>>212501278 (OP)i have sent probably 500 applications in the past 15 or so months. i have had 5 final interviews, i was rejected by 5.
I had a final interview last week and am waiting to hear back if i got the job. I had a phone interview last week that I believe will turn into a final interview this week
this entire time i have been working at my job that i absolutely hate. i hate every single second of my life at it. i hate the work, i hate the team, i don't like the company. i want to kill myself
last week i finally put in my 2 weeks notice and will quit, whether i have a new job or not. i just can't do it anymore
this next week or 2 will either be the best weeks of my recent life with a new job offer, or I will be disappointed again and probably kill myself
i can't keep doing this. i can't keep getting rejected but i just can't keep working at my current job
i might be dead a month from now or i might have a new job. there's really no in-between anymore