in your country?

>>212624210 (OP)
i play video games and find respite in knowing there are bigger losers than me by looking at lolcows on 4chan and kiwifarms

>>212624240
do you play alone or with friends

I often open steam and stare at my catalog for hours imagining all the games I could play with friends if I had friends

>>212624210 (OP)
doomscroolllll

>>212624210 (OP)
The fact of the matter is, if you're not willing to kill yourself you have no choice but to accept it.
>what if you become successful tho
the ambitious are even more insecure than me, they chafe at their doomed existence reaching for some coping form of immortality as though it'll make the dirt they're inevitably laid in any less cold.

>>212625660
>if you're not willing to kill yourself
I really wish I was. I've thought about it a lot, I was fixing to do it 5-6 years ago, but I just couldn't work up the courage. How does one make it happen? Objectivelly I really should kill myself. There is nothing. This life is worthless. Waste of space and time.

>>212624278
i play gacha games and league of legends, all other games like singleplayer rpgs etc i just buy and then never play

>>212624210 (OP)
I dress up as a girl and specially search for taller, richer and more successful men with girlfriends and wifes to tell me they are better than me and force me to repeat it until they cum on my face. Preferably they should also be recent migrants with German spouses.

>>212624210 (OP)
l theanine
lithium

>>212625843
how do people even get into moba like LoL or DotA? were you an early adopter? it seems like the ideal time sink, everybody who plays these can put thousands upon thousands of hours into them

I have accepted that I can never be happy in civilization. I need to escape into the woods
This may be the worst period in the history of the human race

>>212624210 (OP)
Alcohol.

>>212624210 (OP)
I've never felt that way. Ok, I have. Once. When I had a kidney stone and was pissing blood before I knew it was a kidney stone. That was deep despair.
Other than that, I'm pretty happy with life.

>>212626052
autistic friends in hs got me to play with them in like 2015, i thought it was boring as fuck and garbage for the first few months but wanted to have a common hobby/timewaster with them, then i got the brain virus and now i play it constantly in a love/hate relationship

>>212626118
>even getting into nolifer timewaste games requires having friends
owari da

>>212625811
I had the same problem and I have no answer; now it's too late, people depend on me.
I suppose strong enough anti-psychotics might get rid of your self preservation drive. I've seen a few people get driven to suicide by the helping hand of psychiatry, but I doubt it's that reliable and if you don't have the nuts to tie a knot and use it I doubt getting heavy duty psych drugs is any more on the table for you. As I said, the answer is nothing. Live a slow death, like me.

Men don't have feelings

>>212626268
you're not a woman
>>212626265
I live on the 5th floor so I just need 30 seconds of bravery. Spent some evenings just staring at the window trying to work up to it.

>>212626268
It's certainly in the interest of nations to believe that. The results are predictable.

>>212626314
Death is never far, access is hardly the issue.

>>212626360
do antipsychotics really help? how? when I stare at the window now there's a knot in my chest that stops me going through but sometimes it feels like it's barely there, that I can almost do it