QOTT: Do you consider yourself healthy?
QOTT 2: What's your favorite food?

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>>40017685 (OP)
qott: i could be heatlthier but my job demands a decent amount of physical exertion. i need to be more consistent about going to the gym and fine tune my diet
qott2: cheese ravioli

>>40017685 (OP)

>>40017685 (OP)
>QOTT: Do you consider yourself healthy?
Very much so
>QOTT 2: What's your favorite food?
I love sushi. In general I like raw meat/ fish etc.
Kebab also very good, third lampredotto ig.

in all ways except neurological I'm quite healthy.

and I like icecream.

at some point i think i'll have to make peace with the fact that there's just no one out there for me

maybe the hardest part isn't the loneliness itself, but how familiar it’s become, how it stopped feeling like an absence and started feeling like a setting, like background radiation, like wallpaper

you stop expecting anything different, the idea of being understood stops feeling real and starts sounding like a poorly translated word from a language you were never meant to speak.

they say there's always someone, but they never say what to do when that someone doesn't exist, or when they do, but they're ten thousand miles away in a life they're too busy surviving to ever cross paths with you.

>>40017685 (OP)
>qott
for my weight? yeah, certainly. overall? about average, only my triglycerides had a problem and even then it wasn't that bad, my doctor wasn't concerned. she just told me to eat less bread
>qott2
burgers, unironically. no onions or lettuce, lettuce is not a big deal if i get it but i hate onions so much

Just what the hell is the point of being alive if i can't have a dick to jerk off and cum with??? Everything i do, have done, and will do literally amounts to nothing for me knowing i can't ever shoot my seed. Into my palm, into someone else's hole. There's no fucking use in being alive if you can't ejaculate. I've never even orgasmed before because masturbation with my defective sexual anatomy is painful. I'm going to end myself because the pain is too much to bear.

>>40019955
first world problems

>>40017685 (OP)
>QOTT
no my body feels weak half the time, i don’t know whats up with that
>QOTT2
mac and cheese

>>40017685 (OP)
>qott1
physically i suppose so, apart from slightly low cholesterol and some genetic stuff that i can't really fix. mentally absolutely not
>qott2
nothing will ever be better than my dad's chili

>>40020224
iron deficiency?
>>40019840
i've been stockholmed into eating onions by my mother who would put them in any dish she could. onions are horrible especially raw

>>40020702
nta but I have iron anemia ( 15 under 50 ) and im tired and weak all the time, very well could be that

>>40020702
i'm so sorry i hate onions so much
there's few things i hate more and one of it is on the board right now (not here tho)

>>40017891
he's just like me fr fr

>>40022232
you have a really cute voice and i like your laugh

>>40022232
i love you

I remembered I had some sumo videos saved

>>40022563

>>40022579

>>40022589

>>40022600

>>40022618

>>40020702
i havent eaten a full meal since saturday and im walking over 15k steps daily, but i had iron deficiency last time i felt like this yea
>>40022232
what about them do you hate, they’re so yummy. I eat them raw, fried, in just about anything

>>40023069
it's the strange tanginess and the horrible smell that just ... euhhhghhh

>>40022291
>>40022527
thank you
>>40023069
i don't know how to describe it, i agree it's tangy in a bad way but it also tastes like burning. it's not spicy, it's just...odd.

>>40024372
i need you

>>40017685 (OP)
Is tranny hater dead?

>>40017685 (OP)
>QOTT 1
I'm average I guess
>QOTT 2
Coconut shrimp

>>40024833
Haven't seen him post with that name but honestly I wouldn't be suprised if he still posts but just doesn't namefag anymore. I mean every other "ftmg" is just TH style bait at this point.

>>40024833
we have at least one TH impersonator and i'd guess TH posts on occasion on anon. he dropped his name because people kept trolling him by posting as him

>>40025139
why do you hate me

>>40017685 (OP)
>qott1
Generally yeah. I'm fat but go to the gym at least twice a week and my job is pretty active. I don't eat junk food too often.
>qott2
Hard to pick just one but picrel

>>40025181
i don't hate you, i guess i'm just shocked at your obsession
truth be told, i hate very few people

>>40025222
phew

My bitch just remembered im a tranny and started bitching and moaning about how dissapointed she is at the lack of wiener, do i kill her?

>>40025924
Suck her cock

>>40025969
She has phimosis that would be pretty disgusting i imagine

I think i'm kinda cute and handsome, how do I find a bf if i'm also too autistic to know how to properly interact with others?

>>40022633
I didn’t expect to see sumo videos when I pulled up /lgbt/ but nonetheless, based

bump

Do pooners like black guys

>40028197
no, i don't like cis guys in general, especially straight ones

>>40028197
no

>>40028231
>>40028233
Why

>>40028282
i don't date outside of my race

>>40028282
i'm only into pussy and the idea of a hetero man being attracted to me makes me want to ack
unless you're a stereotype, i'm not your type either

>>40019672
ogie I'd marry u if I weren't a chick and also in love with a diff dude *sniffle* ur gonna find him he's out there ik it.

