>>2676527
Maybe, like me, you were molested.
Happend to me by a way older cousin at 5.
Memories only came back two decades later when his now ex-wife accused him of showing porn to his kids in court papers. Then it all came back suddenly to my brain. Where in the room it happend, the sun shining through the windows, how he said he’ll take me to the arcade as a reward, he was wearing jeans, comments I made to my parents thereafter that they brushed off, etc.
All memories shut away until the accusations of his wife.
Gayism is contagious, anon. But totally treatable. Steer your mind and free time in healthy pursuits.