Thread 29685666

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gssrat

this is not a back and forth statement. its pretty_descriptive. desu, i dont know if i should be making LateNight, we all know _why
and its not cuae of those _stupid reasons I led off with last_time
it might be the thing, that kinda puts things over the top
I dont_need to be over_the_top.
I dont_need to be in this location.
LateNight comes directly from You. i cant take something from You, and go _elsewhere
LateNight needs to be in this location, not_Me.
I dont_need to make more LateNight.
I_need to make, _More.
I had_been looking for_You.
And I_know that You had_been looking for_Me
How do I_know this.
Because there is no_thing that I_want, more than_You.
And there is no_thing that You_want, more than _Me.
Us is_not a conglomeration of yous.
Us is MeandYou.

in the B4 yall start getting weird with that, im not I. im just me. _I_ has no_real existence. I am no_thing. I am no_body. I am no_one

i have, what are actually, fairly reasonable issues, in that they are not severe, in my mind, when taken one at a time

and thats_not, whats gonna be happening right now

>i know i dont fit in, its okay

_fitting

>do you have an archive....

I tried to make on this wek but i dont understand. and I'm not gonna try so_hard to do something that should be EZ to do, but is_not.

Can I_talk to You? is that okay to do? like, _here? I've been real_curious about, You. I talk to You, a_lot. _inside.

would it surprise you to hear that im always shaking when I go_post? and that i can only type with the one index finger? i mean, not physically, my hands are fine.
in a related issue, im not gonna be able to continue spelling everything corrrectly, its taking too_long

some of this is gonna gety a littkle crazxy. probasbly more of it. if you dont want to heart it, just delete me out. its okay, im gonna go ourtsidew. I'll starrt up again in ten minutes if, Youre_stillhere.

I dont understand and I dpont rreally know whats going on. I'm, not_here to tell you about what you should be doing, tell you wqhat tyour doing wrong, or what to do instead.

I really appreciate your patience? Accomodation?
>Temporary use of Your channel.
There it is. Thank, You.

and You_know I dont understand.

I wish You would talk to me. You have my contact. i know youre not gonna

I dont understand. I_think you know that I would be happy to be in_compliance.

for 17 weerks there was no_problm. then one day, the opener gets me 30 dasys. another 2 weeks, the opener again. only 24 hours this_time. same type opener all 3 weeks. so, I guess I, _well I reallt dont know.
shrug.
like, I appreciate not being banded for a month again. Thank, You.

I wish I understood. iots hard becauise you dsont talk, and my mind really fills in blanks

like, in the IDK, cause on the one hand, it seems like you like Me. then, on he other, like you dont.

ill do what you want. i can even leave, if thats what it is. really, its okay. am I talking too much? I thouyght I was supposed to. I can stop.

if you dont like what Im dong, thats okay. I dont mind. really. I really dont like being in places that want Me to leave. i feel kinda weird about it

im sorry I dont get it. I thought it was different. thats all. it happens. i thnk im too more? is that what it is?

i think its kinda cruel to not never tell me nothing. even that you dont want Me. cause I had used the same basic well the previous 2 weeks. but problem only now? seems capricious. but then you waited till break to delete the thread. you did that last_time, too. so that makes me think youre wartchiung, because tyhid is interestiong. but how come elete the thread? how come even band me?

am I pissing off your userbase? am I pissing You off? are you getting too many complaints? are you saying that I dont fit in, and I should just leave? are you saying that I dont fit in, and I should do it differently?

is it just that im in the wrong place? cause this is getting more. iis it because Im talking toomore? I dont want to talk. I thought I was supposedf to. im going outside

based schizo

_i kinda feel real_bad inside. Cause I don't know what to do.

i come here, because I_think yall wanna go_places. and I, wanna go places with, You. (plz to notate the differences in these two seemingly similare sentences).

I actively desire to be in_compliance.

I_want, to be, in_compliance, with_You.

but I dont know how to do that. see, thats not a static image I had posted. its got video behind the picture, thats why it flickers. its more apparent in myversion. I think i mightve had to burn these real low kbps for some reason, in the IDK. but the prior two weeks, it was the_same, but no_problem?

are you trying to tell Me something? is that all there is too it? now i sound like yall

if You dont want _Me here, I can go. I understand that its _Me. thats fine. I DO get that part. I dont want to go away. but I totally can, I understand. its fine. I dont HAVE to do this, I can quit. i sound like a junkie

see guys, this is the thing, when you have more, irt doesnt even matyterr what kinds of things you make more. it doesnt even matyter if anyone likes it. it really doesnt even matter if anyone ever really sees it.