>>40026699
I'll be your bf

INCOMING TRANSMISSION: GLOVES ON THE LINE

TRANSCRIPTION
I realize that I've been going about this all wrong. I have dedicated hundreds of hours, well over a thousand honestly, to just thinking about eating Terje~ and just... munching on him you know? I mean for years I was under the delusion that Terje would just be the man that completes me, you know? Like, he would be such a succulent meal I don't know if I would ever have to eat again. Just a little bit of salt and pepper, cant take much more than that sadly, even all the herbs and spices from KFC finger lickin' good just hurts my tummy you know? Anyway, I thought that Terje would be the man that would finally enter me and complete me you know? But I was wrong. I got it all wrong. It's opposite. I should get devoured by Terje. I mean, wouldn't it just be such a reversal? Such an ugly fate for a blob like me just getting devoured by the skinny little blond twink. I mean, he's probably hungry you know, he's got babies to feed, many babies in fact, and I would be such a delicious meal for those growing... children... I would literally be giving my life, like Jesus on the cross, to Terje's beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, black babies. All five of them. I mean... he's not such a skinny twink anymore, he's out to here! All just kicking and thrashing like baby sharks. I hope they don't end up like sharks you know? The strongest shark eats the other sharks and just swims out his moms pussy. I hope that I am such a good meal that that doesn't have to happen, so there can be five, big, black, beautiful baby sharks swimming out of mister Terje's pussy. You got that? Anyway... gonna feed myself some more lard and some prenatal vitamins too. Gotta have lots of nutrition right? This will probably be the last time you ever see me but I think it will be a good death.

My final wish is for his 5 black baby sharks to swim peacefully from his womb into the world

>>40028197
Idc about race, personality means more to me
>>40028488
>straight flag
i'm a hairy manlet not a tomboy

>>40028197
are you cute?

>>40028848
Do you have a big wobbly ass
>>40028892
This is me, do you like dear

when did this place become /sumo/

>>40025924
why date someone who does this

yawwwwwn good morning ftmgen
>>40028197
uh ... sure? race doesn't really matter to me, most black people i've met have been very nice to me
>>40025924
dump her immediately she doesn't appreciate the wonders of man pussy

>>40030032
tetooooooo

im having serious terf derangement syndrome what do i do

>>40030217
How exactly does it present in you?

>>40030217
remind yourself that cis women are generally retarded

>>40030231
extreme anger. i'm not even on T yet and i feel the roid rage

>>40030433
It's completely fair, I get annoyed at them too.
Which things anger you about them?

>>40017685 (OP)
>qott
nah, bmi 24 bordering on 25
>qott2
shrimp chimichanga
>>40027624
one of my fav albums
>>40026699
lowkey u gotta grow a pair and just talk to people

>>40029146
The banter is legendary there are a small few misses such as this on occasion but its massively outweighed by the fun of talking shit all day
>>40030032
I would much rather take someone that hates the thing i hate as well than someone that likes the biggest inconvenience of my life

>>40030554
there's probably someone out there who's going to love you enough, as you are, to be willing to accommodate you without being a dick about it

needing a fat trans boy in my bed right now

>>40030433
roid rage is only really a thing due to estrogen. having good levels of T will not make you angry

>>40030530
I've already started going to social events and stuff but idk how to start dating, i'm a virgin and have never been in a relationship. Do i have to rely on shitty dating apps that require me to pay to be able to actually get somewhere?

Fakeboys are valid!!!!

>>40028953
I unironically have no idea how some people find black guys attractive. How is this guy meant to be attractive? I mean he has muscles but he just doesn't look hot.

>>40028310
I'm ngmi
>>40028848
sounds good but only if you let me formulate steroid cycles for you to turn you into a hairy muscular manlet with a deep voice to whisper me to sleep.

>>40030951
it's only from specific compounds, most steroids make you calmer.

>>40032714
you're my favourite pooner

>>40032860
I'm just a deformed man who had to build himself, I'm not trans.

>>40032860
He's not even a pooner

>>40032888
>>40032891
Honorary pooner

>>40032891
maybe that why I'm their favorite.

>>40032937
That's a disappointing thought

>>40030217
good
>>40030433
you'll calm down on t. pre-t i used to be very hot headed

>>40033095
lack of testosterone tends to make people unreasonably angry since estrogen is literal retard juice.

some steroids are mild antidepressants i.e proviron.

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/3880735/

>>40017685 (OP)
does anybody else not believe you can change your gender
i respect other trans people but i dont actually think im a male

>>40033095
i thought T made you angrier. i guess that's another terf lie.

>>40033158
based, good to know and the estrogen thing aligns perfectly with my experience
>>40033740
it's usually only people who take too much roids for bodybuilding purposes that get roid rage. taking 100mg of t every week won't make you have roid rage

>>40019955
lithium will fix your disorder for sure.

my iud gave me bv :(

>>40033329
A lot of trans people feel this way. I have a hard time actually conceptualizing myself as male

>>40033913
i was on a high dose of lithium between 14 and 18, this is factually incorrect.
>>40034570
i don't understand this, i can't conceptualize myself as a woman in any capacity

>>40033329
I see myself as a man but not male, never think that hard about it

>>40033913
My disorder is a lack of male reproductive organs. Is lithium going to help me with that?

>>40035282
>man but not male
god same
>>40034570
I can conceptualise myself as a male in my head but irl i just cant sell it to myself.

>>40035205
I don't necessarily consider myself a woman (ive always felt like an alien around them) its just hard to think of myself as male in an internalized transphobia way. I feel like a hairy woman-inbetween thing on hormones even if being male feels natural to me

>>40035282
>>40036144 (me)
"man but not male" explains it very well yes. I can look and sound like a guy but I will always feel incomplete and farcical

bump

>>40036144
>>40036164
i can understand that, honestly. sorry i misunderstood initially

>>40038248
you are so sweet and lovely

i wish i could understand why i'm so bad at processing lately. i feel so stupid and behind in every situation

>>40033329
on the contrary it was extremely easy to see myself as male just not a man

>>40038278
thank you, i feel like t made me more easygoing

>>40039177
i love you so much

>>40039587
i...don't know how to respond? truth be told i don't really... grow attached to anyone in that way, especially when i don't know them. it makes me uncomfortable

>>40039587
>>40039608
that said, if it's platonic, then thank you! and i don't want you to feel bad either way, sorry if i went too far

>>40039608
i'm sorry i don't mean to make you uncomfortable i just love you so much you mean a lot to me

>>40039622
i'm glad i mean a lot to you, anon. can i ask why?

