>>49884461
>You don't love her anymore?
Well, it is a convoluted story. You see, I was in time for exams, and I was daydreaming about her. In general, I daydreamed about her so much, it was actually hurting me. Alongside that, I had porn addiction, which caused me to often fantasize about her in that way. After I left the Touhou fandom and archived everything I wanted to keep (music, animations, the games) I stopped thinking about her.
I had this extreme moral debate in my head that she was evil, a sociopath, a murderer, even a pedophile, but as for now, I realized that beyond that, she is just a character. In the past I saw her as a living being because I believed somewhere in the Omniverse/Multiverse, she was there, just waiting for me to meet her. After I stopped believing in that, I forgot about her with some resentment. But I do have some feelings for her. She was the last person I ever loved, and the one I loved the most. Thanks to a lot of things, I do not even believe in love in any way anymore, I mean, romantic love; which I hate. Thanks to that I moved on. But now returning here, I love to hear other people talking about their love for her, it is so cute, so pure, it makes me think how other people also fell for her, like me. Even thought they have way different stories, it makes me feel in company