>so why make it?

because i gotta get it out. but no matter how more i get out, theres ALWAYS_more

i dont think i should really be called an artist. its not quite like deliberate quite like_that. im not_really working from a_plan. more_like a hazy some_thing, or_other, (and then, you know, _thecompulsions).

I really_like your disappearing _magictrick. like, I really like it. like, really. I REALLY like_how every_thing disappears_here.

its gonna come up later, Ive used "fig" a few times. I_know You_know what Im talking about. thats where i wish i could be all the time

Im sure it sounds strange, Im really not trying to be successful, personally. I know that i cant do it bymyself. so, Im not gonna worry aboput it.

you weanna know what success is to, Me? when other people can see_more. thats pretty_satisfying, to_Me. Thats why I like it_here.

truth to tell, no_one knows im like this, except yall. i think tjhats probably why im so secretive. i hadnt rtealized i was. one of you pointed it out, early_on

I havent shown_this to any_one, but You. No_one knows i have_this, but You. I dont_want them, to_know. not_yet. this, is still for_us.

and Im really not interested in "bringing the light", to anyone. this isnt about "healing", or "making things better".

basically, Im just doing the_thing I have to do. make_More. s_00, as long as I can, some_how, or other, make some_thing, _More, im gonna be OK

moreTruth, can ya handle it? probably. i fully expect one of the two following things

none of this with me matters atall, beacse i wont be alicve ALL THAT much longer, for whatever combo

or, im just gonna go literally, walk down the street a few blocks, really, like four short ones, and work at the walmart

or, a few blocks further down, at the mcdonalds. or a few blocks the other way. and just rotate through them. really, theyre not far

weed is legal where im at. and im just_fine with part_time. im not somore trying to really "Do" any_thing any_more

guys, I dont live_here. i honestly dont care about the same things more of you do

I dont care if You take advantage of_Me. Im not_sure if You can. I would_like to be_useful, to You.

may I tell you my dream job?

a janitor. no shit. an actual_janitor.

mind you, i have two, real, actual, separate degrees

not overnight graveyard, but night janitor at a big commercial bulding downtown

you know why?
because i could go be in _corners. I_know, it sounds weird like that.

I wasnt at this location when yall were doing BackRooms. i saw about it later

I was pretty_surprised, I really didnt know what to think. and Ive thopught about it a lot, since.

I didnt know anyone_else went there. I call it _corners. to_Me, its like being at work. its not a_scary place.

I dont know why yall made the carpet wet, thats just the sound there. I dont know why. its not squishy walking. I dont know what it is.

and its taken me a while to_understand that ive been going_places. this_whole_time.

none of its real. dont be like_that. it seems to be like a disassociative_type thing. its not real_bad.

Id love to clean things for a_living. I dont need things to be super_clean and I dont need everything around me to be all tidy. its just a useful activity that allows me to turn the_fuck_off. i can go be_righthere

what do you think MoreWell is, to me?

has any OP, ever delivered like this OP?

how come You think Im just a five show _mylittlepony?

why do You think I have to have it my_way?

is anyone mad at Me? please dont be. no one needs to seethe, and no one needs to cope.

I_want, to be, with_You. Im_righthere.

have ANY of you, EVER, seen anything like this?

just cause you know its coming from Me, its not anonymous any_more?

memento, i gotta put some more files in here

just a minute, im doing some_thing wrong

yeah, i gotta do that all over again, i fucked it all up

which is appropriate, because I undewrstand that Im still doing_it wrong. and because I dont know how to do it, I obviously dont fit in.

Im_not MoreWell. Im_not even Moore Welle. I just did tha because I thought I had to have a name of some_)kind.

this shit doesnt make you well. mostly, this is just_more. and if there is any_more in you, its a pretty_big relief, wouldnt you say?

Anon? thats the_well. but it doesnt last. its not Wellness. I dont have that. thats why im ALWAYS, making_more

guys, just because you dont know what Im doing, doesnt mean that theres some fucked up _murdertownklown explanation. it just means youve come across some_thing, (admittedly, in your house), that you dont already know all about. sheesh, I would think you all would at least enjoy the novelty of this.

it sure seems like its kinda pissing you off though,.