>>40039665
i think you are sweet and handsome and i like your cute voice

>>40039694
thank you

i love jerking off and then looking at my huge swollen clit in the mirror

>>40040075
Ew?

>>40040075
You are giving me the ick

Girlfriend has figured out I turn my phone's music on when I go to shit

just finished working out. I wish I could lovingly shove someone's face in my armpit right about now. is that too much to ask from the universe?

i wish gloves was here with me right now

>>40040075
ngl same

so over it

>>40042044
i love this picture i quote it all the time

>>40042152
it made me smile even tho i'm feeling abysmal so i shared it

must... bully.... incels... must..... molest.. virginal men.... must bite.. a virgin male........ and suck him dry....
picrel is me and my pvre untouched husbando.. he is my angel.. my knight in shining armor... my one true love.. i want to drink his blood..... i'll be his first everything.... he'll never be able to forget me...... i'm going to get him pregnant........ hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnnngg..

>>40040075
based
create an onlypoon

Good morning

>>40017685 (OP)
Daily reminder that tboys belong with other tboys.
St4t propaganda has grown at an alarming rate whilst the reality is tr*ns w*men would never truly love or respect an ftm

Good morning ftmg. Are there any fellas that like math on the thread?

Why arent you watching /ftl/ right now? It is a gay show, after all

>>40044058
false, tboys belong with faggy cis twinks

>>40046216
false, tboys belong with me, whoever that is

>>40046247
AFABs want to be raped, impregnated and dominated by chads, no matter if they have dysphoria or not.

everybody laugh at the retarded pornsick retard who has not and will never get pussy in it's (incels are not real men) pathetic miserable life AHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA

>>40044058
tboys belong with respectable but shy virginal cishet men that will slowly detransition them and also love them more and harder than a w*man ever could. the man will not leave them like all the roastie whores, he will not manipulate them like all the stacy sluts. they will get married and the t"boy" will get plap plap plap plapped until she realizes pretending to be a man is futile with a tight pink little pussy. rape is out, dykebreaking is in. i love being a normal straight girl <3

I’m so tired of people on here and Reddit calling noahwaybabes a “chad” when he looks like a prepubescent boy getting fucked in the vagina by men twice his age

>>40047716
prepubescent boys don't have muscles like him though. perhaps you're just into roided bodybuilders or otherwise projecting your insecurities?

>>40044058
FTMs should just follow their hearts. st4t is lovely and so is t4t.

i think im gonna stop taking my meds im losing motivation

>>40047716
I follow him on Tiktok and he looks like a short metro sexual gay man. Doesn't look prepubescent to me unless short = prepubescent.

i'm so fucking depressed. nothing feels real. i wanna feel happy but i just feel so sad and anxious. i'm an embarassment

Why do pooners like it when men put their penises in their vaginas?

>>40048104
NTA but I think he looks especially underage (and bogged) in this video
https://youtu.be/j1nwWMLUCbE?si=ylXYvK_D3g4yemFT

>>40048314
he's got poor posture

>>40048314
Wow his mannerisms are way more retarded here than on his insta
Ngl I still glaze him but his FMS is jaw filler that he gets redone every year so he is for sure going to look bogged further down the line

>>40048182
what's wrong?

>>40044365
I’m too gay to be good at math

>>40047510
>>40046731
Can you niggers become tripfags so i can filter you out easier

>>40049245
you are bad at math because you are a woman, a straight one at that. alan turing was gay and a mathematician

>>40049259
one of them was a namefag but stopped namefagging because people started taking his name and posting it. (tranny hater)

>>40049259
no. i love my cishet bf and i need to talk about him somewhere. also, i want to save all you lil doods from the horror that is being a mutilated sexual degenerate. it is impossible to change your sex. ywnbam. gender ideology is a death/sex cult. turn back while you still have time.

>>40017685 (OP)
>QOTT: Do you consider yourself healthy?
no, tried building muscle though

>QOTT 2: What's your favorite food?
cheesy fries from wendy's

>>40048301
same reason why mtf troons love having gay sex

>>40049228
i don't even know at this point. i feel so disillusioned and fake. i havent felt this kind of depression in so so long. i dont want to be on antidepressants again but im scared i may have to be

>>40049752
aw, I understand. it'll pass soon. do you have anything you enjoy doing in the meantime? what was your experience with antidepressants?

where are all the beefcake bros that will help me become like them?

Am I allowed to post here as a mtftm?
I kept my dick

>>40050330
>I kept my dick
No

>>40049906
yea but i always feel like i'm ignoring something when i try to keep busy. always anxious. and hmm. ive been on a few throughout the years and i just remember them making me fat and not really changing anything, seems like they worked just enough to keep me just functional enough. i dont want to get fat again and i'm scared they would make manic

>>40050330
get bottom surgery then come back

>>40049665
lame my cishet bf encourages my transition and likes it when i jerk off wearing his clothes and underwear

>>40049513
> a straight one at that
I have a boyfriend and a girlfriend, I literally can’t be straight

>>40050581
aw well I understand. I can’t really help as I’m in a similar boat and still trying to figure things out.
really it just feels like a matter of finding ways to cope with it. I mainly do that through hobbies. I’ve also found that like, doing nice things for others, makes you feel better about yourself too. if your feelings don’t have a certain origin, you just feel shitty, maybe it’d be worth trying to get medicated again. there’s probably at least one option out there that might not make you gain weight.

