Do you need to let something out anon? is something worrying you?

please do tell and we listen to you.

>>40128657 (OP)
I can't really stop cutting myself. Also I have a cold feeling in my throat/lungs, really hoping I won't have to go to a doctor about it because of the aforementioned cuts + tiny trannytits.

>>40128657 (OP)
I love cock.

I was showing memes to my friend while she was hugging me and she saw the beach twink photos lmao
Now she's being awkward and doesn't know how to react lol

>>40128657 (OP)
I was prescribed some vicodin for something unrelated and it made me feel the most comfy and just generally content I've felt in a long time.
I've never touched any drugs before but boy do I see why people do now.

i like men

>>40128688
you make me sad anon. please dont cut yourself and please try going to a doctor. I know how much its hard and embarrassing but i would not want anything bad happening to you anon. please reconsider it. what if its something that needs medical attention and not cold or flu? anon you matter so much so please take much care and try to be healthy and happy and fight for your wellbeing....

>>40128707
You can love it anon. I hope you find true genuine love in your life funny anon. I pray for your happiness.

>>40128783
It happens! awkward moments come and go and this will remain a beautiful memory somehow i bet. im really happy you are socialising anon. may you find true friends who love you unconditionally anon. much love to you.

>>40128816
Im glad you are feeling good anon. but please find this joy using normal methods through love and life quality. Im afraid you fall for drugs in general anon. i know you wont and you were just sharing but i do be worried. i truly wish you find genuine pure happiness in life anon. much love.

>>40128827
They like you too anon. May you find the perfect husband of your dreams and have many happy romantic memories together.

>>40128869
>i truly wish you find genuine pure happiness in life anon. much love.
thanks friend

>>40128928
thank you too anon. please be safe and well.

>>40128842
>please dont cut yourself
I'll try but I already know it's doomed to fail :[. It just helps a lot when I feel bad (which is frequently as a permamanmoding freak).
>what if its something that needs medical attention and not cold or flu?
I'll see if it sticks around for a few days, but I'm traveling soon which will complicate things.

>tfw the urge to whore myself out online is back again
I regret it so bad every time but it's so nice to get complements and whatnot :[. Sorry anon, thanks for being nice to me

I think I'm some sort of non binary but I find the whole identity cringe. I just want to be perceived as an androgynous being without the They/Them bullshit.

I really envy (lmao) korean popstars

>>40128966
anon you hurt me with such words. i wish you could see yourself with these depressing thoughts. why do people here carry so much anger and hatred for others and themselves...

anon please dont hate yourself or cut yourself. you are not what you think and you genuinely deserve love and understanding like anyone else. so please work on yourself and be free from your own hatred.

Anon i have nothing in my heart but love and understanding for you and all anons here. so i ask of you truly and genuinely to please reach out if needed and try to help yourself and others around you. we wish you the whole world anon. please be safe.

>>40129066
I'm sorry anon. I'll try to be better.

>>40129026
dont envy people anon and play your cards right and improvise on them. I promise you that effort always pays anon. I hope you find your true identity and be the very prettiest.

>>40129100
anon. all what i ask is to love yourself as much as i love you right now and wish you good from a stranger to another. please be well anon.

>>40128657 (OP)
i feel suicidal

>>40129224
Relax anon and know that you are depressed and you need help and care.

please know that harming yourself will only bring great great sorrow and pain to you and your loved ones and to me even.

you need to fight just a little bit. for your identity and sake anon. please remember that you survived a long journey to be here. its not over and you are close to winning. many good times are ahead.

fight for a better tomorrow anon. we love you and you are not alone.

>>40128657 (OP)
my pre hrt gf is driving me insane to the point i've asked her to break up with me if she knows she'll keep hurting me bc i feel like i'm stuck being the mom of an adult that should at least be able to put their life in order but all she does is the opposite and the worst part is i love her so much i can't bring myself to not have her warmth as i am scared of being alone again

>>40128657 (OP)
I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>40129280
Anon i know you probably wont like this. but can you please sit with her and tell her how much you love her and what worries you and so? tell her everything you think without rude words. anon you seem to really love her so please try working this out. communication is really important and she needs to help herself and help you too. you both need each other. please reach understanding with unconditional love. i pray that you both be happy together.

>>40129288
can you take HRT anon? become a trans woman. I wish i was something different too but we must play our own cards. please dont overthink or worry anon. try to see your life quality and your own qualities. I know you have something others want. i wish you happiness anon.

>>40128842
Heh, well she's not angry but she just gently pushed me aside and went ahead to prepare breakfast, went some grocery shopping and she still gives me puppy eyes, like "why are you doing this I was hodling you" lol

>>40129438
you too seem happy together its cute. she is a good friend. please take much care of her and live beautiful moments with your friends. you enjoying life means so much to me anon. much much love to you.

>>40129257
thank you. i dont harm myself though, just take drugs to numb myself

>>40129499
I pray for your safety and wellbeing anon. please dont overdose and reach out if needed and seek therapy if you can. we love you much anon and wish the best for you.

>>40129358
>i wish you happiness anon
thanks :)

>>40129482
Eh, there's moments, I try to keep it that way as much as possible, hope you have a nice day, love your name btw.

>>40129672
much love.

>>40129718
thank you anon. i like your character too. please take much much care.

>>40128657 (OP)
I'm just not confident in the whole state of the world at the moment. All the chaos on uncertainty is not good for my fluctuating mental state.

>>40129549
thank you for your kind words but i feel like i reached such a level of apathy that i can't come back from. there is this yukio mishima book that is called something alongside "a life for selling" where the character has this innate suicidal thoughs and try to takes his life away, but fails. and after that, he just lives lightly, like if nothing had value and all roads end in the same place. thats how i feel. i dont want to kill myself but i dont think i'll care if i die. i spent the last 4 years of my life doing nothing, becoming nothing, gaining nothing, and lastly, i lost my faith. now i will pretend to live my life like an animal does, without thinking, doing things for the sake of doing them but with the effort of having no conscience at all

i am MtF btw