>>213645136 (OP)
you know what's weird as a kid i never believed in anything. sure i went to church and was raised in it but everything was done through fear. I feared evryone turnign my arm if i didnt kneel right or paddlign me in the parking lot after church. i would constantly pester my parents as a little toddler autist and ask them why people didnt just kill themselves since life is meaningless and i asked them why we visited grandma is she was gunna die soon
but i think as i got older and less edgy once i left elementary school since my parents got less and less intimidating and i was no longer fearful of them beating me or cutting me but of me listening the void and doing it to them
now as an adult i understand that all morality derives from fear. fear of pain or death or shame or whatever and even if 'God' isn't real it doesn't make a difference because fear, war, etc... are still there. even if there wasn't a bible passage by father could point at to why the cane he used was the proper size he would fine something else the economy wouldn't change, my mother be a zombie of her parents wouldn't change, it would be all the same, you could say jesus made you do it, the devil, reason, justice, truth whatever it doesn't matter, your still going to knock the teeth out of that kid and feel better for it because your always right your the father, your god whatever you want to call yourself if you couldn't find someone saying your doing it right you'll find someone who will, a noble lie to show that your a killer not a murderer and your a executioner not a killer and your justice not an executioner. your waltz all the way down the thesaurus of ideas until your satisfied, print it, sign it and cross your heart. and anything less or more then that and your just kidding yourself. whatever yo want to call that, Satan? memetics? the devil? God? materialism? Goddess? fate? cycles? apocalypses? nothing? something? , I don't give a rats ass. it all tastes the same in the end