>>40049922
here.

>>40050581
I was also hesitant to start meds again because none of the many i used to be on worked, but the ones i'm on now work and i feel much much better. i think it can be worth it though ymmv ofc

>>40044365
i like math and wish i was good at it but i'm a poorly educated retard

>>40051024
Legend!!

>>40050581
Maybe its time for a big change. When i feel this way i tend to go on weekend roadtrips, sleep in my car and stargaze, maybe quit my job LOL

>>40020224
Not enough protein

is it bad if i fantasize about my HS best friend (male) fucking me in highschool and breeding me? i wouldnt want to actually date him or anything, but i would fuck him if i had the chance.

>>40050715
i feel like there's the depressed part of me that has these feelings and thoughts that the actual me doesn't really believe in or feel truly. negative feelings towards others that are very not based in reality type stuff. it makes it hard to do nice things for people or even compliment them because i feel like i'm only doing it to hide the ugly thoughts. i have no real reason to be having these thought patterns and it makes me feel like such an ugly person.
>>40051144
i've been on lamotrigine for a couple years now but i feel like it isn't working anymore, at least not for almost the past year. i was going to the gym and feeling pretty secure in my thoughts and day to day life until about 8 months ago when this anxiety and self loathing started setting in out of nowhere. i've been trying to combat it but i think i need to accept that meds are needed again.
>>40051308
i wish i had the money for that. i think i need to go somewhere alone for my next paid vacation, away from friends and all that. somewhere that i can't rely on outside validation and am forced to be with myself

Walked out of my job like a massive pussy today.
Got tired of my coworker being a cock every single time I speak to her. I've said shit back to her before, nothing's gonna change, and I hate the soft language and lack of authority my boss wields across our employees.
Thought real hard about giving my two weeks, but I think I'm just going to dip. Feeling quite down about it though. However I think I'd rather kill myself than go back to these buttholes.
Being shitty and aggressive at work is already disheartening enough, but the fact that I am utterly powerless to affect the situation is what really did it in. Doing anything about it results in losing the job either way.
I wish I could feel absolutely nothing and be the best worker bee.

>>40050693
>i get spit roasted by two biococks. one for my pussy and one for my mouth!
this is what's considered gay behavior from a bio female in 2025

Yes, yaoi and BL made me want to transition.

No, there's nothing you can do about it.

>Yes, yaoi and BL made me want to transition.

>No, there's nothing you can do about it.

i kinda want to go on grindr and get fucked in da pussy but im scared ill become a woman. is it bad if im ftm but want to use my god given fuckhole?

>>40053716
I'm a cute ukemoding femboy, not a gross balding gigapoon

>I'm a cute ukemoding femboy, not a gross balding gigapoon

>>40053738
Literally me :3

>>40053756
i could always rape you until you got over your mental illness. post that tight little ass for me, slut. you know you want to, i know you crave the attention and validation from a big strong man. give in to your animalistic impulses, let me breed you. you're totally not a woman, you're just an uke omega ;)

>>40053725
>ukemoding
aw cmon you could at least self insert as the top

>>40053777
what do you look like? are you hot? show us your abs/treasure trail please

>>40053777
You wouldn't rape me...

>>40053738
what dating apps do tboys like this use? i am a trans woman and am having cravings for literally that exact thing and would like some help from this thread

im dripping thinking about Him fucking me raw. Fuck. I'm so dehydrated from cumming 3 times. I didn't even enjoy the last orgasm too much but fuck i have to do it. I have to cum on his cock over and over again. Forever

>>40017685 (OP)
qott1: eh could def eat better and drink more water but i get 10k steps a day and stuff. according to a blood test i took i dont have high blood pressure or anything like that so i'd say im okay

qott2: apple pie or french fries or burger or burrito or ummmm erm lots of foods idk

>>40053981

i hope i can feel real some day

>>40051024
reporting for duty sir!

>>40053981
People actually orgasm from penetrative sex? I only ever orgasm with no penetrative toys. Dicks either don't last long enough or are never large enough.
>>40054365
Why don't you feel real anon

>>40054395
i can cum pretty fast and more frequently from tdick stim, penetrative is more satisfying but takes me longer. Can't come from penetration by masturbating though, need to actually get fucked.

Good morning brothers
>page 8

>>40050330
why do you retards KEEP COMING HERE

>>40052776
I'm in the same boat, I still presented as a girl back then and have the same fantasy of just being absolutely ravaged and bred hard

>>40055265
how manly

>>40053981
breeding pose: full body nelson. Is the fantasy for sure. But the dude needs to be huge and you relatively skinny or at least not super tubby like gloves.

>>40054409
the power of penis..

niggas are saying breakup with my bf because im nonchalant about the whole thing and that hes controlling how i move when i go out
likely hood of him cutting himself as a result of me leaving is semi high

chat what do i do

i need to send an exorbitant amount of money to an ftm soon or i'll actually die

>>40056467
can i get a dub for gas

>>40053892
Idk what others would use but I use taimi. Its kinda shit unfortunately

>>40055403
it's pretty nice
actually when i get fingered by someone else i can cum too just not when i do it to myself
being nutted in is the best experience of my life though

woke up 4 hours ago and my ankle has been in notable pain the whole time. i forget that i have a permanent ankle injury until this shit happens once in a blue moon

>>40056027
break up with him, have some self respect
>>40056467
heyy do you like findom? i won't send pictures but i can make fun of you really well

Getting Gloves pregnant would be hot. Hating every second of it would be hotter as the tits grow in.

