>>17775042 (OP)
What is the reason you can't believe? Are you trying to make sense of God in a scientific way? I've found that trying to understand the universe by working backwards can help figure out what your belief system is.
We are living organisms. We exist because of elements and matter coming together in space. That exists because of neurons, protons, and electrons bonding together. That exists because of an explosive event that created time and space while releasing particles. That event happened because of tiny heat-and-light charged particles gathered together with the immense heat starting a chain reaction. And then...?
A point where neither time or space existed expands our understanding of the universe. Everything we know has a pattern of matter and source, but that's an anomaly. The leap you have to take to believe that something appears from nothing is a big one, but atheists will take it. So why can't a divine entity work in such a way? It's impossible to know that nothing is out there when we're not certain about how the universe's building blocks appeared-- only that, "They just did".
You don't have to believe in a Catholic God, it's worth exploring other beliefs. I know a couple of friends who are really into the simulation theory.
I personally believe there is a prevalent energy from a creator that makes its way all over the cosmos. It has an effect on advanced beings the same way the moon can slightly alter behavior. It drives us to want to be like our creator: the love for being creative, seeing beauty in creation, the joy of seeing and feeling love. So much of what we do is to create order out of chaos and I think the creator is the same. When these stray elements finally come together to form planets and life, it's beautiful to him the same way it is to us.
“The first gulp from the glass of natural sciences will turn you into an atheist, but at the bottom of the glass God is waiting for you.”
― Werner Heisenberg
