>>17834456 (OP)I can't never unsee how it's just the same materials of any other human being configured in a different manner. She is exactly what my ex is, skin, hair, eyes, etc and the moment I become familiar with her it would become normal every day life, the novelty would last very shortly until it turns into normalcy and eventually into a burden that only weighs my mind down with more problems. All the skin to skin contact, the close looking, there is nothing to it, the friction, it's all mere infatuation that turns into normalcy and then even into dependence since one becomes used and accustomed to it so if it goes missing it's felt as a loss when it was never required in the first place. And that's externally. Internally we are all equally disgusting, but we chose to ignore that.