>>40058115
>i won't send pictures
then what's the point lol i can't even imagine the cute boy that's making fun of me

>>40058445
Why would you hate every second of it if it's hot...?

where terje

>>40056027
Are they really your bf? I thought this person was a fwb.

>esl chasers flooding the thread

>>40058717
detransitioned into a bbc loving bbw. now has 3 adorable little mixed babies suckling on her tatas at once

>foraged 3 jars of red clover
>drop one on the way home while trying to close it

I found a propane grill in the forest, on an island that doesn't have any bridges.

Bros, it's Saturday, how is the thread so dead

>>40057286
if you lose weight it will take considerable pressure off your ankle. Satisfying a fetish isn't worth chronic pain and likely future health problems.

>>40059990
can you degrade me and call me a worthless horrible loser that nobody loves

>>40060001
Anon, you've obviously never heard the phrase "no pain, no gain".

Why is thread way slower than usual? I want to leave this board and the board and ftmg being boring as fuck might finally help me quit.

>>40060001
it's a childhood injury that flares up. I probably kicked a wall in my sleep though
>>40060219
chasers

>>40060002
Anon you're a worthless fucking loser. Nobody loves you, nobody cares.
It's pathetic you have to beg online for someone to call you the disgusting piece of shit you are.

>>40060389
i'm sorry

>>40060446
Sure you are, like me insulting you wasn't what you wanted.

>>40060489
i'm sorry for being like this

>>40058115
damn, im planning in restrategizing after this weekend
>>40058734
i have several fwbs

im 8 months on t and havent been clocked since january but today i got called a tranny by an old man at the movie theater

>>40060389
>>40060489
when will it be my turn....

>>40061115
>havent been clocked since january
anon, I hate to break it to you but you have been clocked hundreds and hundreds of times since January. Probably most people who see you clock you. They just don't say anything because they don't want to be rude.

Nipple piercings are extremely hot to me. Does getting them after top surgery while you have limited sensation help? I wouldn't want to get it before for obvious reasons.

>>40058901
for a cookout with the boys

>>40054395
i'm not sure. i feel like once i'm alone i don't know who i am. like i've been performing all day in front of others but once i'm back home i can't even begin to know if anything i've ever said or done has been 'me'

what's it like to kiss someone you like?

>>40061303
in the area that i live in people are generally pretty liberal but still distinctly uncomfortable with transgender people, and people have gone from avoiding me entirely and constantly avoiding using pronouns for me to calling me he/him and sir 100% of the time, even random schizo homeless people who are rude to me in other ways and have no reason to be polite. i used to get called slurs on the street by strangers and now i usually only get called a faggot occasionally. idk if that completely discounts what you're saying but i feel like if i were that visibly transgender i would've had more problems up to this point

>>40062599
but also even when i was very clocky i still used to shock people in women's bathrooms so idk i think i just have an androgynous face

>>40060389
this is true and i need to internalize it because nobody loves me, nobody cares about me, or my interests, or the things i do, nobody loves me, i have no friends, i don't mean anything to anyone, i'm not real and i don't exist, and the me that does exist is disgusting and parasitic, i suck on the existences of the real people around me, desperately trying to make myself real, but i won't ever be real, i won't ever exist, i won't ever be loved because you can't love an absence, absence may make the heart grow fonder but the heart can't love something that wasn't there in the first place, because i don't exist and i'm not a real person, i've never been a real person in my life

>>40061778
lips have a lot of touch receptors so anything will be felt more deeply with the lips. feeling someone's skin that way is pretty nice if you like them.
though i don't like french kissing even with my partner and i love him more than anyone else in my life. but he likes it so we do it during sex. having someone else's tongue in my mouth feels invasive and not romantic but 90% of the time we have sex it's rape roleplay anyways so it's a little hot

>>40062756
how does it feel like, emotionally?

>>40062694
I relate to you too much anon. I love you even though I don't even know you.

>>40062694
i don't understand why people talk to themselves in a way that is actively designed to make you feel worse. i honestly kind of lose empathy with super depressed people who have this mindset because it's like you don't even care to try to be a little better. i guess that's shitty because i was in that place once but like idk don't you have any desire to develop any kind of normal coping mechanism whatsoever. why would you actively choose to dwell in it and make it worse. its like those people on my 600 pound life who just keep eating and eating and eating even though they know it's just gonna get worse

>>40062836
realistically it's just going to be a reflection of however you feel about that person
physically i like holding my partner close and feeling his skin since it's really soft
emotionally i mean i love him. there's honestly not much more to say about it. any sort of physical touch or intimacy with him is nice and the only thing i ever want to do. whenever we have to stop because he has work or anything else to do i keep thinking about it until the next time he's available

>>40062884
i guess it's been a vicious cycle of traumatic events and psychological fuckery that have lead me to this place. i really do believe my identity has collapsed completely, but because of crossed wires or aspergers or whatever what's left of my self enjoys that destruction, i guess it's why some people like the idea of mind break through sex, i believe it goes deeper for me than that. i really have and have had an obsession with destroying my identity and sense of self. that i'm human and my skull houses a brain but the captain is dead and the ship is on autopilot. i've also had a great deal of fascination and fetishization of brain damage, and the idea of someone who used to function completely normally suddenly being reduced to a someone barely there, existing but not really existing, or completely dependent on another person for their life, which is what i have tried to do with parasocial relationships, like if i try hard enough to be him i /will/ be him

>>40062976
regardless of your circumstances, at the end of the day there is, like, a baseline level of bad that is caused by circumstances outside of your control (mental illness, trauma, outside factors) and then there is additional bad that you can heap on top of it through choosing not to take care of yourself or choosing to constantly self-deprecate.

it's like the difference between being a normal fat person and being on my 600 pound life. you can get normal fat by having a relatively normal diet. the people on my 600 pound life are getting to that size because they are constantly actively increasing the amount of food they eat. and it gets to a point where they're like, well, y'know, i'm so huge and i feel so bad all the time so i might as well just keep going until i kill myself because i don't have a chance to get better. but the main obstacle between them and getting better is actually the part where they decide they don't have a chance to get better. if you spent more time thinking about yourself in a slightly kinder way you would probably feel less bad and then you would feel more inclined to focus on things other than how bad you feel. this is true of social anxiety too.

my bf went to bed and now i'm lonely. i miss my bf.

i'm worried my chronic pain returned. maybe I went too hard on the seated leg press at the gym but i'm always very careful not to overdo it.

