stockier. Either right before or right after I started school, a girl was up on the slab of a demo'd house pretending to be a stripped with a few boys pretending to be the audience. They were older; I didnt actuall yknow what they were doing til later. Instead of joining the boys and looking at her, I joined her and started dancing and stripping like she was. The boys did not like KEK.
At 12 I found a pair of toy nunchuks and put the rounded end of one in my ass. It felt good. It didnt hurt...and these were full size toy nunchuks. Literally the size of a mans dick. It made me feel good when I moved it in there and I kept doing it even though i was worried I was doing something hurtful to myself.
At 15 I figured out how to jack my dick and realized that I was having a very similar feeling with my ass all that time. I had zero access or exposure to porn when I did all that. The Interwebs didnt really exist in every household then. It started to as I got into my teens but it wasnt really prevalent - it was only the upper middle class people I met that had PCs and dial up and using chat rooms and shit.
But then I did start seeing internet porn as it became more and more common; prior to that I bought a few DVDs. I always admired the girl and wanted to be her; I checked out the guys dicks and all the cum and their bodies fucking that cute little thing, making her moan and cry in pleasure. And I wanted to be her, not the guy most of the time. I already knew what it felt like to have something in my ass, but not what it felt like to actually get fucked.
DESU Im not sure what I like better: being fucked or doing the fucking. I do like women...but I like men just as much and specifically me 'being a girl' for them.
