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>>40032953
QOTT: are you starting to accept permamanmoding?

>>40046765 (OP)
you definitely suck less
>QOTT
yes, I had to from the start

>>40046822
the thing I wasn't prepared for was just how little I was going to change
I've sort of accepted it by now since there's nothing else I can do about it, but it hurts and it hurts a lot

this is the REAL mmg

>>40046765 (OP)
qott yeah unless i get rich or something

>>40046888
if getting surgeries would make you pass are you really a permamanmoder though

>>40046956
I wouldnt cis pass but i could afford to not care about passing

>>40046765 (OP)
Y'all had to accept it? I just understand it was part of existing.

>qott
it is what it is
being an estromale is infinitely preferable to being a stinky moid

>>40046765 (OP)
No, I'll never fully accept it. There needs to always be a sliver of hope.

>>40047067
they don't think it be like it is
and yet, as ever, it do

I will no longer repress

>>40047108
based

i think im going to kill myself in the near future. i really am. the world is done and i despise it. downhill from here what’s the point. a good, short, dog-like life >>> a long pathetic wagie existence as a MAN in a bloodthirsty species

>>40046765 (OP)
With each year, the reality of it sinks further and further in. Unless I’m a woman or married, my 30th birthday present to myself will be a visit to the TRT clinic.

I’m the only realmoder

0 malefails

>>40047271
I malefailed a few years ago when I had long hair and was skinnier

I'm skinny and I don't malefail

I malefail every so often. But it can be pretty long in between some.

>4 mmgs in the catalog
what a nightmare

>>40046765 (OP)
QOTT I might john 55 once i retire

>>40047383
yeah it's dumb and very like early mmg (this iteration of it anyway), and I'm deliberately abstaining from making extra threads over this nonsense lmao

>>40047568
I don't want to stare at fakemoder threads

>>40047605
me neither

so is this the last mmg?

which moder general do i post in now…

>>40047670
Mine sucks allegedly
but i cant delete it </3

if you're tough enough to be a real manmoder you post here in the real manmoder general

i need to rape and kill myself so this is the thread for me

>>40047708
need to rape and gape myself daily or else i'll fucking die

I'm more masculine than I think I am

>>40047766
exactly bro

Unironicaly

>>40047872
ok so like how fucked are we actually, or can i keep saying nothing ever happens?

adam sandler movies were part of my repression

im just refreshing the happening thread on pol

I got that chad jaw doe

Thank god some people here told me not to worry about trump

>>40047923
lmao

even my taste in gay porn is malebrained (I like big guys with muscles)

>>40047872
iran has a right to defend itself

>>40047957
No shame in that. I want big manly men to have their way with me too.

>>40047872
where did you find this pic of me and my friends?

>>40047923
iran’s attack is over and nothing really happened. how many times have they done this? 3 in the last two years? and each time israel kills another group of key officials and iran kills nothing

>>40048051
I hate you fakemoders

austria shooter was so fucking cute
maybe next life sweet prince :'(

>>40048114
I'm sorry? I live as a man, dress in mostly men's clothing, and tell everyone I'm a guy. Isn't that man moding ?

>>40048114
manmoders can’t be gay now this is some seriously hard criteria to track

>>40048150
but do you LOOK like a man?

>>40048163
she has long feminine hair and doesn’t hide her breasts

>>40048183
long hair is irrelevant. how big are the tits?

>>40048163
Ignoring the boobs and 61cm waist...I think so yeah. Not a burly one or anything, but I think I'm pretty man faced.

>>40048183
He. He damnit. I have a penis and everything. I'm a dude.

>>40048202
>24in waist.
what is your underbust and height?

>can’t get attention in passgen
>starts posting in mmg

>>40048228
I don't post in pass gen, as the operative word there is pass. I post in fashion, and food, and over on /o/ and /g/

>>40048212
75cm under bust, 165cm height.

yeah you shit up /ck/ enough
im tired of seeing ur ugly name there

hey hon I think you got the wrong thread, mtfg is three threads down

Scarlett post ass ;D

Body is one thing. Depends on face. Could be bad.