Thoughts? Do I pass?

>>40065174
Almost

>>40057286
being fat a FUCK tends to hurt stuff like that

https://unsee cc/album#mS8BfmjKZ8mi
Any recommendations for hair and glasses? I like having long hair, but I start looking like a woman. Too short and I also look like a woman.

>>40066340
you look fine

>>40065174
you have a very memorable face, i remember seeing you a year ago and thinking you have very dense stubble

>>40066351
Thx I pretty much have it figured what I like but wanted to see if anyone had any shocking insights

6ish years of looksmaxxing obsession and I look fine now, not like attractive but at a point I'm happy with. but people are only nice to me because I'm not ugly anymore. how do I deal with this? I thought the compliments and increased attention would make me feel better but I just feel empty. like I've gotten more positive attention in the past year than I have in my life. do I just masturbate in front of a mirror now? I don't think anyone is capable of truly loving me.

>>40066456
You need to seek internal validation

>>40066528
nta but how do i do this bc if i dont value myself why would i value my own validation

>>40066528
I am internally validated though. I'm one of my own biggest idols. I don't think that sentiment is invalid because I desire true love also.

>>40066695
Start by becoming someone you value.
>>40066756
You sound like someone who doesn’t have a large/active social circle, which is how you form these connections.

>>40066777
nice trips
there's not really any people who I enjoy interacting with. I don't think any of them are genuinely capable of caring for someone. I do like doing nice things for them though. I just don't know why whatever external validation I receive doesn't feel good. I thought it was supposed to.

>>40065174
would, so probably, considering I hate women and find them repulsive.
>>40066456
now you join me in suffering from abused dog syndrome for the rest of your life.

>>40066812
What kind of external validation are we talking about

>>40061682
If you are consumed by solitude for majority of the day would you develop your own true "self"?

>>40067650
people saying I'm cute or attractive or that I'm breedable. I just wish I could make the people around me happy or make them laugh.
>>40067266
what's abused dog syndrome

>>40067757
>or that I’m breedable
All of this sounds like a situational problem. Step 1 is not being the type of person to call it “looksmaxxing” or hang out with annoying internet people. Seriously get more active in real life and don’t put too much into getting along with people who aren’t meaningfully intelligent/interesting/thoughtful

>>40067959
what else should I call it? I don't really interact with people online much, even on 4chan. I try to get outside with like volunteering and stuff, I'm close with my neighbors, that sort of thing. I tried joining clubs at my college but I can't really find anyone I like. some people have approached me for small talk but it doesn't really go anywhere..
I have trouble finding anyone I actually enjoy being around, on top of everything. am I just too picky?

>>40017685 (OP)
coincidentally somewhat relevant topic to the theme of the thread, something i've been pondering on lately and was curious what this thread would think about it.

i'm 18 and a little over two years on T. recently i went to a plastic surgeon to talk about top surgery and everything went great, her work looks good, and she wanted to know when i wanted to go ahead with the procedure. i'd like to get it done as soon as possible but i'm overweight (5'5 and 180 lbs) and worried about the outcome because of that. obviously i'm dieting, my intake has been around 1350 calories per day, but to get to a healthy weight at this rate would be about half a year.
i'm not sure if i should wait that time to get to a healthier weight or if i should just go ahead. either way i'd still continue working to lose the weight. i'm curious if anyone here has any strong opinions or personal experience to share.

>QOTT: not especially, but i'm definitely trying my best
>QOTT2: salmon probably

>>40067757
abused dog syndrome is when you spend your developing years ugly/antisocial and as a result your personality has been shaped by it, even if you fix your looks it still haunts you for the rest of your life.

I literally do not trust women at all due to my appearance.

The thread is still here??? Grim.
All the 4chan ftms pretending they are reppers or what? Happy somewhere else... fair and relatable.
>>40068210
WAIT!
I mean you CAN not wait, but it all depends on if you plan on never losing the weight or being okay with having to do revisions.
I'd gymmax. Have a good cut while exercising, I'm kinda jealous you get to start fatter.
>>40068951
What about awesome dog syndrome.

>>40069069
Should I make a new one?

>>40069081
No, it has to stop being bumpable/ visible. Two active threads is worse (imo).
Anyways, who are you? What are you doing?

Why do some doods willingly use gel instead of injections? A tiny little needle prick is way less bad than rubbing cold slimy gel all over yourself every day.

