>>29452443
>this was all in June , fast forward to August
>still on no fap
Now to the point in our arrangement(?) where we video call, audio call, and regularly text
>we sext now too, no idea why I haven’t relapsed yet
>can’t really remember what started it, but we started sending each other nudes
>went on a call with him while I looked at the pics and vids he sent me (deleted now)
>now hard as a rock, I start fapping as he’s telling me all the shit he’d let me do to him, and how his hole is so warm and how he wants my cum
>that accent is making me diamonds, the only tranny I’ve heard that actually sounds like a woman
>he starts bouncing on the bed too, could hear it creak
>starring at the vid of him on my PC where he’s on his bed arching his back and wiggling his butt
>either he could hear me getting close because of my panting or he’s getting close himself. he giggles a bit, then his moans got louder and he’s begging me to cum
>*cums*
>without a doubt the best nut I’ve ever had, eyes twitching, toes curling, shivering, I could feel it in my entire body
>what followed literally seconds after was this sinking pit in my stomach, the feeling I need to vomit, and this feeling of disappointment and sadness in myself, felt like I was about to cry
>usually when I fap to something gnarly I just feel the sickness, never this. I genuinely feel disgusted with myself
>muster up the strength to thank him and tell him I gotta go, and then I clean myself up
>10 minutes have past and the feeling still lasts, posts nut clarity usually subsides by now and I’m horny enough to go again
>feel dirty too, try to take a long shower and that kind of helped
>still disgusted with myself, went to bed early, never felt this mentally exhausted
>feel a little bit better the following morning
>stopped fapping and stopped looking at porn, only reason I’m here is because I want to share this story to people
It took weeks for that to subside by the way.
