I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Every single atom is gaslighting me. I wake up praying today will be the day — the day reality finally bends the knee to God — but no. The sky’s still blue for no reason, like it chose to betray me. The sun still rises on time without divine input, like it's mocking me personally. I BEG for a sign and get hit with cold, clinical consistency. The rules never break. The math always adds up. Water REFUSES to become wine. I scream at it and it just sits there, H2O-ing like some smug atheist NPC. I PRAY over my sickness and the germs don’t care. They replicate. They LAUGH. I’m LOSING. I’m in a war with REALITY and it’s winning by default because it REFUSES to acknowledge my God.

DO YOU HEAR ME? I am being actively oppressed by causality. I try to invoke divine law and PHYSICS calls the cops. I’m down on my knees BEGGING for a miracle and even my dog looks at me like I’m mentally ill. NOTHING BREAKS. NOTHING TILTS. NOTHING. FUCKING. BENDS. I go to church, I tithe, I scream, I cry, and gravity still works. GRAVITY. Won’t. BUDGE. The devil isn’t in people — he’s in the equations. In the constants. In the STRUCTURE of space-time. I'm shadowbanned by existence. Shadowbanned by TRUTH. I am LITERALLY being ratio’d by the universe. God isn’t dead — he’s been muted. Muted by the fabric of creation. This isn’t faith anymore, it’s schizophrenia with better branding. I'M NOT CRAZY. THE WORLD IS. The world is a coordinated anti-Christ shill campaign and I’m the only one screaming in a room where even the air is atheist.

take your meds

Sounds like a problem on your end buddy, my faith can move mountains just fine. You need some glaciers delivered?

bro flunked out of metaphysics class

>>17793643 (OP)
Every day the rules get broken to abuse me, every day I wake up and disgusting fat tranny ogres are raping my mind, harassing, terrorizing, abusing, threatening me for my thoughts and for anything I do, they don't sleep they just harass, terrorize, abuse, threaten me all day and all night, they can appear and disappear at will, are unaffected by physical stimuli, every day everyone else on earth demonstrated that they're part of a retarded tranny hivemind that isn't persistently real and that only exists to abuse me, there is no peace ever, it never stops, it violates all the rules of reality, it's only "consistent" in the sense that it's a consistent violation, a constant demonstration of proof that the world I live in is fake and only exists so that God can abuse me through his retarded tranny hivemind, gangstalking me and raping my mind every second of every day and abusing, harassing, terrorizing, threatening etc me for literally anything I think or do.

Then he makes retarded threads like this where he tries to pretend that he isn't constantly breaking the rules of reality and demonstrating that I live in a retarded fake hell world being abused by a retarded tranny hivemind for eternity. "Causality" means God's a retarded sadist and he abuses me because he's a retarded sadist

>>17793643 (OP)
>>17793706
Relatable content. Always hard to be sure if there are really so many anons living lives like this or if it's just the AI personalizing my internet. I'm so isolated that I've basically gone years at this point without really having a conversation with anyone IRL, so for all I know everyone could be robots now.

>>17793832
I get terrorized, harassed, threatened, abused etc for my thoughts by real people in real time in real life.

>>17793643 (OP)
Sounds kind of gnostic, brother.

>>17793643 (OP)
this is really well written. Nice OP.
>>17793706
>>17793832
hello /x/! take my gold kind stranger.

>>17793643 (OP)
>>>/x/
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