>>40068070
Lol I keep profiling you as a bum my bad. Well I’m very much the same way from what it sounds like. I think for some people that’s just how life is. It would sound crazy if it weren’t true, but the majority of people won’t have personalities or ways of thinking that are relatable or appealing to you. I often feel like the only time I experience normal friendship is when I’m into someone and wanting to court them, and it’s not like I don’t like/appreciate/care about my friends or anything. Used to worry I was some sort of sociopath but it’s just a matter of personal standards. Being picky and solitary. It’s rare to come across a true partner, but having one makes it way nicer to interact with others that you might otherwise malign for feelings of shallowness. It sounds like you do this (eg neighbors), but it helps to try to cultivate those less “meaningful” bonds anyway, and try to understand people and afford them grace even if you don’t mesh personally. It’s just a good way to stay sane, and is generally attractive to anyone you do come across that you have the potential to get along with. Just gotta be open to it without being too focused on finding The One. It would make sense that getting praise from people you don’t necessarily respect doesn’t mean much.
>>40068210
Best idea is building muscle/cutting fat as much as is realistically possible. I’d wait however long you need to do so.

>>40069104
Not doing much. I just mentioned it because I created this thread while the previous thread was still up because someone asked for it early.

>>40068210
Please don't get top surgery as a fat person. Losing weight is hard work, but it's far better to wait six months and look decent than to do it now and get massive dog ears.

>>40065174
You pass but please stop molesting me with your eyes.

>>40069130
I’ve always done shots but I’ve considered gel as its (daily) hormone cycle is the closest of any treatment to natural (daily) male hormone cycles. As opposed to shots which leave you with levels which peak and dip over the course of a week or so.
>>40065174
You guys are toopid for responding to this earnestly

dead general

pooners are all gone now that the tranny trend is over, comically predictable

>>40067266
>I hate women and find them repulsive.
Why?
>>40069183
I think there are people who do daily injections...
>>40069144
Fair, I'll probably go smoke, I'm so boared.

>>40069130
because they're afraid of needles and it's legally pushed upon them, they don't like to prescribe injections because they think you're too dumb to shove a needle in your ass.

>>40069183
gel doesn't replicate natural levels, natural levels are already unstable as fuck and gel is even worse than that, it spikes 4 hours after application and bottoms out after that, natural levels don't do that as much although they still wobble up and down.
>>40069224
bad experiences.

I still consider myself bi, but I don't think I'll ever find a girl that I'd vibe with mentally.

Do you guys still swim at all? What kind of swimwear do you wear if you do?

>>40068951
oh wow that's real. I'm in the same boat about not trusting women, I'm kind of afraid of them really. I'm sorry about that.
>>40069131
really? god, I think the closest I've ever been to actually having a friendship is by having a relationship. I thought I was the only person on earth who went through that.
it's not like I don't want friends but they seem like more trouble than they're worth. and through talking about it, I've realized I'm not really even sure what I want. relationships and even friendships seem like such a wonderful joy to have in life, but I don't think that sort of thing is what will make me happy. I really appreciate your response, it's really insightful. I think that rhe best route is shifting my desire to care for and love another person, to caring for and loving all the people I meet. it's really comforting to know I'm not the only person who has this sort of experience in relationships.

>>40069279
Fair... had my fair share of those I just can't date men though, I tried, just not my thing.

That being said I think most men are the same range of awesome to awful, spread out equally while women tend to be at the extremes. From personal experience I am no guru.

>>40069331
slightly longer trunks to hide my shitty quad insertions

>>40017685 (OP)
holy fuck I love spring rolls

>>40069131
>I often feel like the only time I experience normal friendship is when I’m into someone and wanting to court them, and it’s not like I don’t like/appreciate/care about my friends or anything. Used to worry I was some sort of sociopath but it’s just a matter of personal standards. Being picky and solitary.
Being around others is exhausting... At least with a romantic partner I can guarantee a more mentally (or physically) reciprocal experience worth my time. I'm nta but heavily relate. I get around the friends issue with a partner and a very dedicated animal.

>>40068951
this is usually 100% deserved btw. most people worthwhile would not allow themselves to enter such a state.

>>40069425
C'mon now bruh

>>40069425
it's usually caused by mental disorders like autism, you don't really get to choose that.

nor does anyone want to be born ugly or in the wrong body.

but sometimes it's voluntary yeah, many men especially are ugly due to choices they make in their life not their genes.

>>40069209
i only come on this board to hornypost. 0 reason to come to this board otherwise

>>40069570
I'll post some smut I wrote if you'd like, it's just some cutesie powerbottom fantasy tho.

>>40069469
you know that im right. it's true of me as well
>>40069505
this has a lot to do with how parents now treat autistic kids. i was labeled autistic and it was suggested that i get diagnosed and given special treatment, maybe even put into special ed. My parents were afraid that id be bullied for being different and decided to put me in normal classes. look at chris chan, same thing (though im not as bad as CWC). parents deny that their kid is different and just expect them to do everything a normal person can. it's a miracle i even graduated or have a job honestly.

in the case of uglies it's many peoples faults. a big factor here is the body positivity movement that asserts that everyone is beautiful, except not everyone is and we all know it. they creates dissonance between peoples words and their actions. some people are worse than others amd thats ok. we can't all be geniuses.

>>40069696
I was diagnosed early in life and forced to go through special ED and it ruined everything, it isolates you from normal people, which means your only interactions are with other retards, so they subconsciously influence how you behave and make you even more undesirable, as a result you end up more mentally ill from these schools.

you also make most of your friends for life in school, and you ain't making friends in special ed, so it just robs you of building a social circle as well.

>>40069766
i was isolated anyway. at least if i was in special ed id know that im different. i was treated by my family both as if i were a normal child who just needs to "get over it" and as a drooling retard who quote "would never be able to hold down a job or live on their own". my mother constantly told me how smart i was, but also that it doesn't really matter if i take the retard courses. that i was too worried about college because it didnt matter anyway and I'd never be able to get into a good college or move away anyways, but also i was a failure and "should have worked harder" because i didn't win a full ride scholarship like one of my classmates did.

