Thread 211863524

what are the root causes of your failure in life in your country?
mine are my abusive mother and the advent of Internet

anxiety but arguably this is one of the best countries to live with it

while im far, far from perfect myself i feel like my life got fucked over specific tragedies out of my control. like people will say cope but i got fucked over so hard its just insanely unlucky. theres 0 fucking way i deserved all this shit happening to me. though i never expected the world to be fair. but my life has been hell for 7 years now. i wish i could go back in time or just have someone kill me i dont really fucking care anymore

>>211863663
>my life got fucked over specific tragedies out of my control
nothing ever is in our control. there’s no free will

>>211863524 (OP)
A selfish, absent but emotionally abusive, alcoholic father who sold every chance I could have had in life for a few more bottles of vodka. I am a Mercedes left to rust outside that's also used occasionally as a toilet.

>>211863524 (OP)
I wish I had spent less time caring about what internet people think.

>>211863663
Mind to share?

>>211863524 (OP)
Being brought up in an environment where there are fucking obnoxious loud retards with no empathy surrounding me on all sides so I can't develop in peace and need constant coping mechanisms to not have pounding pressure in my head. Parents not teaching me anything or giving me any confidence. Specific interests that don't align with the rest of society.

>>211863524 (OP)
being born a poorfag

>>211863524 (OP)
Untreated adhd

>>211863524 (OP)
being short and having skinnyfat posture

>>211864574
Corona o algo
Single handedly fucked up whole humanity

>>211864574
a mix of covid, cancer, unluckyness and many other factors. i genuinely dont understand how i got in this situation. im not a saint but i never fucked anyone over or anything like that. i wont elaborate too much because it depresses me too much. but man, fuck i wish i was never born

>>211863524 (OP)
COVID pandemic. It fucked up my middle school years and now I'm retarded because I didn't learn anything for like 2 years straight.

>>211865501
underage

>>211863524 (OP)
self sabotage, I am slowly unfucking myself from my predicament but in my teens and early 20s I missed out on a whole lot of social milestones because I thought that being a brooding edgetard was cooler than socializing with others my age. It also didn't help that I chose to surround myself with like minded people who encouraged me to act like this, including my best "friend" (at that time) who was a benzo addict. This was high school by the way

>>211865517
im 18, unc

a faggot rape i suffered as a child has messed up my head
have a girlfriend of two years but it's hard to forget it.

>>211866154
>but it's hard to forget it
did you like it though?

>>211863524 (OP)
being a fucking loser

>>211863524 (OP)
I think God got the wiring wrong in my head and given I had 2 other siblings my defects simply got ignored

>>211863524 (OP)
Internet and porn addiction perhaps...

>>211863524 (OP)
isolating myself from the world to sit on the computer since the age of 10

>>211863524 (OP)
My parents being soft and retarded in every single way. No matter what I did or happened, they found ways to fuck me up.
>had me "play" with some neighborhood kids older than me; they beat me up until I told on them and then the one's crazy mother came and started banging the door to the point the police came in
>begged them to take me for piano lessons until they did; I was so good I could play just by hearing, but they took me out of it after a year so that I "wouldn't turn into a fag"
>a friend who was a psychiatrist begged them to take me there for a few sessions (probably clocked the 'tism) but dad refused because "fags do that"
To mention it here because it's a recurring theme, my dad was a very light-skinned white-blonde nerd who grew up in 'Stralya and was bullied his whole life in Greece, so he became an extra tough biker who toured the entirety of Europe. He likes photography and has fashion advice, but he's eternally schizo because he has to hide his true self under faux-machisimo.
>took me to various sports that I sucked at
>spent a year at basketball until they came to see me at a game where I was so bad that all the other parents made fun of me; they left and when I went back home alone they told I'd stop going there
>dad's friend took over my elementary class and stopped teaching, went on strike for months, made us sing instead of taking classes, so I had major gaps the next year and they hired private tutors
>from then on my tutors did everything until senior high so I never learned to study (it's a Greek thing, it'd take time to explain)
>mum made me stop hanging out with my oldest friend because he turned into a faux-degenerate, so he got mad, but because he was in the school board he basically made me a pariah and I had no friends for the entirety of senior high and teachers thought I was a school shooter
It goes on, but the pattern is that they fuck up everything. I know that personally I am an evil person, but they just crippled me.

>>211863524 (OP)
Evil horny milfs. No, I will not elaborate

fell for the weed meme, now i have fucking brain damage

>>211868436
>begged them to take me for piano lessons until they did; I was so good I could play just by hearing, but they took me out of it after a year so that I "wouldn't turn into a fag"
Should've told them that even spartans played the flute before the battles

>>211869120
I was not even 8 anon, how would I've known that or argued it? I slavishly followed whatever they wanted. I begged them for books and they'd never buy me anything. I had a big mythology book and an old Robinson Crusoe and 20,000 Leagues with ripped pages that I found in the storage room. I'd read them over and over again because I had nothing else. I asked for books with dragons and the only book they ever bought me was about some Chinese dragon and some little poverty stricken girl that was part x of y series or something. My mother had a library filled with things like Garcia Marquez and Paohlo Coehlo, then accused me of never being interested in reading when she wouldn't even buy me the Odyssey. It's a miracle they let me buy comic books at least... It's why I'm very attached to capeshit, much as I hate it now, it's always been my only friend.

The piano thing stings the most, personally. I had genuine talent there. Not enough to be a professional or anything, but it was something I liked and was good at. Through it I'd have learned discipline and to study myself, I'd have made different friends, everything would've been different. I'd have had a hobby that I was good at. I would've been complete. Now all I've got is... nothing. Everything went wrong.

The Jews and their demoralization tactics made me an incel

>>211865452
>but i never fucked anyone over or anything like that
life has no meaning anon. you are not special just because you got those illnesses, nor were you specifically targeted
it just was and that's it

>>211863524 (OP)
Autism

severe social anxiety that i developed out of nowhere in middle school

>>211863524 (OP)
>blaming others
wack
>blaming yourself
hmmm
>blaming no one
facts

shit happens, man

>>211863524 (OP)
I was the last child of 4 and i think they just gave up and let me raise myself and do whatever I wanted.

>>211869932
>blaming everyone

>>211870134
Based

>>211866863
no it still sucks.
i was sexually assaulted by a teacher i followed

>>211863524 (OP)
being born comes to mind