>165cm
nigga please

>>40048256
go to uglymodergen then bro the only thing stopping you from passing is your huge adams apple and long ass face

> 5’4”
> 29” ub
> 24” waist
bro this isnt boymoder general

>>40048298
yeah it is

>>40048316
FUCK YOU KYS

laugh at me all you want boymoders but in the end you get to live a normal completely cis passing life and I get to kill myself <3

>>40048316
>>>/lgbt/bmg

>>40048335
Who’s to say which is a better life? am I right?

>>40048330
not me but yes this lol

>>40048361
it's all about your attitude

>>40048298
Look I didn't eat my wheaties like I was told okay?

>>40048369
I’m talking to passoids online!

>>40048330
be quiet!!! and make me a sandwich

>>40048375
you better have stage vi chud scowl istg

i look like cobson

I look like feraljak

Can an anon post the chud scowl graph please? Can we get an anon to analyze this moder for fakeness?

can I get uhhhhh

we need a manmoder zero knowledge proof

>>40048456
Zoomers can’t handle the unadulterated joy of le random xd oldfagging

>>40048389
how much you wanna bet i’m the only trvemoder here… yeah
if mom got me hrt at 18 i’d been in passgen… no doubt in my mind

>>40048456
RAN
RAN
RUUUUUU

>>40048479
i literally didnt shave for 4 days and now i have a patchy salt and pepper beard. i am a trvemoder. i am a male to female transsexual but a cis gender man.

>>40048492
you can solve that with laser and electrolysis. like youre not a truemoder youre just lazy

>>40048500
being poor adds trvemoder points

>>40048492
uh, based?

chuddy is going sicko mode lately bruh

>>40046765 (OP)
>are you starting to accept permamanmoding?
I have no hope of being desirable but I do have hopes that I'll womanmode some day

the normal transgender flag gives me an ick response and i hate that

>>40048641
same but it's mostly just because I hate the pastel colors I think, it's also been abused as a scheme in many low effort sharty and pol memes along with just being associated with various forms of cringe for like a decade

>>40048641
its giving kris tyson slay bust the house down yaasss queen

>>40048705
I still think you don't understand intergenerational trauma

>>40048717
this is intergeneraltional trauma

>>40048734
ok you got me

>>40048679
BOOTS!!

>>40048996
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCF3ywukQYA

>>40049045
how people look at me shopping in the grocery store

>>40049092
that’s unfortunate. I got that look once when wearing a lesbian band t shirt in public but I had had the shirt from when I was a cisgay and nobody cared then

tofu cooked over burnt plastic
mommy's smoking meth in the trailer park
momma ain't hungry no more
poverty kitchen
going shopping for the week with $20
shoplifting
i like poor people
i like it when they rob me
i eat gruel with peasants
smoke pills on foil with addicts
get aids with faggots
i love decade old shirts with holes in them
i love park bench sleepers
drug slangers
cocksuckers
"not stolen" iphone vendors
raise the crime rate
break the law
open up the prisons
eat the rich
victory to the poor
please come kill me
and take all my money
you deserve it

>>40049128
same i used to wear hand me downs with holes all the time

when i smile in the mirror i'm such a cute little shota i feel guilty for being such a creep because i need to fuck myself and unload my burden all over my teenage self's face. if only i could travel back in time and force myself to start estrogen younger and keep the cute shota in my basement i would fuck fuck fuck myself again and again and again

>>40049108
I'm meming at least a little, I get a really varied set of looks where some people are bewildered or curious or weirdly smiley and nice along with the raised eyebrow or downright angry or disgusted looks

>>40049171
do they look at you juicy cock tho

sometimes i see posts that look like hopes and aesthetics i had when i was younger and i just want to shoot myself for living in this wrecked body

im choosing to believe youre a tvremoder and empathizing anon

guess who spams
spams again
methy spams
tell a friend

eminem dressed like britney mogs me

>>40049299
eminem songs are on the same creative level as a methschizo post. I HATE eminem, fugly bitch

need bi twink

>>40049385
Thats what I've been craving lately too.

>>40049317
i don't like his music but he was kinda bad with the wig on ngl

>>40049016
iconic desu

>>40049426
diddy made him do it

>>40049466
a piece of pure SOVL from a better internet

being a hon is justice for the ways i have acted in my life

Why isn't there a hon moder general? I live as a man because I look like one, but I really enjoy makeup and being an annoying fag and I don't feel like there's a good general to post in.