>>40069766
i ended up subconsciously faking depression just for attention and to harm her for harming me. this spiraled into actual depression which has crippled me entirely.

>>40069130
I can’t do injections, I get huge welts that itch and burn every time I do. Doesn’t matter what carrier oil either.
Though gel doesn’t really work cause I have such shit absorption :/

>>40069945
both of my parents are also retards, autistic is hereditary in my family and widespread in it.

recently confronted my parents about them never listening to the stories I told them about how bad it was going in school since I want to hold them accountable for what they did, they allowed this to happen, they had every opportunity to at least find a different special ED that wasn't as bad because I quite literally went to possibly the worst school in the entire country that was closed down.

and they ignored this for 7 years straight, literally day 1 at school I was forced to strip naked in front of an unlicensed female doctor (can't imagine they were a professional) which I refused until my grandmother encouraged it, after which I was called deformed due to my condition.

all my parents, and my grandmother ever did, was listen to the wrong people, never think twice, despite this being an obvious red flag from day fucking one, and now they're pretending I was right all along, it disgusts me.

>>40070027
have you used mct?

>>40069696
>parents deny that their kid is different and just expect them to do everything a normal person can.
Happened to me... I haven't even been diagnosed with ADHD for 1 months and I get why everyone thinks I'm annoying or an evil person now. I always made friends very easily regardless, though I can't even work a consistent job. Maybe I can work for 2 days to 2 months before leaving.

>>40017685 (OP)
I'm tired of being fat it literally fucking sucks
Lost 25lbs last month, mostly water weight but I'm sick of this.

>>40070141
Haven’t heard of that as an option. Only ever offered enanthate n cypionate by docs. I’ve been considering recently just saying fuck it and using a roidbro site I have to just buy some T since having my body fully feminizing again is actual hell.

>>40069148
im so glad i have a small chest

>>40070871
hello i missed you

>>40070889
what/who was it?

>>40070889
hi again. i'm not too interested in posting rn desu
>>40070960
me lol

>>40070976
why did you delete? i need to add more photos of you to my collection

>>40071063
hey stop larping as me

>>40071074
hey stop larping as me

>>40071081
gloves is still mine

>>40071110
let him decide. gloves, me or anon? who do you choose?

>>40070141
>forced to strip naked in front of an unlicensed female doctor
Parents will trust anybody but you

>>40071137
OH NO I DON'T KNOW WHICH ONE IS WHICH, BETTER SHOOT THEM BOTH DOWN

>>40070141
i mean you literally have a deformity. stop being sensitive.

>>40071327
you're not gloves

>>40069148
Picrel likely didn't get liposuction. If you're fat but intend on getting muscular I think itd be fine to get top surgery soon since you can fill in the loose former boob skin with muscle. this is what i plan to do but I likely can't get top surgery any time soon.
>>40069279
>they don't like to prescribe injections because they think you're too dumb to shove a needle in your ass
maybe its different for europeans but i havent heard of this being a thing. Doctors in my experience are not hesitant to rx injections but a lot of pooners just like gel instead for whatever reason
>>40069945
I didn't grow up with a diagnosis but i grew up with my mom constantly calling me worthless and retarded, and now shes surprised i think i'm too stupid to go back to college or do anything. it never even began

>>40070333
Im sure someone here will be rude and discouraging but something is better than nothing anon. My body moves slowly so it would take me 3 months for 25lbs.

>>40070333
Good luck anon. I need to continue myself but I could only last a month on a calorie deficit before I fell off of it. Though I go to the gym at least twice a week, I haven't gained anything back since and I feel stronger so maybe thats a good sign. I just wish it was easier without spending hundreds a month on ozempic or some shit. I have good self control for everything except for snacking

>>40071363
if you think you're stupid you likely are. the truth always reveals itself. I cut off the people who would glaze me and try to convince me otherwise to manipulate me.

>>40071063
i didn't post a photo of me and i won't for a while. i deleted because i was shitposting off trip in another thread and used the wrong flag with trip attached
>>40071137
none of you, actually

>>40071615
i'm going to kill myself

>>40071423
Well yeah being raised to believe I'm stupid and worthless made me end up that way.

>>40071671
i think there was always a hint of it. either way, you chose to make it worse. you don't get to go back. you must live with your sin.

>>40069353
Makes me happy to be helpful here, because I’ve struggled with it too. It’s not necessarily something you feel like confiding in people about, because nearly anyone you’d talk to you’d feel like you’re telling “I don’t care about you how you care about me”, which isn’t something you want your friends to worry about. Sounds like you have a good view of it going forward though. Especially when we have some non-standard experience, or one we’re unhappy with, it’s compelling to heavily label or pathologize parts of our lives. You might find that as you’re focusing on your own goals, you do value those in your periphery in ways you didn’t realize while you were unhappy about things. They’re fulfilling roles outside of our ideals, but enriching to us nonetheless… Good luck on your gay love quest or whatever though that one’s harder
>>40069410
>exhausting
This is it I think. Just tires me out to be “on” for people. Anyone that I like enough to feel relaxed around, who likes me enough when I’m like that, is going to be of romantic interest. Agree on the animal part too. Very in-tune and deep connection but no social demands.

>>40071335
I shoot anyway

>>40071701
why do I always get idiots replying to me? that makes no sense with what I said

how the hell is this gen still going it was posted like 4 days ago

>>40072293
just not that many ftms on this board i guess

>>40072280
you think you are stupid -> you are

your parents were mean -> you're stupid BUT

your parents were mean because your stupid

it is a fate I have suffered from as well. you committed a Sin by continuing down that path which made you a moron. you must live with it

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