Thread 213650313

Tried killing myself once. I don't live in the usa, so I couldn't just blow my brains out. Tried overdosing on medicine. Didn't work.
Woke up 7 days later inside a quasi-asylum. Full of mentally ill people. There was one near the big iron door, saying to a staff lady that her husbanding is waiting for her and she needs to go, and that he only left her there for a while, but he was back now. Obviously that wasn't true, he probably got tired of her and put her there. Or maybe he never even existed.
Later they strapped her to her bed. Not because she was dangerous or anything, just because she dared annoy the staff. She started screaming and all.
Everybody was like that there. Mentally ill people left to rot. Severely mistreat by everyone there. Swallowing their placebo pills.
I got out of there after the doctor realized I wasn't that crazy, but I doubt anyone there has left since.
Sad place. Sad world.

>>213650313 (OP)
woah thats crazy. Have you tried watching some movies or read books instead.

>>213650313 (OP)
What’s wrong

Who found you after you overdosed? Was it your parents?

>>213650313 (OP)
i had a brief stint working with an actual asylum and there was a 'calm down' room that was basically this padded closet just absolutley covered in vomit. like ever y square inch had the stains and the smears of dried and green stomach bile especially from people who have vomitted so much its just that mucous stuff you have let when you are dehydrated

>>213650313 (OP)
What did you even try to overdose on? Normal non narcotic medicine? My go to cocktail would be 400mg oxycodone, 2000mg carisoprodol, 8mg xanax, 1500mg pregabalin

>>213650313 (OP)
Interesting post to randomly read when it's been 9 years since my attempt. And here I am, feeling even worse but with a 28 cm knife on my desk, not just shitty pills that left me in a coma for 20 hours. Is this a signal?

>>213650477
Was at my grandparents' house at the time.
I used to go to the gym everyday at an specific time.
When the time came and my grandparents noticed that I hadn't gone to the gym yet, they came to wake me up. Then they noticed I wouldn't wake up and called the ambulance.
I believe I would have died if they didn't notice that.
>>213650643
Just swallowed everything I could find
Like at least a hundred different pills. Genuinely don't know how I'm not dead.

I planned on drinking bunch of energy drinks and sleeping pills at the same time but don't know if it'd work

>>213650313 (OP)
I tried it once with a poisonous plant but I just passed out and apparently vomited it all out

>>213650952
It wouldn't work, benzos can't kill you on their own unless you take thousands of them, several grams depending on the benzo

>>213650745
>gym bro
>suicidal
Isn't exercise supposed to make you feel happier?

>>213650745
Because you vomit it up. Your body has natural mechanisms against swallowing poison
I'm fairly certain taking pills has one of the lowest success rates
Idk how suicidal people are so shit at killing themselves. Get good

>>213650739
lifes complete shite but surely there can be some redeeming experiences you can have ?

>>213651928
There are. In between January and July 2025 I've re-met my soul mate, we fall in love again, we made ourselves suffering a lot and chose the rational but painful path of zero contact before we end up in a suicide pact. Again, I had it all, it came back, it went back and now I can finally feel I can die in peace. Wasn't kidding about the signal thing. ANd I still have the other half of the bottle.

>>213650313 (OP)
Lots of stories like this desu, some idiots who commit a serious crime think pleading insanity works but if they actually get it they'll get dumped into an insane asylum surrounded by absolute crazies which is even worse than regular prison

>>213650313 (OP)
reminded me of this

>On February 7th of 1909, a 30-year-old mother of two by the name of Emma Hauck was admitted to the psychiatric hospital of the University of Heidelberg in Germany, having recently been diagnosed with dementia praecox (schizophrenia). The outlook improved briefly and a month later she was discharged, only to be readmitted within weeks as her condition deteriorated further. Sadly, the downturn continued and in August of that year, with her illness deemed "terminal" and rehabilitation no longer an option, Emma was transferred to Wiesloch asylum, the facility in which she would pass away eleven years later.

>It was around this time that a heartbreaking collection of letters, some of which can be seen below, were discovered in the archives of the Heidelberg hospital; all written obsessively in Emma's hand during her second stay at the clinic in 1909, at a time when reports indicate she was relentlessly speaking of her family. Each desperate letter is directed at her absent husband, Mark, and every page is thick with overlapping text. Some are so condensed as to be illegible; some read "Herzensschatzi komm" ("Sweetheart come") over and over; others simply repeat the plea, "komm komm komm," ("come come come") thousands of times.