>>40049557
Mtfg

>>40049557
all the trvehons are posting on x the everything app or basedsky

>>40049637
But they're annoying passoids and youngshits

wow whats that like

>>40049687
Never seen a passing trans woman post there

>>40049687
passoids don't post on mtfg

now how many yall like sex

>>40050023
yes but i'm also a virgin

>>40050023
hell yeah dude

>>40050023
yeah I like money too whoa

having a hard time distinguish between this gen and repgen

>>40050061
distinguishing*

im honmoding and im not in repgen

>>40050061
we're on HRT

>>40050093
half of repgen is also on hrt, dooming much like this gen

>>40050111
that's gay

>>40050111
and there are people in this gen not on hrt. nobody can effectively gatekeep these things and the gens are meaningless in practice.

>>40050134
so this gen is pointless and you're no different from people on repgen

i think estrogen genuinely made me a more empathetic person overall despite it not gifting me with the physical changes that i hoped for
testosterone is a poison

>>40050023
its hot

>>40050163
the difference is that this gen has more manic crazy people while repgen has more depressed people. i like repgen more desu

are you going?

>>40050346
Yes.

yes king

who cares

>>40050208
kek

>>40050346
yes we will defeat the mango mussolini

i voted for trump

so did i kek

>>40050413
>>40050424
>white people

>>40050443
stay mad

>>40050443
and?

>>40050484
>stay mad

>>40050346
libcuck cringe useless protest
hook up with some vatos locos and burn a waymo o algo

>>40050501
struck a nerve I guess...
>>40050535
LESSGOO

i want to lick dakota's pussy wtf is wrong with me

i own a small boat

>>40050556
You're a tranny. I don't need to be salty at you. Time will do its thing.
>>40050568
Completely understandable

>>40050346
no because i'm sure only the lamest people will be there
>>40050535
based

>>40050568
that's disgusting dude.

>>40050582
you're so beautiful
>>40050589
exactly! her body is kino and she's kinda cute now wtf is going on
>>40050610
no way she posted in chasergen and it was hot af

>>40050625
it makes me nauseous

>>40050638
nauseated*

>>40050644
Wrong

>>40050644
nawshus

>>40050625
aww

ThDark
Rising

>>40050413
>>40050424
bootlickers

I have not and will not vote. Ever

>>40050882
no, i'm not a communist

i could eat boots for breakfast lunch and dinner honestly

i got a tap from a really hot tranny top but now i cant respond unless i pay extra and i really dont want to

>>40050976
Yeah its so annoying. I ended up putting I'm not paid in bio, and might miss tap so msg instead.

>>40050882
the other choice was kamala... my ballot would make more sense if it wasn't for the system being 2 party

>>40050969
honmoder

>>40051074
Cutemoder

>>40046765 (OP)
>qott
yeah, its sort of set in that i will always be seen as a man, i dont know what to feel about it, i guess i dont feel anything

i should detransition and try to become an attractive man so im worth something

>>40051195
is that even realistic for someone like you?

>>40051210
its more realistic than being feminine

anyone else emoboymaxxing

>>40051227
yeah

schizoidmaxxing :D

>>40051227
I dont even know anymore what I'm doing.

either i'm hyper or mmg is not moving today.

>>40051317
why do you post here even though you dont manmode

>>40051324
i'm rough and tough

>>40051330
mmg for manmoders please. i come here to escape my bitterhon feelings

>>40051330
ur fakemoding bitch! kys!!!

i have bleeding holes

yum yum methy loves period blood
want to lick my estrogen injection hole and give me faggot AIDS???

