>>216087821
It's hard to rationalize one's own kink but I'll try my best:
I act manly all day every day when I'm with other people. I solve problems, and I do not whine about how difficult things can be sometimes. I just power through and put a lot of effort into function and dominance due to work.
But it's tiring. I want to let go of all that at times, and when I do, I allow myself to be fragile and docile and hopefully pretty and prioritize form over function. The female aesthetic does it, but there's also this aspect of not having to fight all the time and wanting to be cared for and without worry that really appeals to me.
I think that's partly the logic in it. I keep things to myself and nobody needs to know about it. But I want to act girly and silly and content and carefree because that's how I imagine a better life than mine is.