Everyone check in, how we all doin', bros?

7 or 8.

I’m sure you could go past 3 into the higher levels of suffering and not immediately jump to suicide ideation

>>211991698 (OP)
Have never gotten more than 3 in my life. There's too many things I want to do before I die.

write a note to whom

Never been higher than 2. There is nothing worth stressing about.

>>211991698 (OP)
I fluctuate from 5 to 8 depending on various factors

>>211991698 (OP)
i’m somewhere between 7 and 8

>>211991698 (OP)
I've been at 10 about a decade ago and went to the hospital twice because of it, but right now I'm at 4 like a wholesome adult

>>211991829
You can tell the person that made this is more of an attention seeker. It's rare for succesful suicides to be planned, usually it's impulsive. If someone is writing a note it's because they want a person they are angry at to read it and feel bad, 9/10 times.

>>211991698 (OP)
3.

9 desu. wanted to buy a gun but i looked online and apparently the gun stores near me don't actually sell guns.

>>211992236
dont do but just saying if you do end up doing make sure to use a shot gun and go for the brain stem. I've been too many videos of poor fuckers blowing their faces/frontal lobes off and still being alive. I wouldn't want that to happen to anybody ever, unimaginable horror

>>211991698 (OP)
feel like garbage most days but i dont ever think of acking myself. i guess i am at a perpetual 2 but with extreme destructive habits like [REDACTED], overeating and substance abuse

>>211992263
this desu
i had a buddy in high school who drove out to a parking lot late at night, parked, shot himself in the head with a 9mm. when they found him the next morning, he was in fact dead, but the autopsy showed he initially survived the shot and sat there for the next five-six hours completely alive

>>211991698 (OP)
I'm usually at 5

>>211992263
>>211992379
what if i just lied down on some train tracks?

>>211992606
Wouldn't do much, you need the train itself to complete the mission

I'm feeling homicidal

I'm not suicidal but I laugh at the mess that death cultist made.

>>211991698 (OP)
i am always between a 6 and a 7
today it is a 7:(

>>211992236
do the Japanese method. No mess and sure death.
1. barbeque, water, clothes, vacuum room.
2. seal any air vents/openings in the room using duct tape and wet towel/clothes
3. lit the barbeque next to your bed
4. sleeping pill and sleep away
5. prepare to be isekai'd
6. done!

>>211992606
you could be also consider the potential trauma you may give the driver

>>211991698 (OP)
2 or 3 depending on the day.

>>211992887

>>211991698 (OP)
6-7 for the past two years, very rarely 8

>>211991698 (OP)
I have nothing but contempt for the suicidal. If you are going to off yourselves, you should least make the attempt to bring one of your tormentors along with you

>>211992638
This. I am more angry than I am sad and I don't want to die knowing my enemies get to live and have fun.

>>211993095
based

>>211993095
people are pretty nice to me desu and most people like me irl. I am my own tormentor

>>211991698 (OP)
I was once at 9, recently I was at 6, now I'm at 4 and normally I'm at 3

>>211991698 (OP)
Around 4 and 5
I have thought about it so many times but I know deep down I will never do it. It's like a coping mechanism I guess

>>211991829
yeah this is retarded

>>211993934
this
its nobodys fault but my own that im like this

>>211991698 (OP)
i fear death more than living, it shakes me to the core every day, so badly that i cant even live happy
sometimes its so bad and i feel so sure that im about to imminently die that its like a 9 where im desperately trying to get ahold of emergency services and someone who will help me and say my goodbyes
then the feeling passes
ptsd does weird shit to the brain

>>211991698 (OP)
Roll

>>211992174
The only times I thought of writing a note was in high school or sometimes when thinking of my family. But the planning aspect just puts me off for a while.
Every time I get severely depressed I get urges instead. For a good five minutes I want to jump out of the window, drive into opposite traffic or jump on the train tracks. The thought gets really strong then it fades away. It's bursts like this that seem really dangerous to me. If someone is really doing badly I can imagine just giving in.
My family has a history of suicides and it always turned out this way. Guy seems fine, then something happens and he goes straight to killing himself. No note or anything, no clue.

>>211991698 (OP)
Never been above 3 or below 7 at my very worst. I can't really relate to this though. There's something in this picture that feels very alien to me.

>>211991698 (OP)
psyop