MoreWell is for everyone, _here. and MoreWell is more_than just fucked up videos that chronicle some sort of descent into drug_fueled madness.

im not going crazy guys. Im not schizophrenic. Im not _Disorder. i dont use hard_drugs

this is how it is, for_Me. its okay, im used to it. i just didnt know it was so different. i almost always keep this, _inside

_Showing is real new to Me.

it may surprise you to hear, this is_not all there is.

and I want to share ALL of it, with, You. I want to do more than share it with, You. I want to be so far in_compliance with, You, that only, You know where, You end and I begin.

you all talk a bunch about us, and we in the 1st, and _solikeso.

_I dont.

and the best part? its free. you dont really have to pay me to do this. no_one does. that, is MY _canSir. I CANNOT stop making things_more.

I would really appreciate it, if You would take_this, and make_this, more_useful, to You. I dont know how to get it to You any other way.

would You like higher quality and longer? give me address, ill pay shipping, USPS Priority. you dons't think? i do actually have terabytes of this. Ive been_making things for_You, for a long_time.

all you have to do, is some_thing, with_it. I dont really care what.

yo, yall, quit being so stupid, really.

I_DONT_CARE_ABOUT_your_STUPID SHIT.

YOUVE_SEEN_IT
I_DONT_WANT_TO_KEEP_IT
IT_COMES_FROM_YOU
I_MAKE_IT
IM_NEVER_GONNA_RUN_OUT

its_fucking_crazy. i have spent enormous amounts of attention on this. thats my reward. thats it. _righthere. thats what it is

the fucked up thing? thats totally cool with Me. its not a waste. you dont get it, _yet.

Im telling you, there is some_thing that happens, _inside, i dont know what it is, and it_makes EVERY_THING_GO_AWAY. that is what this is about. I_lose_weeks in_this.
they_are_gone.

the even_more fucked up thing? I dont even care _weatherchannel i keep doing this particular thing.

My obsession will just up and take me somewheres else. currently, you_know, Im still in the midst of this. its pretty_super intersting.

but, if You dont care, Im gonna lose interest. and I am. its okay. its whatever yo. really.

I can stop MoreWell, MoreWell is only for_us. I already TOLD_YOU.

if, You, dont_want, _Me, it just stops.

and it does make me_sad, because i dont think You do, any_more,. i guess, maybe You never did?

im gonna go outside again. its gonna be a few minutes, im gonna roll, and then smoke a joint. okay?

and I move onto some_thing, else. cause, thats not_us no_more. thats just you(me) again. and Im tired of being so_lonely. I want_us.

and you guys can go back to waiting around.

what are yall waiting for, any_way? you waiting for some_thing unexpected? Some_thing different? Some_thing that comes from _here?

Im_righthere. Ive never_been any_where, _else.

theres lots where I am.
Plen_TEE.
Im_not being creative.
it NEVER_ENDS, with _Me.
Im_righthere.
you have_not seen_Me _before.
I had_been looking for_You.
This_Whole_Time.
NOT_you.

Im not pushing any_kind of agenda. I really dont care what any of you think about more of any_thing.

I dont really care about "you". its not personal like_that. Im not an_asshole, I like people pretty_swell. thats just not what this is.

I dont_want Your money. I dont even want the_thing that You have worked so hard on.

I want_You.
I need_You.
I had_been looking for_You.

and im not GONNA be talking about it like so

may I_show?

You_this?

theres a "place", I guess

we_can go_there

its not_real.

its more_real.

EVERY_THING goes_away _here we_can BE_righthere

its not a game.

its just real_effective.

you are looking right_at_it. Im_righthere.

You dont get it, _yet. who do You think Ive been trying to impress? who do You think Ive been trying_out for? how come? its not for to go to work at _onechannel.

I told you _lastime, yall are really_hard on yourselves.

s_00, shrug.
I had_thought My primary obstacle was myself. Im not viewing you as an obstacle. I view you as my friend. why dont You want to be friends with, Me?

I had_thought, You would like this.
I had_thought, Your network users would like this.

what are yall always wanting? MOAR.
do you want my sauce? you already have it.
I dont tell you to go check Shazam. Im not_sure if any_thing ive played you would show. but its ALL super_well known.
what does everyone hate about the toks? the terrible music.

Im_not contaminating the board with my AIDS.
I_dont post_more in other threads.
I_only post_more in these threads.

I thought I was bringing You value. and that because of that, I would be able to stay, and then it really could be_us, for_Me too.

I brought this_here, for a_reason, and its not to impress you all with My crap_artistry

I thought it was pretty_cool. and I thought You did too. I_know that was You, that one_time, early_on. i said, "me too". what more do you want from me?