>>40051429
u should get that checked out moder

>>40051227
i dont look cute enough to be an emo boy

waiter! waiter! stir my cocktail with your cock, please

>>40050887
Based

juicy penises dribbling slimy strings of cumdrops

a bitch linguistics
a bitch heuristics
hijack with dis dickkiss

my subconciouss procc ess has been replaced with estrogenized conputer symbology

watermelon intifada fried chicken 9/11 white women allahu akbar titties death to israel ass
woke ass tranny
I LOVE CRIMES
I LOVE DRUGS
I LOVE IMMIGRANTS
I LOVE FILLING WHITE WOMEN WITH MY COLORED SEMEN
KILL THE ZIONISTS
EAT THE WATERMELON
I LOVE BEING A TRANNY MUTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mogged again fuck my life

e
v
i
l
or in other words life
see how similar they are
hmmph, damn my glasses are fogging up though

i love it when evil trannies smoke too much weed and drink the blood of innocent british lesbians
hail our BPDemons
victory to Baphomet

>>40046765 (OP)
i've been boymoding for a while, and it's starting to get hard to hide my chest in the summer. I haven't accepted living as a boy, but i'm also afraid of accepting living as a woman. I'm thinking of getting a tight sports bra if i'm not able to socially transition soon

everybody can see my titty bumps who cares anymore it’s over

built like a twink

placing a soft kiss on a moder’s forehead

not a transbian doe

>>40051227
I'm emodadmaxxing

I don't know why I am a drug addict
I have no idea
Death was really right at my door
That was my next option
And a lot of times it was a wonderful option
Because a lot of times, I actually did drugs, hoping I would be... hoping not to wake up
I've been high for days
Been like this for years
I was scared as hell to get high
Now I face my fears

get high in them bathrooms
that's how i was groomed
don't do what i do

never make doing meth your whole personality

>>40047872
thx am using this unironically

>>40053187
please, can i savour your flavour

>>40053234
yawn

sometimes i wake up and i can’t breathe or catch my breath for hours

kier starmer is a corpo
i piss on his grave

>>40052447
i wouldnt let you

I smell like GTA 5 right now

>>40053682
Micheal, Franklin or Trevor?

dubs and mmg becomes bmg

fuck i wish i were asleep right now
i demand cuddles
i will not be denied sleepy snuggles
i am the king of my domain
i want to cozy up to my brother's wife's breasts

I am not a priss
Am I a slave to my mind, oh, ahh
I know it's not right what I'm thinking
I really must be off
Oh, it hurts to laugh
Oh God

just remembered that my mom used to let me wear her heel boots when I was a kid

>>40055245
My mom used to beat my ass, haha!

i'm in horrible pain and can't see a dr till monday so i gotta go to work 2 days while in agony this is nice i deserve this.

>>40055866
What ails you?

>>40055931
pretty sure my jaw infection is antibiotic resistant and didn't clear after taking a bunch of antibiotics

>>40055960
ouch. Hope you get well soon

>>40055837
ftfy

>>40056088
i just know theyre gonna take some note about the homosexual having a nastier mouth than the normies.

>>40056126
I wanna taste your mouth

>go visit some relatives
>some of them don't recognise me and my dad, say that they saw "a man and a kid"
>the men completely ignore me and don't shake my hand
>some of them don't know me and don't ask for my name
wtf is this
failed human mode?

>>40056236
clocky tranny mode

>>40056342
they're like rural people, trannies to them are men with beards and long hair not low T looking fags

>>40055960
Damn that sucks :(

>>40056236
fakemoder

hello fellow hemabs

>>40056669
never malefailed

i wanna be a fakemoder:/

>>40056738
happy pride month, fellow hemab

>>40056471
ok? you're still getting clocked

people just assume I'm a girl until they hear my voice, so there's a 50/50 chance they will switch to he/him

>>40057003
fakemoder die

>>40057030
just dress like a fag and it will happen to you too

>>40057075
lol stop being mean

>>40057075
that never happens to real manmoders like me

I feel like some of you are lying ngl
I know this girl who dresses like a skaterboy, buzz cut, baggy ass clothes, small boobs and she still gets gendered female (we live in a conservative place but everyone thinks androgynous/faggy looking = woman)

>>40057136
whar

>>40057167
huh???

