yeah i know 5 thousand ppl are gonna respond "same" but i started transitioning at 19 (basically 20 since it was 3ish months before my birthday) and now im almost 6 months hrt and i think i should stop. the main reason besides it not doing anything about me being ugly is i just feel like if i was actually trans i wouldve realized sooner. everyone else has these moments at like 4 or 6 or whatever and for me i dont remember ever once actively wishing i could be a girl (until 15? i think?) and it was always just this vague subconscious rejection of how i look and how im forced to act and whatever. and no female socialization whatsoever. i never even had female friends until i was like 10 and even tho they became some of my best friends it only lasted like a year and i never saw them again. and now im 5'11 with a bricky body so even if i wanted to try to socialize with women it would be awkward and intrusive. i look at youngshits with envy like everyone else but the part that always gets me is not that they can pass easier, its that they had more time to socialize with girls as a girl and it makes me sad im an ogrehon. it might not be the best reason to stop hrt because the idea of being a man still makes me want to kms but if i cant be a woman while trying (and failing hard) ill just do that anyway.

>>40040061 (OP)
if you stop, you're gonna regret it again and get back on before too long and kick yourself for wasting even more time. also, at this point you've probably got breasts you'd have to get surgery to remove, so you might as well just stick with it

>>40040164
i only have minor growth so far if i cut back a lot of weight it would be slight gyno at worst. and idk i havent ever tried all that hard to repress so if i could make it work that would be nice, im probably killing myself either way so im not that worried about regret. i just dont see how i can possibly see myself as a woman when ive been basically barred from interacting with them my entire life

>>40040061 (OP)
youll never pass at 5'11 with brickbod
try your best to figure out what you want but dont listen to the retards here trying to ruin your life and fertility

>>40040336
Seconded. The groomers here will always try to push you further. Ultimately it’s up to you. I think if you are having serious reservations then you should sit with those feelings and maybe try parsing them out with a therapist, not a bunch of retarded sex weirdos on the MLP cum jar website

>>40040061 (OP)

You wish you weren't trans because it would be a lot easier but try repping for a few years and see what happens tough guy.

>>40040061 (OP)
If you were 14 and 5'8" I would tell you to sterilize yourself IMMEDIATELY!
But 19 and 5'11"? Hmmm idk....

>>40040336
>>40040383
thanks for the reality check ig, im very well aware that theres no chance ill ever pass (not even my main issue my main issue is terminal malebrain). problem is i dont really trust therapy and i dont really see any way i can continue living either way. like i said in the op, the idea of being a man, even if im relatively successful, makes me want to die, but miserably failing at being a woman also makes me want to die. maybe ill just be some enby freak for a while and then finally commit

>>40040406
>would tell a 14 year old to sterilize themselves
I’m finally starting to understand what the Republicans’ hatred of trannies is all about

>>40040416
> problem is i dont really trust therapy
At this point you dont have much to lose by giving it a shot

>>40040061 (OP)
Just stay on hrt. Even if you were fake trans who gives a fuck. Just dont tell people youre a tranny if you dont want to. Theres nothing wrong with anyone taking medication to make themselves happier in their own body, cis or trans

>>40040416
i was you once
it isnt worth it and you are ruining your life im warning you but if you cant help but fall for it then go for it

>>40040402
well technically i did rep a bit. found out what trannies were at 15, realized i wanted to be one at 16, and then repressed until 19. i definitely could try a lot harder tho and i might
>>40040406
yeah ik the height is one the main reasons i need to kms
>>40040421
i get ur point anon but if i had been sterilized at 14 i almost guarantee i wouldnt sh and attempt suicide as much as i do
>>40040431
i guess so, i live in a shitty area tho so im not sure of a way to get someone who is unbiased on this particular issue
>>40040433
well ive been doing this for a bit but the problem is im still miserable because i will never be able to socialize with women (or even men) as a woman and idk how to get over that

>>40040061 (OP)
if you’re going to kill yourself anyway might as well stay on it and see if anything changes with time. what’s the worst that could happen? you don’t like that results and kill yourself? at least this way you give life a proper shot

>>40040444
>i will never be able to socialize with women (or even men) as a woman and idk how to get over that
Yeah it sucks. As a tranny with experience socializing with cisoids pre and post troon, its easier as a guy. Like infinitely. But youre in the same boat as any other non youngshit. Genuinely the only way cissies won't treat you weird is if youre stealth, which most trannies aren't. Don't beat yourself up over it, its a shared experience

>>40040438
my life was guaranteed to be ruined by birth circumstances and already is, im trying to figure out how to make the suffering lessen before i eventually just concede to death
>>40040474
but i could also just actually give repression a shot and at least then ill still have a family and friends who dont think im disgusting

>>40040500
no i get that i thought the same
but its a mistake and you still have a chance to fix your life
but if you truly give up then go for it ig its just really not that good and once you hit 30 your life ends
before you had social justice protections and diversity programs that could help you build something as a tranny but now the world hates trannies with a passion so unless your parents are rich or youll end up very cute and pretty i dont see this working out well
but if theres no other way good luck try your best

>>40040500
family and friends don’t make a life. are you really that desperate to preserve a life you don’t care about? one you actively hate living? here’s how i see it:
>kill yourself now
you die, not much else to it
>repress, succeed
you live a hollow life, one not worth living
>repress, fail
you end up back here but in a worse state
>stay on hrt, succeed
you get to live life. not perfect of course, but one you don’t hate
>stay on hrt, fail
you you end up back here having given it a shot

>>40040522
i just think its way too late to fix my life anyway assuming i go through with trooning. have a shitty dead-end job ill lose if they find out, high school education, basically no prospects for the future at all without my parents
>>40040562
i mean the kill myself one is obviously the most alluring but ruling out the succeed ones i guess staying on hrt would be the least bad? idk, my breasts will probably get bigger that could cause issues like this all has to end eventually idk

>>40040649
youre very young and it isnt over until 30