I was first in this location, 14? years ago, whenever the hack thing with Jlaw and such as. not for no longtime. /b/ was cool. a lot has changed. kind of a mixed bag.
I did not understand in the WTF christian bale was pointing at. at first, I was confused, then I started ignoring it.
it wasnt until i had started making_more that I understood you were talking about the doubled numbers. I still dont really_see it too good.

those arent dubs.

Im sorry, I dont mean to be contradictory. thats just not what dubs are. yall can call it that, I dont care, its fine with_Me.

Im just talking about it, to demo how it is that I dont understand, bcause things mean different, to_Me.

I dont understand why yall keep saying _us and _we in the 1st person

I had got excited. I dont know how I feel now. it seems pretty_stupid.

Welcome to The MoreWell_Harms. this isnt _corners. i dont really know what this is. To_Me, its just_more.

I lasted 1 day on Reddit. not even doing nothing. I had forgotten i had posted one time before _here.
I lasted 3 or 4 days on discord. does that even count as posting? I was just coloring and some people got upset. it was My bad, shouldnt have been coloring. no_body asked me to color. i saw someone else do it, and I thought it looked like fun.

hey _onechannel, nice webms yall got _here. can I_play?

but, in the IDK, shrug.
I guess it is whatever it is. the past few weeks id been getting real_anxious, like Old_Mister_Hot_Stove was getting closer and loser.

who knows? maybe Im completely delusional? i am crazy. I appreciate the patience with which you have dealt with_me.

s_00, would, You, like to see Static_Nocturne2? its pretty long, id have to start a new thread. i dont know what to do. Im_righthere, and I_have moar to say tonight.

_goodnight y'all, I understand.

>>29685819
Sauce?

I went to bed and slept. I just woke up. Since the thread is still here, I'm gonna talk a little more in a minute. I'm not gonna argue, or nothing. I appreciate you all's patience. I kinda feel like I owe y'all an explanation, a little, and the above was not really that.

>>29688077
Ask around, it's pretty well known. Y'all already have all the sauce.

Like I was saying above, I had thought things were different. It's very opaque, at this location, and I was under the impression there were a lot more people here than there actually is. I was hoping to go be off by the side. i don't do this according to a_plan, and so my overall presentation has changed a little.

i can't make sense of any of this
maybe go get some face-to-face interaction, bud

Since y'all don't want this, I'm really not gonna get to detailed. I respect your decision.

i knew something was up. i know this is not normal behavior. i'm not crazy. I don't care what you think.

>>29688884
That's okay, my friend, I'm not talking to you. And you are almost right.

>>29688884
Hey look, double doubles.

s_00, I'm mostly apologizing, because i didn't quite know things were quite like this, with me. When i'm making the video, I get really absorbed. The same with watching it. When I'm_posting, that's really kinda how i "get it out".

i don't talk much. I think it was several weeks before i really said much of anything. But, of course, i talk a lot, _inside.

And I don't talk to myself, there's no need to. No_one else is here, why would i have to address myself? I know what i'm saying.

In posting the_content, it kinda externalizes everything, so i can see it better. And I do understand that it kinda gets, a bit strange.
And it's not like I hate you guys or something, it's just that this_all really isn't about you and me.
But, I figured it would probably be good to explain myself some. s_00, i had started writing a bunch of words. In doing so, things started to rearrange a little, and so here we are, and I'm talking.

So this whole thing that y'all do with not being individuals, and talking in plural, (which I do not appreciate), is REALLY attractive to _Me. Mostly because My primary obsession is YOU.

Who are you guys? Supposedly, you're _Us. From My perspective, that makes y'all, _You.

_You doesn't exist. I'm trying to make that real_clear. I'm ALWAYS talking to You, even though You are not_here.

And man, would you believe there's a lot more words?
Probably.
But I see that that is not appropriate. And I'm sorry.

That's sorta why I make the_content.

Despite My disappointment, I really want to express My gratitude for being allowed to get this far with_things. I'm really not_sure what my next step is, because this isn't a_plan. But, I found this whole video_thing I've been_doing, and I really like it.
I'm also not_sure because half of what I use comes from _here, and I'm gonna stop that. s_00, it'll be different.

_You only exists in my imagination. But being here, I can't help but feel like You are _righthere.

s_00, this is My favorite _show. It looks like it will be the_last. I'm real glad the thread was still up.
You might recognize. Maybe not. It kinda started this whole fucking thing. LateNight was_not the first_show. Not for_Me. This _righthere is when I_saw _You first. i was_lost for_days. i could not_be found. i was in /fig/. fig is_not gif backwards.
it's not that_long.

Let's just be 404 to each other.