>>40057160
mogs me

>>40056981
no fucking way people here hate troons

>>40057160
Not possible if you're 6'2

>>40057224
??? I'm just saying she's getting clocked
>>40057231
girl shut the fuck up

>>40057241
>??? I'm just saying she's getting clocked
as what, I never ever malefail and I look just like a man
if they knew I'm a troon they'd get really upset

>>40057160
It is the skull shape nigga, telling males from females is not hard

been binding for 9 hours straight now

>>40057275
binding can actually correct oddly shaped tits. mine look kinda good after about an hour or two of binding

>>40057285
trvke
mine are conetits but binding makes them sort of flatter and better looking

>>40057261
idk as a tranny, faggy guy
>>40057271
shes trans. and franz joseph gall died centuries ago stop trying to make phrenology happen again

>>40057314
I am not trying to make anything happen, it is the difference between me being gendered male vs female and why i can never pass

>>40057160
you're fortunate enough to be naive as most cis people, simply because you haven't lived the experience that directly counters your out of touch assertion

>>40057314
>idk as a tranny, faggy guy
yeah as a low T faggot that doesn't deserve respect/looks underage

>>40057372
>naive as most cis people
>haven't lived the experience that directly counters your out of touch assertion
I'm black and I live in a very transphobic third world country, I definitely have far more lived experience as a visible trans person than you lmao shut up and stop making assumptions you bald loser

>>40057460
lol
>I can't be a let-them-eat-cake passoid, my best friend is a hon!
do you really not see the problem with what you're trying to say here? come on bro, nobody buys the "just dress like a girl" or "short hair girl gets she/her'd" shtick and it's been overplayed to death in this general for years by tourists like you

you're just being mean on purpose

so I saw a bunch of non passing trans people today and I’ve basically realized fourchan and all the haters who post here are literally retarded. Healing experience desu, I need to get out more and stop internalizing transphobia

>>40057558
based

>completely ignored anything I said
>made up something I didn't say to get mad at
as always just can't admit you're being stupid and need to have the final word on any discussion, boring

>>40057499
I've gotten used to the passoids
they think their form of
>you're masculine and that means you're faketrans
or
>everybody passes with effort
or
>tee hee I pass and I'm a total manmoder :(
is unique to them and don't realize that various different people have been saying stuff like this for years here

>>40057567
you will never be a manmoder
nobody believes you

>>40057567
>trolls /mmg/
>calls somebody else boring
nigga

>>40057587
nah, I refuse to believe they don't realize it, it's validating for them

i know that passoids on here are sadistic and evil because i was sadistic and evil on here before puberty raped me. in a lot of ways i’m glad god humbled me. thoughhhh that said mean faggots are a valuable archetype

what manmoders think they look like

what manmoders actually look like

>>40057647
>>40057663
I'm not BDD lol I know I look like a freak nerdy dude with tits, and people immediately identify that and treat me accordingly in line with their current social context

>>40057672
start lifting weights and get lasik

>>40057647
i look like this but covered in body hair and i have a worse haircut

>>40057706
mogs me

>>40057703
what? why?

>>40057709
I'm kidding
don't do it if you don't want to

>>40052762
when i was 14 i was like lol why would you try and look like that when ur an old man

now i am the old man and im not even 30 yet

>>40057723
what's the joke?

>>40057749
it's not a joke

i think when you're young its natural to have fantasies about the exciting life you are going to live, people come up with all kinds of things. "im gonna be a woman!" isnt even the craziest thing. but then you get older and realise that no, you are constrained by a thousand things. most likely you end up being like your parents, you have to let your soul die inside you to tolerate the drudgery of it. ill probably be a forklift driver and pick up a drinking habit. oh well

>>40057760
then what were you "kidding" about and why would you suggest I do that? it seems like a complete non sequitur, which I'm pretty sure was just you trying way too hard to frame some kind of burn but failing spectacularly

>>40057672
In portland u would pontentially get discriminated LESS as a honmoder i could imagine lol

>>40057781
what does that have to do with what I said?

>>40057785
Hmmmmm
U get treated badly as a guy with tits you said
So i said if u were a honmoder where u live people potentially would be nicer to you
Which is opposite to the rest of the world
Weird huh

>>40057785
you're letting your autism cloud your reading this time chuddie

>>40057807
I literally did not say or even suggest that

>>40057809
I'm not, I'm making a specific point about a specific poster's own inability to read and attempt to use magically associative thinking to draw conclusions based on words and statements they fabricate whole cloth to substitute in place of what was actually said

>>40057833
>I look like a freak nerdy dude with tits, and people immediately identify that and treat me accordingly
> U get treated badly as a guy with tits you said
….
People treat u nicely because you look like a freaky titty nerd or am i missing something ?

