>>211731704 (OP)
You stare at people for too long. You don't talk enough. You don't talk about the right subjects. You ask odd and often off-topic questions. Or you don't ask them at the right time. You seem like you're not sure when to engage with people. Or where to stand in general. And the way you dress or take care of your face is also specific and out of the norm. It always seems like you're trying to process things. And nobody is really sure if you understand what they're talking about when they talk to you, because you seem to be processing a ton of things all at once, and that hinders in your ability to understand even the most basic of things. Also an oddly poor hand/eye coordination.
>>211732128
That's how it goes. Even if OP one day gains specific skills that will make put him out of the norm, he'll never be assimilated. His best bet in life is going from seemingly (and possibly actually) dysfunctional as a whole to simply dysfunctional socially speaking.
>>211731864
Autism basically >you seem to be processing a ton of things all at once, and that hinders in your ability to understand even the most basic of things.
I think it's weird realizing that normies don't process things. like most of the time normies are capable of just unconsciously replying to something wiithout any thought
>>211731704 (OP) >work
oh no, i'm competent at work - been told by many that when i'm around, it's all smooth sailing >home
when i live alone, i'm actually at my best - when i stay at my parents though, that's another story
it's like something in this house just turns me into an incel loner freak, i try to get out of the house as much as i can these days