>None were sent.

I will never support suicide. I am strongly opposed to it.
However, in general, I will never understand why people attempt suicide in such a foolish manner. Sometimes I can only conclude that they are actually seeking attention and do not intend to follow through.
Furthermore, never take your own life; it is the only thing you have.

>>213652368
Reminds me of Kafka's diaries from 1910's. Will this ever going to end? 100 years to the future, will there be loser as us crying about not understanding how to be alive?

>>213650313 (OP)
You should've raped her when she was tied up

>>213652269
you sound like a very romantic person. cant you direct it towards other things or people too?

>>213650313 (OP)
So you tried to kill yourself and you woke up in Brazil after a failed attempt? Crazy.

>>213652643
the thread? nuke it.

>>213652643
brazil is the afterlife

>>213652705
More like purgatory.

>>213652600
I am. Yet not sure either I like it or not, but I can't fight against myself. Answering, I might be able to, but there's this voice in my head that daily remains me "hey, don't forget how important it is to die at the right time."

>>213652600
I am. Yet not sure either I like it or not, but I can't fight against myself. Answering, I might be able to, but there's this voice in my head that daily reminds me "hey, don't forget how important it is to die at the right time."

>>213652643
>>213652790
We are here being punished for misbehaving last incarnation.

>>213651462
Dopamine kicks only for like 2 hr post workout, you spent the rest of the day as doomer. This is the truth that gymbros never told you

>>213650952
not very good death rate. If you're really set on it just go to sasu

>>213650313 (OP)
I tried to commit suicide with a towel hanging over my bathroom door in 2016. When I fell, I felt all the pressure on my head and immediately heard a sound in my ear and had something like vertigo, it was like entering a tornado. Luckily (or unfortunately) I didn't knock over the chair I stood on to hang myself and I was able to get out. Honestly, if I had done that, I wouldn't have missed anything.

>>213650643
>My go to cocktail would be 400mg oxycodone, 2000mg carisoprodol, 8mg xanax, 1500mg pregabalin

Nigga are you jesus? Did you just die and then revive on the 3rd day and says " yep this works"

>>213656143
What do you mean by that? I am sure this would be more than enough to make someone unconscious and have a peaceful painless death

>>213656183
Ah i see. Youre planning to use that cocktail if you ever want kys. But life is suffering, i merely enjoying the process

>>213650313 (OP)
Same, didn't work. Everything after that was only worse mentally.

I tried to overdose on clonazepam + pure ethyl alcohol then bagged my head in a plastic bag and hoped to choke to death

I would've succeded but my mom realized by the smell of my vomit and sound and i woke up the next day in the hospital stinking of vomit.
Life sucks man.

you a pussy op I know at least 15 people from my freshman class that died from fent ods

literally just buy a vial and drink it. you're done

>>213650745
>have family care enough to check on you
>suicide and fail
>have enough conscience to care about schizos in mental facility
There must be a better way than being a hero, OP.

>>213652368
>>213652492
There's no point in sending such letters when she was put there by mark because she couldn't calm down and behave at home.

My neighbor was like this but instead of sending her to a proper place they'd just let her roam around. She'd walk up and down the streets at night screaming for her kids who'd be asleep at home until the police took her home. Eventually they stopped showing up for her and she realized this, so she started walking all the way to the gas station and annoying drivers at 4am. Eventually she wandered into the state road and was hit by a truck, which she survived. Then she had to sit in bed all day screaming for her kids, who were right there, but she didn't recognize. After twoish years of this they finally got a court order giving them the ability to feed her thorazine and she shut up. She died about a decade later, completely mute and unable to do eye movements. Bitch deserved it for being a teacher.

>>213657757
Hating the mentally ill is a sign of mental illness, or something

>>213657688
He is too pussy to go to the nearest library and get from the homeless man. Too shut in

>>213657782
I don't hate the mentally ill I just live around them and I am unconcerned when they inevitably die.

>>213657757
>Bitch deserved it for being a teacher.
What

>>213657899
Living around the mentally ill is a sign of mental illness.