>>40057855
your learning disability is showing

>>40057769
or you can deprogram yourself from materialist markers of success and find peace and worth in your own being

For the record i have never struggled academically or in social situations but still; what am i missing ? did he not say people treat him like a nerdy freaky tit man!?!

>>40057587
>everybody passes with effort
this one is kinda trve, but I think tthe correct would be
>everybody stops looks like a man after a while if they care for it

>everyone passes with effort
genuinely delusional and evil opinion.

>>40057962
it's a meme, and generally the effort is money but most of you here are just lazy cowards

I need that FFS money

>>40057973
yeah man let me just hang my head out of a moving car and scrape my browbone and overall general skull down so i look like a petite foid skull and not an aggressively obvious man.

>>40057973
manmoding is a way of life it’s not about being lazy

>>40058023
it's actually about coping with a failed transition

>>40058098
i manmode to cope with failed repression

>>40057962
it's not a real opinion, it's literally just an insult

>>40058118
trvke

>>40058098
>>40058118
I manmode to cope with failing to wholly identify with either sex or gender

>>40058142
you're coping with the fact that you can't pass

>>40058171
yes, and? that's literally not why I manmode

Yes it is
Do you really think most hons “feel like women” ?

>>40058142
>failing to wholly identify with either sex or gender
>still id as a man
LMAO!

>>40058250
lmao what could you possibly think that has to do with anything? again, you literally only argue (same as every rightoid, christcuck, etc) by holding two things up next to each other and going
>SEE? SEE?? LOOK!
without actually explaining the linkage

you are fascinatingly stupid in the most nerd-rage-inducing way

>>40058254
we live in a heccin society and that operates on a bimodal set of pretense around your perceived ability to fuck or get fucked

How are you guys not depressed to the point of suicide when you waste hours a day trolling chuddette with the same three/four phases

>>40058284
amazing misogynist mindset, expected no less

>>40058301
what's misogynist about that? life literally needs to reproduce to keep going, so it's what our messy evolutionary traits have "optimized" for and unfortunately underlies the majority of our cognition and socialization

next you'll call me a cultural christian and not bother to explain how anything I've said in any way relates to the idea

I wish I had a womb and ovaries xd

>>40058284
> lmao what could you possibly think that has to do with anything?
You manmode instead of honmode because you dont feel like a woman
Well news flash, most hon moders dont either! u are just too scared

>>40058382
lol you actually think that makes sense, don't you
you are wild

>>40058384
What doesnt make sense?

>>40058382
if hon moders dont think that they are woen then hoiwcome they always do the its maam stunt and loudly PROCLAIM their womanhood?

>>40058400
Male entitlement

>>40046765 (OP)
I've gotten better at living with it, but pain remains. That's ok though since it can be managed in ways that aren't destructive. I've been on hrt for 5 years this May, and I'm hitting 40 next year, so I've been thinking a lot about what I wanna do with the reminder of my life - considering everything I know about myself, my needs, my values, and my limitations.
About once a month, I get a rush of emotions and thoughts that put me in a "I must socially transition no matter what" state. It usually lasts for two or three days, but then the fact that social transition can only be honmode for me helps me settle back into my old manmode self.
It's not ideal, but people live with chronic diseases and other disabilities that are more painful and far more limiting than this, and they still manage to find meaning and sometimes happiness. So why not me as well.
The bitter reality is that even FFS could never help me since my body is so obviously masculine, and also my hair allows for little more than a buzzcut even after HRT regrowth (I was nearly, literally bald pre HRT). Even with FFS and the best hair system in the world, I would still be playing rupaul's drag race every day for the rest of my life just to still look like a hon and an obvious tranny. So, a lot of effort and cost for an underwhelming result ... on top of the fact that I can barely function as an actual person in the world as it is. Just maintaining a job and doing basic adult person things already feels heroic at times :p. I don't have the energy for being a hon since that would transition me from an invisible low status moid to a visible even lower status moid who is seen as a sexual pervert.
I feel it's extremely offensive and really just downright retarded to respond to this by claiming I have "brainworms" or by hugboxing. I know what I look like. I know what I am. I just have to live with it and try to do the best of the little time I still have in my increasingly aged and sick body.

i love taking substances

>>40058411
real

>>40058391
huh?

