>>212955465
Basically it's when you're 8-9 years old and you're watching television and suddenly there's a cartoon episode where the protagonist gets transformed into a girl
Suddenly the idea of becoming a girl is the most interesting thing in the world
It's like living in a black and white world and suddenly the television turns on and it's in bright, radiant colour
It's like imagining yourself winning the lottery and thinking about all the things you'll do with that money or how you'd get to relieve your teenage years and correct every mistake you made but 100 times more intense
You love that episode but you don't really know why and every time you're exposed to the idea of becoming a girl you feel the exact same way, it's addictive
Then puberty begins and your first sexual thoughts are about having a female body
You experience the idea of transforming into a girl again but this time it's sexual, you feel aroused
Eventually you encounter the idea of having a female body, being seen as a woman by men, being pursued by men, having sex with men and it's extremely addictive and erotic, the most erotic thing imaginable
As you grow up your sexuality is almost entirely centered around fantasies of being a girl
You stayed at your grandparents house during school holidays and your grandmother taught you to knit because they don't have an internet connection and are giving you $20 each day as an allowance, more than you've received per week
Your friends find out and they laugh and say that that's girly and it's impossible to suppress the ridiculous smile which your mouth is contorting into and a profound bliss fills your mind