>>213989706 (OP)
yeah. i was drinking and taking xanax pretty regularly for the first five months of 2025 as my gf broke up with/subsequently slept with someone back in december and it destroyed me. felt like my life was going nowhere, still do to some extent. kept hoping i wouldnt wake up. dunno why but something changed sometime in June, i started feeling this weird sense of elation every once in a while. started feeling like there might be something more and decided to go sober as long as i could. mood improved. been sober since then. going on dates and even slept with a girl last friday. applying to new jobs now. gonna try to not give up because what else really is there? i’ve been at the brink and wanted death but it simply wasnt anything more than me being a huge faggot. i still wanna die most days, but the fact i’ve managed to turn shit around in a relatively short period of time made me feel like i might be capable of something greater, maybe. you and every other anon here can too. don’t give up man