Reminder that chudette would girl mode if he could pass for cisf
The same as any of us…. duh! who here wouldnt want to pass for female?!?

>>40058411
>About once a month, I get a rush of emotions and thoughts that put me in a "I must socially transition no matter what" state. It usually lasts for two or three days, but then the fact that social transition can only be honmode for me helps me settle back into my old manmode self.
that sounds a lot like a pre-HRT kind of repression pattern with medical/chemical transition... now watch as I illustrate my point instead of simply posing things together: do you think the parallel in ebb and flow of your desires or even a similar sense of need then uneasy control over that need might indicate you should at least find trying to find some other middle state or compromising step forward that doesn't leave you feeling something unexpressed or unfulfilled, even if only in some small ways?

I wish I was a cis female with a womb, ovaries, normal height, appearance, not necessarily attractive, but what I'd look like had I been born a female
I wish I wasn't traumatised by my male upbringing and my male body

>>40058465
if you pass as cis you can’t not girlmode

>>40058465
I literally would not you dumb sack lmao keep making my point for me

Of course you would brother
If i am correct chudette is an actual tranny unlike a lot of hons and trenders
The nigga is more dysphoric than i am ngl, even experiencing dysphoria before puberty
Obviously he would live as a woman if he could….. i would too…

>>40058504
amazing that you can attempt to express such seemingly developed opinions while paying so little attention

I'm not meming when I say if I were afab I'd have been some kind of insufferable genderspecial with dick envy, I think the whole sex and gender thing is hella gay and fundamentally reject it along with all the nonsense baggage cisoids have built up around it

>if i were female i would be so fembrained to the point of annoying everyone
Exactly you are a trans woman nigga quit the larp

>>40058472
Nice catch nona, yeah it does feel like how I felt in the years before hrt.
I wanna point out that I'm out to more or less everyone (except my current work) and I don't obsess about hiding my breasts or an odd female-coded article of clothing or accessory here and there. I think to cis normies, this tends to read as "gay" because that's the only way for them to parse male gender deviancy. I also part time girlmoded at one point, and I liked it, but I also realized there's no way for me to pass even with makeup and a properly styled wig in the darkness without opening my mouth.
But yeah, my current plan is to maintain sobriety, lose weight, get a few other things in order, and then present as a more of a feminine man. Including a hair system and some light makeup. Trying to live like a 100% normal moid is just too painful, and I feel that this is what every long term manmoder should realize.

>>40058610
>Trying to live like a 100% normal moid is just too painful, and I feel that this is what every long term manmoder should realize.
wisdom

I've tried to internalize and act on that from the start of accepting that I was some kind of tranny but not suited in a lot of ways to trying to pass or live wholly as a woman, and it's been awkward and difficult but it's also been really helpful as I actually manage it with small (sometimes plausibly deniable) concessions with the whole strictness on gender norms thing and easing into my own body more over the years while at the same time leaning on my generally dudely persona

>>40057883
very hard to do this when every person you interact with is talking about their relationships or their job or whatever. the world itself is material and we measure ourselves by our accomplishments, i want to reject it but that would mean being alone forever

i just wish i could be a normal man at this point

womens social value is based upon their genetics making them pretty and feminine, mens social value is based on their genetics making them rugged and strong and practical.

being a tranny is like, well i dont want to be rugged and strong but i also cant really undo my puberty and be pretty and feminine so i guess ill just become a weak castrated man that nobody likes because i cant lean into the strengths of what i am that cant be undone

I never want to be a normal man

>>40058671
Thank you for replying to my post! Having a bleh night, and it helps a lot being seen by someone who gets it :). I'm glad that what you're doing has been helpful for your.
In the end, life is still extremely interesting, and there's meaning everywhere if you look for it. Life is also very short, so generally I think that an heroing makes no sense unless one truly struggles with some horrific, painful condition.
And fuck, if all else fails, there's always honmode lol ...

>>40057931
>everybody stops looks like a man after a while if they care for it

>>40058465
I kinda just want a cunt so my husband can fuck me easier. I still like being a dude though.