>>40091216 (OP)>be me 10yo>wanted to be a girl from as early as i can remember>already out to parents, just told them i wanna be a girl not a boy>unrestricted internet access>"how to become a girl">eventually find out hrt exists>"how to get hrt">need prescription>prescriptions come from doctors>thats gay why do i need a doctor to be a girl>ask parents about getting me to a doctor who can turn me into a girl>doctor says i have to be 18>wtf im not waiting that long>go ask about hrt without a doctor in the youtube comments of crossdresser videos>eventually find out about diy>itbegins.mp4>skip to 3 years later of extensive research and rummaging around on forums and /lgbt/ and talking to perhaps not the most trustworthy people while faking my age>find a hrt homebrewer>report my findings to parents>"you can get it once you have your own money, that sounds illegal and we dont want to get in trouble">pussies>start filling out those surveys that promise to give you money if you install a virus on your pc>had a bank card at this point but couldnt buy anything online yet>most of them didnt give you any money, but some did>kept going for a long time, wrecked my pc thoroughly>gathered enough money to buy diy>told parents that "i got the money for it now, will you buy it for me?">they see the dedication and how serious i am about this, they feel if they dont do it it's going to hurt me a lot in the future if i went this far to get the money>they tell me i have to buy needles too, but those arent illegal (family friend is diabetic, just bought from where they got them for insulin)>end up starting mono E at 13worked for even an eurotard with bad diy options
did i scar myself forever by reading tranny forums as a preteen? probably
am i pretty now? debatable, still grew to 5'11
being a youngshit guaranteed me nothing but at least i cant beat myself up over not getting it as early as i could