Life is so incredibly beautiful, and I am so undeserving. I do not have some grand vision that other people do, and I also cannot appreciate the “little things”. I am a subhuman who should be put down.
I hate lying down, because I recognize I should be acting. I hate acting, not because it is particularly difficult, but because I can’t stand how it feels to try and end up utterly disappointed with the results of my efforts. I am incompatible with life.
Whatever chance I had in the past - I’ve squandered it. It’s too late now. I don’t want to just age and die. If that’s all there is to life, then I’d rather keep my dignity and be put down now.
I hate lying down, because I recognize I should be acting. I hate acting, not because it is particularly difficult, but because I can’t stand how it feels to try and end up utterly disappointed with the results of my efforts. I am incompatible with life.
Whatever chance I had in the past - I’ve squandered it. It’s too late now. I don’t want to just age and die. If that’s all there is to life, then I’d rather keep my dignity and be put down now.
