>>49531383Yeah, it was porn obsession. Or rather, an overwhelming sex drive, that clouded my mind and controlled my thoughts. And I hated it.
So I ended it. I actually learned about hormone replacement therapy by accident, while googling how to chemically castrate myself. Because that's what hrt basically is. And then I lost sex drive, and for the first time since puberty begun, I felt like I can think clearly again. I woke up from a long nightmare.
And no, I never claimed that absolutely everyone who likes moe troons out, I just disputed your absolute claim that nobody does. The truth is, some people do.
I see femininty as both beauty and power, and masculinity as weakness. Seeing from early age how women control men through men's sex drive, how men are willing to sacrifice so much and humiliate themselves just to score a fuck reinforced this perception. Finally, remembering how clouded my mind was when my testosterone was in male range, and realization that this is how men feel generally speaking, they are animals controlled by their dicks, baiscally speaking.
So I automatically associate femininity with all that is good, beauty, cuteness, power, victory, cruelty, and I associate masculinity with weakness, ugliness, defeat, submission etc. Why would I want to be a man or look like a man in such a word? I want to have some of that female privilege and power for myself too, you know?
But not all people think like me. Dare I say most don't? Even among trans women, many don't share my views and reasons, and it's fine, unlike the idiot screeching here
>>49531371 I actually posses enough theory of mind to account for that and allow that.
A whole lot of trans women just want to be a cute girl, do cute girly things and interact with other girls in innocent way unstained by sex drive like moe anime girls do. That's their paradise. Reality doesn't really allow such paradise, but I think it is respectable.
And then there are men who only appreciate moe because they want to fuck it.
This is too a divide in otaku community, a divide from way back then that wasn't as obvious 20 years ago as it is now; there are two types of moe fans, one looks at a cute girl and says "I want to be her" and the other says "I want to fuck her".