Thread 213609438

I am alone. I am hurting. I am experiencing very bad things. I can't escape this. I've been trying for many years. More than a decade. I was being tortured since my early childhood. I live in different reality and can't connect to anyone. Others are too different with different experience and soul parameters.
I know there's no sense in craving help from the outside, you have to do it yourself. I know that it works like that. But I can't fucking resist the desire of being saved by an angel. I don't think I can do it alone. I've tried so much. But I can't. I wish there would be a human being for me. But this world is very cood.

>>213609438 (OP)
Given all this, what do you think about your parents?

>>213609536
Negative, sad emotions.

>>213609571
Can you elaborate? Do you blame them? Should you? Do you think they deserve forgiveness if so?

>>213609610
I don't like blaming people for my problems, but looking at the whole picture through true lense, my life was pretty much decided by my fucked up family. I was blaming myself for so many years for being in such state, but honestly there's just nothing I could do about it with so much stuff ruining my psyche and soul forever.
I don't know if they deserve forgiveness. I pity them and have resentment for them at the same time. They are very sick and unhappy people. There was lots of tragedy in my family tree.

Read Zhuangzi

>>213609834
It’s just a pity to be alive at all, right? A joke that we have to live out such worthless non lives. If this were I game I’d have given up on this aborted thread of fate and reloaded an earlier save.

You’re life was probably way more ducked than mine, yet I still feel such resentment at my own milder life-ruiners since I feel, for me, they were similarly insurmountable. Oh well. At least Vivaldi I good I guess.

>>213609834
Do you think you deserve justice?

>>213609438 (OP)
I'm sorry you went through bad things, my friend. I wish I could help you in some way

you need latina in your life

>>213609834
Oh, and I know it doesn’t really help, but do know that there are people who suffer like you; some more, some less, let all like you, even if the rules of this shitty world prevent us from being able to truly understand and sympathise with one another.

try to understand why are you like, learn psychological defense mechanisms and detect yours and adapt the healthy ones. schema therapy is also useful. you might need drugs so go to dr for that.

socializing is good for mental health btw. push yourself even if its feel bad right now.

>>213610061
I don't know, maybe there's anger inside me that wants justice, but honestly I don't know really. I just want a healthy brain and soul. It's just I can't describe in a ways I hurt. I know there are people who suffer, but my stuff is different and I can't connect with them. To a degree we are much closer with depressed people with broken lives, but on a major note I am still alien in my suffering and almost never read anything relatable.
>>213610107
Nah dude, I am completely dead inside. I'm the most boring depressed guy on earth. And I am a sexual failure in so many senses, I could never satisfy a latina, both sexually and emotionally.

>>213610373
Please, give us more context. What bothers you most?

>>213610531
I can't explain what's going on with me all these years

I will try sleep now. See you all tomorrow.

>>213610718
Why can't you explain? Do you not know or is there something preventing you? Good night either way man take it easy

>>213609438 (OP)
Why aren't you at the front defending your cuntry loser?

>>213609438 (OP)
You and me, we're quite similar

>>213613236
sent this freak spinning

boohoo nigga shut the fuck up

>>213613236
why aren't you?